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Lily PoV:

I laid in my bed staring at the ceiling. It was after the meeting with Charlotte. I hated the Silent Brothers. I mean, I didn't hate them, I just thought they were weird. I stared at the ceiling thinking of what Will had said. I turned over and sighed. I didn't want to let him explain. I did want to, though. Soon my eyes fluttered closed.

The door slammed open and I shot up, wide awake. Will slammed the door shut and I stared at him in shock. "And just what do you think you're doing?" I asked, anger in my tone.

"I just want five minutes to explain." He said holding up his hands.

To be honest I hoped he would do something like this.

I couldn't stand fighting with him. "Begin." I said, reaching for my robe.

"Lily, I didn't do it I swear. I don't even know what happened. I just remember her starting to speak, then we were there. I swear I didn't mean it, I swear. I promise I would never do anything to hurt you. Please, forgive me. Please." Will said, getting down on his knees, begging me.

I felt a pang in my chest. "Get off the floor, Will." I said, placing my hands on my hands on my hips, staring at him.

He shook his head and moved closer to me on his knees. "Not until you forgive me."

I felt my face get hot. I loved Will. He had got down on his knees and begged me. I tried not to smile. Will stuck his lower lip out in a pout, shuffling closer to me until, until his arms had wrapped around my knees. "Please, forgive me!" he said looking up at me, his chin hitting my nightgown.

"If I do, will you let me go?" He stayed silent and I crossed my arms.

"Forgive me! Accept my apology!" He said squeezing my legs. "Forgive me Lily!" This time he pulled me down and caught me in a cradle.

I tried to scramble away but he started to tickle me. I cringed and writhed, laughing. "Will stop!" I yelled.

"Not until you forgive me."

I laughed and kicked then we were kissing. He laid me onto the floor, cradling my head in his hands. I forgot what I was mad at him for. I felt my eyes flutter close. I wrapped my arms around his neck. When his lips moved down to my neck I tried not to laugh. "Do you forgive me?" He asked, his lips moving against my shoulder.

"I do." I said as I sighed.

His lips found mine again and I felt his arms weave under me to pick me up and sit up, placing me on his lap. I wrapped my legs around him. His hands ran down my sides and found the bottom of my nightgown. My breath hitched my throat. I leaned forward and kissed his neck. Then a knock at the made us both freeze. "Lily, the Brothers are here." Charlotte said from outside.

I scrambled up from the floor and put on a dress and brushed my hair. "Coming!" I called.

I pressed a kiss to the top of Will's head, who still sat on the floor and I walked out the door.

Tessa (after the meeting she heard with Charlotte):

Tessa knew that Will had enjoyed the kiss in the attic. She had taken him holy water, and made him kiss her. She felt more in love then she already was. But the kiss made her loose her focus and Will had immediately broke away and ran away. She knew he had like, or at least she hoped he did. Her first kiss, forced.

Lily PoV:

I followed Charlotte to her study. Only one Silent Brother stood there. Brother Enoch. Jem sat on a couch and I joined him. Lilian, your brother had informed me of your sickness. I nodded. All he did was stare at me. Nothing. I can see nothing wrong with her. Watch her closely, James. Do not let her overdo herself. Lilian, rest. Then he left in his parchment robes.

Can't overdo myself? What in the world did that mean? "Well, then. Lily you should follow the Brother's advice—"

I cut Charlotte off. "No, Charlotte, I don't need to rest! I just…I don't know!" I walked out and into the library and sat down at the piano and started to play. I couldn't concentrate on the music and I groaned and started to pace the room.

"Oh, Lily." I turned to the voice and found Tessa, standing in the door way.

I tried not to glare at her. "Tessa." I said, so harshly she took a step back.

"Lily, do you hate me?" I turned back to look at the flames in the fireplace.

I really didn't know. I might and I might not. I stayed quiet. She took a step closer. "Please."

"Tessa, regret is a pointless emotion. I want to answer you, but I hardly know you. We've never even had a proper conversation. I feel as if I answer you, I will feel regret. Maybe in a few months ask me again." I turn around and walk to her. "But I can tell you that if I ever see anything between you and Will, the answer to your question will be yes. As long as Will and I are whatever we are, and I feel as if something is wrong, the answer is yes." I walk closer, standing on her left side, my shoulder in line with hers. "And I hate demons. You know what I do to demons." I said, looking her in the eye.

I walk out and frown. I meet Will half way down the hall. "Lily, Jem just told me—"

I cut him off. "Yes, can you believe they told me to not over do it!?" Will grabbed my shoulders. "Calm down."

I shook my head. "I will not! It's…It's as if they don't want me to be a shadowhunter! I will not! I will not become like Tatiana or Jessie! I will most certainly not!"

Will was smiling. Then he laughed. "Lily, they aren't asking you to become like them! All they are asking is that you don't go try to kill every demon you come across." He told me.

Jem appeared beside him. "Of course that's what it means!"

I glared at him. "Not you to, James! I am simply nothing like that!"

He shook his head. "Oh, yes, you are."

I felt my face get hot. "When have I ever been like that?"

Will stared at me with a smile. "Lily, every time we go outside, you want to find a demon."

"I—I—I am most certainly not like that!"

"Yes, you are." They both said.

"I—boys—you—I am not—BOYS!" I turned away and marched up the stairs.

Tessa PoV: I'm skipping till the attack of Mortmain

The clockwork creature drove its blade into Agatha's chest. "Agatha!" Sophie cried out.

Lily, who stood in front of Tessa. protecting her, gasped. The creature simply left. "Go! Get in there!" Lily said, pointing to door to the next room.

Together they got her in. "Shut the door! Lock it!" Lily said. "Calm down, Sophie." She also added.

Tessa obeyed her. Even though Lily and she didn't have a good relationship, she knew that in this situation, Lily was the one to obey. Lily began to search the room. "Nothing! Damn!" Lily exclaimed.

Tessa paled, she had never heard a lady use that word. "Why did they take every weapon?! I cannot get to my room! I'm defenseless!" She said, still searching.

"How did they get in here?" Sophie said, who had started to cry.

"It had Jem's blood on its hand." Lily replied, a moment before Tessa.

"Damn!" Lily said again.

"Miss. Lily! Please!" Sophie said.

"Oh, hush! We are under attack and your worried that I maintain my manners?!"

Then Lily's eyes landed on the window. "Dear Lord!"

A swarm of automaton's stood on the porch. "I need a weapon!" Lily cried.

Tessa's eyes searched the room as she tried to hold the door closed. Above the mantle was a sword. "Lily! Above the mantle!" Tessa said, flinging her arm out. Lily rushed to it, but the door burst open before she could grab it. Clockwork creatures burst into the room. "Sophie! Lily!" Thomas cried out.

"Oh, by the Angle!" Lily said. Jessie looked horrified. The clockwork machines had become still. "Thomas! I need a—" Lily said, but was cut off as a seraph blade flew through the room. Lily swiftly caught it, then a sly smile spread over her pink lips. Nate stood behind Jessie, frightened. Sophie still sobbed over Agatha. Thomas pried her from the body. "Miss. Lovelace, please take Sophie, Miss. Carstairs, and Miss. Gray to the sanctuary."

"No. I don't think so. You can take the servant and yourself wherever you wish to go, but do leave Miss. Gray here, as well as her brother. And Miss. Carstairs, she is so lovely. She would make a good wife, Nate."

Lily grimaced, moving her sword until it was pointed at Mortmain's throat. Nate looked proud at what Mortmain said. As though he was honored, as though he would love to marry the girl Mortmain talked about.

"I will never marry anyone like you." Lily growled.

Tessa was disgusted, to even think of Lily and Nate—. "Nathaniel, excellently done. I'm proud." The older man said.

Lily turned and pointed her sword at Nate. "I KNEW IT!"

She said as Nate fell to the floor in from of Mortmain. "Thank you, Magister."

Lily PoV:

"Seize the Shape-changer!" It was chaos. I swung my blade into a metal hull, Tessa had been freed of the automaton and I snatched her back. I stood in front of her, as I fought, one of the creatures' scythe raked down my arms. I hissed in pain.

"Run! To the Sanctuary!"

We ran up the stairs. "Tessa, hurry! Oh, damn this dress!" I commanded, then hiked up my dress further.

As we entered the room I slammed the door shut. The seraph blade still in my hand. I stood in a fighting stance. The room filled with the machines as the doors burst open. I tried to fight them, but I couldn't handle all of them. I was held inches off the ground, a metal hand around my neck. Tessa stared at me in horror, backing away slowly.

"Don't kill the Shadowhunter just yet." Mortmain said.

"No, kill me." I hissed out, trying to pry the metal fingers from my neck.

"Kill you?" Mortmain questioned.

"I'd rather die than join you." I hissed.

"Really?"
"Really. You underestimate us, us young Nephilim. You think that you could just steal Tessa away and we wouldn't even pose a threat to your army of metal. You think that we will see how many machines you have and run and hide in fear, or bow down, then join your side. You don't know us, Mortmain. You have no idea how stubborn we young Hunters are. You have no idea how hard it is to kill us, we're so stubborn that we refuse to die. You don't know how we fight. You probably don't know one thing about me." I hissed out between my teeth.

"Oh, on the contraire, Miss. Carstairs, I do know you. I know that you fight with a dagger you were given on your fifteenth birthday by William Herondale. I also know, Lilian, that you would do anything for Will. He always comes first for you." Mortmain's face had a gloating look to it.

"You're wrong again." He looked taken aback, I went on. "Yes, half of that was true, Will did give me my dagger, but the last part…it's a lie. Will shall never come first for me, unless someone dies."

"And who is that someone, Miss. Carstairs?"

"My brother." I hissed. "He and Will may be parabati, but I come first for him, and he comes first for me." Mortmain opened his mouth, but I continued not letting him speak. "You think that's a lie, but it's not. Will knows it, everyone knows it. Jem told Will before they became parabati that I will always come first. You could put a knife to both Will and Jem's throats and ask me to choose. Yes, I love Will, I will love him forever. But James is my brother. He's my only family left, my blood family. And if you ask me to choose, Jem's name will come out of my mouth in an instant."

Mortmain looked amused. "Blood family, Miss. Carstairs?"

Tessa was slowly backing away to the table with the knives. She slipped one up her sleeve, another she held in her hand.

"He is the only person in my family related to me."

"Your family?" The man inquired.

"Of course you wouldn't know that either. They are my family."

"Who is your family?"

"Charlotte, Henry, James, Will, Sophie, Thomas, by the Angle, even Jessie, and Tessa; she's joining into the family. Before you ask, my family is the people I'll protect, the ones I'd die for. I've lived at this Institute since I was little, Charlotte and Henry are like my parents. Sophie and Jessie are like my sisters. They are my family."

"And what was the point of this grand monologue, that I have so astutely enjoyed, Miss. Carstairs?"

"The point? The point is, you think you know every little detail about me. You don't know the first thing about me, old man! AND YOU THINK THAT THE HUNTERS WILL JUST BOW DOWN! NO! WE WILL FIGHT YOU! WE WILL FIGHT YOU UNTIL WE TAKE OUR LAST BREATH! THE POINT IS, MR. MORTMAIN, THAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING! BUT YOU DON'T! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING."

"LILY!" Tessa screamed.

A knife flew through the air and I caught it, then brought it down on the metal arm that held me. I fell to the ground. I tried to fight them.

"Throw her." I heard Mortmain say.

One of the automatons whipped his arm back and knocked me away, sending me flying across the room. I hit a mirror on the stone wall. I felt my skull crack, felt the sticky blood run through my hair, then I fell to the cold ground. I must of cracked a couple of ribs, it hurt to breath. I swore I heard Tessa shout my name, and I could have sworn I heard Will. Then the word went black.

Tessa PoV:

Will ran into the room. "Oh my God, Tessa!"

Tessa sat up, "Don't worry about me, it's not my blood. It's a girls."

"Are you alright?"
"Just fine, but Lily! She needs help." Tessa flung her arm out to where the girl laid.

Will ran over. "Oh, Lily. Her skull, it's cracked."

"Will? Tessa?" Jem called.

He stumbled into the room. His eyes searched, and as they fell on his parabati holding his sister, he ran to them, falling on his knees.

"Tessa, go! Go get Charlotte! She's downstairs, we'll take Lily to the infirmary."

Tessa ran out of room.

3rd person PoV:

Will lifted Lily into his arms and walked carefully out of the room with Jem on his tail. He walked down the stairs and the long hallway then laid Lily on the first bed in the infirmary. Jem could see glass shards protruding crudely from her skull. She moaned, as though coming back to life.

"Lily?"

"It hurts." She whispered.

"I know, I know." Jem comforted her. Will had grabbed her hand

"Oh my goodness Lily!" Charlotte bustled into the room.

Lily groaned in response.

"Charlotte, what can we do?" Will asked.

"We'll have to pull the shards from her head, and give her a rune."

"Won't that hurt her?" Jem asked.

"Yes, but—"

"No, she's already in pain." Will stopped Charlotte.

"I know Will, but—"

Soon everyone was arguing on what to do with Lily, their voice's rising slightly.

"Why is everyone shouting?" Lily mumbled.

"Lily, dear—" Charlotte began.

"Pull the glass out, it hurts. Please just get it out!"

Charlotte's hand found a shard and Lily winced. "Will…hold her."

As she pulled it out, Lily gave a cry. On the fifth one, she went limp in Will's arms from the pain. After all the glass was out they drew a healing rune on the back of her neck. Lily sighed. The wounds glossed over almost instantly.

Later that night, William and James sat once on each side of her bed. Lily's deep breathing was the only sound. Each boy had one of her hands.

"James?"

The silver haired boy looked at his parabati. "Yes?"

"I…I need to ask you something."

"Anything, Will."

"Can I have her hand?" Will mumbled.

"What?"

"I know that we're young, but in a few years, can I…can I have her hand—in marriage?"

"Lily's?" Jem asked, a smirk on his face.

"Yes."

"I thought you'd never ask, Will."

The two boys smiled at each other.

Tessa PoV:

Everyone had dressed in white for the funeral. Jessie was in a pretty white dress, Charlotte was too. Will and Jem were in white suits. They looked so handsome. But the one person that outshined them all was Lily, who had just woken fully that morning.

As she climbed out of the carriage returning from the Silent City, Tessa was at a lost for breath, just as she had been when she left. Lily was dressed in a long white dress, covered in lace. It had an old fashioned high collar, and long lace covered sleeves. There were buttons from the top of her collar to the bottom of the dress. Tessa saw black boots peeking out from the bottom. Her ring rested at her throat. The young girl's black hair had been kept down, just a few pieces of her thick dark hair had been pulled back from her face, only held back by a stark white bow, with lace. She was on Will's arm. With their black hair, they looked like angels who had fallen, or they looked as though they could be going to a wedding, or be the bride and groom.

After the talk with Charlotte, Tessa decided she would stay. She would stay, she would stay and try harder to make Will her own. She was going to go see him…in the attic.

When she got there, she noticed that Will was still in his white clothes. Lily was also curled up in the corner, sound asleep, Tessa hoped. "Will, can we talk?"

Lily PoV:

I had curled in the corner of the attic. As my eyes fluttered open, I froze. Tessa…Will…kissing. I watched, it became more passionate, I tried not to gag.

I saw Will push Tessa off.

"Tessa, you can't! I don't love you! I love Lily! I don't care if you stay! Leave!" I flinched, like I always did when Will yelled.

Tessa startled back. Then she turned and ran out of the room. I shut my eyes before Will could glance at me. My head still ached, and now my heart did. It felt as if someone had stabbed my dagger in my heart, the someone was Will.

"Controlling me. She's controlling me." He muttered.

I yawned and let my eyes flutter. "Did I fall asleep?" I mumbled.

"Yes, Lily you did."

If you don't like make-outs, skill until another's author's note, which will be important.

Will stood above me, I stared into his blue eyes, all I saw was love. He did say he loved me and not her. He held out his hands and I placed my small ones in his. He pulled me up and I moved my arms to his neck. He kissed me, and I felt like I always did. What I wondered was if I kissed as well as Tessa. He parted my lips and backed me up against the wall, he began to undo the small buttons on my collar, and he stopped just above the start of my cleavage.

He kissed my neck and my head fell back, my eyes fluttered closed. I wove my fingers through his curls. His hands squeezed my waist.

"Lily, did I tell what I thought when I saw you lying on the floor?" He murmured into the hollow of my neck.

"No." I mumbled, hardly able to form a coherent thought.

His lips moved up my neck and to the hollow of behind my ear. "I thought I would never get to do this again", he pressed his lips to my temple, "or this", he kissed my other temple, "or this", he kissed the tip of my nose, "and I don't think I could live without being able to do this." He kissed my lips and I kissed his back.

Whatever doubt I had about him not loving me was gone. His lips moved to my neck.

"Maybe…" I started.

"Maybe what?"

"Maybe we should go to my room."

"Maybe."

We did. It was hard getting down the stairs, Will wanted to kiss every second, but when we finally got to my door, I shut and locked it. We fell back on the bed, and I unbuttoned the dress to my waist and will helped me pull it over my head, I was left in my corset and my slip. We went back to kissing. My fingers went to his jacket and after I undid the buttons, I pushed it off him. His fingers undid my laces and removed the corset, as his lips moved on my neck. He squeezed my waist and I winced, my ribs still sore.

"Are you alright? We don't have to go on, if you don't want to." Will looked up at me with concern.

"No, no, I'm alright."

"Are you sure?"

I kissed him long and hard. "I'm sure."

So how was that? I'm sorry that I haven't updated in a long time. Please review and tell me how I did. The next chapter will be up probably tomorrow because I already wrote it *shrugs*, I'll add some changes tonight and post it tomorrow! Review please! Would you read a book I wrote? Love always- a hunter of artemis here