Hey y'all. :) I didn't expect to have an update for y'all this soon, but I guess I have been in the writing mood. Anyway, here is the next chapter. :)
Stef had just gotten off work. She pulled into the familiar driveway, took off her police shirt, and made her way to the front door. She knocked and waited for an answer. Robert came to the door, quickly. Opening it, he appeared confused.
"Stef? What's wrong? Is Callie okay?" Stef's blood began to boil.
"I know what you did, Callie told us everything and if you ever tell her to lie to us again I swear-"
"I was just doing what I thought was best for my daughter." Robert picked up on Stef's anger and began to get defensive as well.
"You daughter." Stef began to smile, outraged.
"Yes, my daughter." Stef stared at him momentarily and then walked away. "It's over, Stef. The judge has decided. You're wasting your time, it's too late." Stef turned around to face Robert.
"Well, I am not going down without a fight." With that, Stef got in her car and drove away.
Walking in the front door, she saw that all of the downstairs lights were off, except one in the living room. Peaking in, she saw Callie sitting on the couch, in deep thought.
"Love, what are you still doing up?" She asked, standing at the doorway.
"Lena told me that you used to cut. Is that true?" Stef felt her breath catch in her throat. She walked over and sat down next to Callie, taking the young girl's hand in her own.
"Yes. I did." Stef was upset that Lena had told her daughter about that, but she could understand why she did. Lena was the only one to know that about the cop. She hadn't talked about it before or since she confessed it to Lena.
"Could we…" Callie trailed off, trying to find the nerve to ask about it. "Could we maybe talk about it? I mean we don't have to, but I think it would help me if we did."
"Are you feeling like cutting tonight?" Stef was trying to stall.
"No. I just wanted to talk to you about it. Lena told me the majority of it, I just…I don't know. Maybe it is stupid. No need to talk about water underneath the bridge. Nevermind. Forget I said anything." Callie stood up. The mother was quick about pulling her back down.
"Sweets….Sit down. Don't run. Let's talk." Stef knew that in order to help her baby, she was going to have to open up. She talked Callie through everything Lena had told her earlier in the afternoon. By the time she was done, she was in tears. Wiping away the last of the tears, Stef continued. "Now, just because I did that, it does not mean that it was okay."
"I know. But, do you ever still have the urges to do it?" Callie was more worried about the urges never going away than anything else.
"Honestly? Yes, that was my only way of coping for a long time.." Stef saw Callie's face fall. "They have not gone away completely. However, that doesn't mean that they are as strong. The longer you go without cutting, the less intense the urge to do so becomes."
"I was doing so good, though. Looking back it seems stupid." Stef nodded her head; she knew that feeling all too well.
"Most of the time, it does feel stupid. But you need to know that nothing you feel is stupid. If you are feeling some type of way, then there is a reason for it, and it is not stupid."
"Okay." Callie wasn't sure what else she wanted to talk about, but at least now she knew that she could talk to her mom about cutting and her mom would understand completely.
"I went by Robert's tonight." Stef blurted out after sitting in silence for a few minutes. Callie looked at her with an eyebrow raised. "I wanted to tell him that he better not ever tell you to lie to me again."
"How'd that go?"
"Not so well. He said that the court had already decided and I told him that I wasn't going down without a fight." Callie felt the tears coming.
"Why, though? I mean I am nothing but a screw up. I keep making you and Lena's life hard. I have cost you both so much money in lawyer fees and court costs. Wouldn't it be easier to just let me go?" Stef reached up to wipe the tears from Callie's face.
"Callie Quinn Jacobs, don't you EVER talk like that again. Lena and I don't care how much we have to spend to be able to keep you. You are just as much our daughter as Mariana is. We will fight for you until the end of time if we have too. You are not disposable, Callie." This was something that Stef always told her when she felt as if she didn't belong with them. It was really nothing, but to hear someone say those words about her, she was finally beginning to believe them.
"Okay. I just don't want you guys to get tired of fighting or to feel like you have to fight for me."
"We don't. We love you, Callie girl." Callie laid down on Stef's lap. The mom was so tired but figured that at this moment this is what her baby needed, so she made herself comfortable and threw the blanket from the back of the couch over Callie. Stef began running her fingers through Callie's hair. Just as Callie, and herself, began to drift off, she heard Callie mumble something. "What was that, love?"
"I love you, Mom." Tears sprung to Stef's eyes and a smile graced her lips. This was the first time Callie had called her Mom. Sure she had called the cop her foster mom when introducing her, but she had never referred to her as Mom. Stef decided not to make a big deal out of it.
"I love you too, Callie." She said as her voice began to crack.
About an hour later, Stef was woken up by Lena.
"Honey, how long have you been home?" Lena asked softly as to not wake a sleeping Callie, still in her wife's lap.
"A little over an hour. Callie was down here waiting to talk, so we talked and then she fell asleep. I guess I did too." Stef moved Callie off of her lap.
"mmmmm. Mom?" Callie began rubbing the sleep out of her eyes. Lena raised an eyebrow at Stef.
"Mom?" she mouthed. The blonde shook her head.
"I'm right here, Baby. Why don't you go ahead and go to bed. You have school in the morning, and I know your bed is more comfrotable than this couch." Callie got up, folded the blanket, and hugged each of her moms.
"Good night, Bug. We love you."
"I love you both too." With that, Callie headed up the stairs to her room. After turning off the lights, Stef and Lena followed suit.
"So Callie called you Mom?" Lena asked with a smile, once she and her wife were in the bed.
"Yeah."
"Do you think she realized it, or was it her sleep talking?" Lena couldn't deny the fact she was a little jealous that Stef was called Mom first. Sure, she wasn't as close to Callie, but she thought (well hoped) that she would be called Mom first.
"I don't think so. We talked about my cutting when I was younger, which by the way thanks for warning me. Then as we were finishing up she called me Mom. I missed it the first time so I asked her to repeat herself and she said it again." Stef smiled remembering how it felt to hear her baby call her that. She looked over at her spouse and saw that she looked a little upset. "Don't worry, Love. Your time is coming." Stef kissed her lover.
"That is great, Honey. I know that must have felt good. I know that my time is coming. If you remember, Mariana and Jesus called me Mom first. When they did, you were so hurt. I told you the same thing, that you time was coming." Lena smiled remembering the first time she heard that precious word mumbled by her babies.
"I remember." Stef smiled as well. She had always felt as if the kids were closer to Lena than they were to her. It felt good to have Callie close to her. "We should talk to Mariana before school in the morning, which means we need to wake up earlier and then have to wake her up earlier, a task in itself." Lena laughed.
"Yeah, we should get some sleep. I love you, baby."
"I love you too, my love." Lena leaned over and kissed Stef, before Stef pulled her closer and they fell asleep in each other's arms.
The morning came too quickly for the moms. Lena was the first one awake so she was the one who had the job of waking up Miss Thang.
"Miss Thang, wake up honey. Mom and I need to talk to you, alone." Mariana stirred and began mumbling incoherently. "Come on, Honey. Get up." She pulled the blankets off of her daughter, the only way to make sure she got up.
"Mama!" Mariana whined.
"Shhhh. Get up and meet me and Mom downstairs." Lena looked over at Callie, hopefully she didn't wake up.
"Fine." Mariana went into the bathroom and five minutes later, she was in the living room on the couch in between her mothers.
"Good Morning, Sweets." Stef said as soon as Mariana got comfortable.
"Morning. What is so important that you had to wake me from my beauty sleep?" the young girl asked, forgetting her talk with Callie the afternoon before.
"It's about what you saw yesterday." It all came back. Callie was cutting again. Mariana's whole persona changed, she went from aggravated to concerned in a split second. "We know that Callie has told you about her cutting in the past and Mama told me about you finding the blood in the trash can in your room. We have talked with Callie, and everything is under control as of now. The reason we wanted to talk to you was to have you help us keep an eye on her. We are not asking you to mother her." Stef wanted to make it clear that Mariana was not to parent her, just look out for her. Let us know if you see something suspicious. If she goes into the bathroom and spends longer than normal, you find blades missing from your razor pack, things like that."
"I can do that." Mariana stared off into space, thinking. She had never been around anyone that cut before, they whole idea was foreign to her.
"What is it, Miss Thang?" Lena asked, placing a hand on her daughter's leg to bring her attention back to the conversation.
"It's nothing. Well, I mean, is Callie okay?"
"She will be, Love. She has all of us. We now know that you two talk, so just keep that up. Make sure she knows that she can come to you if she doesn't feel comfortable coming to us." Stef smiled.
"Yeah, I can do that. I love to talk."
"Just don't smother her, Honey. Don't feel like you have to go looking for something that may not be there. That could cause more harm than good. Just let her know that if she ever needs to talk, you are there for her. You don't have to tell us about your talks, unless you feel as if she needs help or is harming herself, okay?" Lena knew how her daughter was. She would pester Callie day in and day out to get answers and then Callie would get irritated and end up going off on her sister. They didn't need that happening.
"Okay. Is that all? Since I am up at the crack of dawn, I might as well use it to my advantage and get in the shower before the others wake up." Mariana was always the one who took the longest to get ready in the morning. She never could get ready in fifteen minutes.
"Yeah, that's all. We love you." Before Stef could get that out of her mouth, the girl was up the stairs.
Shortly after Mariana had gone upstairs to take a shower, the kids began coming downstairs one by one. The second to last was Jude, they were just waiting on Callie. Everyone was sitting down eating when he came down.
"Good morning, Judicorn." Ever since Mariana called him that, it had become his nickname from everyone.
"Morning, Mammas. How is Callie?" He asked fixing his plate.
"She is fine, Bud. Much better than yesterday." Stef answered, sipping on her coffee.
"Good. I was worried."
"Nothing to worry about, Baby." Callie spoke up as she walked into the kitchen fully dressed for school. She looked at Stef who gave her a big smile.
"Good morning, Mom." Callie said placing a kiss on her cheek. Stef looked over at Lena with big eyes. "Good morning, Mama." The brunette greeted Lena that same way as she did Stef. Everyone at the table had a huge grin on their face, especially Lena who was trying to hold back the tears. She didn't allow Callie to get far before she pulled her into a giant Mama hug.
"Good morning, my Baby." Lena said before peppering Callie with kisses. The smile on the young girls face was bigger than it had ever been.
Breakfast finished up without much more excitement.
"We better get going, before we are late." Lena said as she placed her plate in the sink. Everyone had grabbed their things, kissed their mom goodbye and headed to the car. Lena stayed back a moment.
"I can't believe Callie did that so soon. I thought my heart was going to melt." Lena smiled.
"I am happy for you, Love. Have a good day. I love you." Stef kissed her ecstatic wife.
"I love you too. See you tonight when you get home." With that, Lena was out the door.
