Johanna has me over her shoulder as she carries me to her room. I keep on trying to wiggle out of her grasp but she has me, so I give up and hang over her shoulder uncomfortably. I keep on thinking to myself, how am I going to talk to them? Sure I have said a couple of words but they were the only words I was planning to say to them. I mean, I have only known them for a couple of hours and now they want me to join their gang group? Seriously who would want to be friends with a girl who cant talk to anyone?
I feel Johanna turn around and I hear the sound off a door opening. She walks into the room and turns around to close the door. At that moment I catch a glimpse of Annie, Finnick and Peeta. Before I could even wave to them, Johanna turns around, so I am once again facing away from them.
"She said she didn't want to come." I hear Johanna say before I feel myself slipping of her shoulder. I then land on something soft and bouncy, I'm guessing it was the mattress. I land on the mattress with a big 'hmp!'
"So you kidnapped her?" Finnick said to Johanna. I opened my eyes to see Johanna standing in front of me with her hands on her hips.
"I wouldn't call it kidnapping..." Johanna mumbled. Annie stared at her.
"Did you force her?"
"Errr...maybe." Johanna said making a weird face.
"Then it was kidnapping." Finnick said with a smile to celebrate his victory. Johanna stuck her tongue out at him. She then looks down at me, with me still lying on my back. She tells me to scooch over. I sit up and put my back against the wall. Johanna then sits on the side of the bed. Peeta is sitting at the end of the bed leaning against the wall. Finnick is sitting at the end of the bed with his legs crossed and Annie is sitting next to me in the same positions. I sit there awkwardly, unsure of what to do or say.
"So Katniss," I look up at Finnick, "we don't really know anything about you. So what's your deal?" I look at him with a confused look. Johanna laughs.
"He means why are you here." I nod my head understanding what he meant. I look down, not knowing if I can talk. Annie puts her hand on my arm. I look up at her.
"How about we introduce ourselves to you first Katniss? Will that help a bit?" I nod to her. She smiles at me. "Well I'm Annie and I suffer from PTSD and I have Anxiety." I nod and turn to Finnick.
"I'm Finnick and I have PTSD." I turn to Johanna.
"You already know me." I smile and nod at her. I then turn to Peeta.
"You know me as well." I nod to him.
"You do?" Johanna asked with a surprised voice.
"Yeah, we met earlier in the art room." Peeta explained. Finnick smiled.
"Ahh, I see...kissed yet?" He asked with a jokey voice. Annie whacks him playfully.
"But I suffer not only PTSD but a Psychotic Disorders which I would rather not talk about." I nod to him and turn away.
I can see now they are all looking at me. This makes me nervous. Annie then once again puts her hands on my arm. "Its okay Katniss. We-" gesturing the people in the room, "-are all a team. We never talk to other people, not even the teacher about what we talk about so you can say anything you want and we wont tell a living soul." I look around at everyone. I can see it in their eyes that each of them are kind, even in there own way. I take a deep breath and get ready to speak.
"I have PTSD and Anxiety. I am also an orphan." I look down when I say that I am an orphan.
"So you grew up in a foster home?" Annie asked. I shook my head.
"No, umm, my mum died a couple of weeks ago, the foster family I was with said that they didn't want to have to take care of a teenage girl that couldn't look after herself. So my social worker call this place and they took me right away." I give little nods while talking about myself.
"I'm sorry to hear about your mum." Peeta said. I turned to him. He gives me a sad smile. I give him a little smile a turn away from him.
"What about your dad? Couldn't he-" Finnick began to say but I cut him off.
"He did when I was 14 in war." Everyone was silent then. "It was just me, my mum and my sister." I said sadly.
"Where's your sister?" Annie asked me. Tears slowly begin to fill my eyes.
"With mum and dad." I whisper as the tears begin to fall. Each of their eyes fall as they understand what I had said. I suddenly sob, which makes me cry even more now that I am crying in front of people. I see Annie let go of Finnick and wrap her arms around me for a hug. I surprisingly hug her in return. This is the first time in weeks that I have hugs someone, and it actually feels comfortable.
We stay like that for a couple more seconds before I pull away. Johanna hands me a box of tissues which I gladly accept. "Sorry." I say quietly, feeling embarrassed.
"Its okay Katniss." Annie say to me. I look up at her. "Do you know how many times I have cried in this group? And besides you get used to having people around you to help you." I smile slightly at her and look away and down into my lap.
"So enough of this depressing stuff, what do you like to do for fun?" Johanna asked.
"I don't know." I say shyly.
"Oh come on there must be something." Finnick say with a smile on his face. I shrug. "I like to swim, Annie likes to dance, Johanna like to do PE and Peeta likes to draw." Johanna smacks him.
"Did I say you could reveal that?" Johanna yells playfully to him. Finnick shrugs and smiles.
"Come on, there has to be something," Annie say to me.
"If I tell you, you won't make me do it?" They all nod. I take a deep breath. "I like to sing." Annie gasps.
"Really?" I nod. "Can you play any instrument?"
"I can play piano." I admit to them. Finnick smiles.
"You have got to show us one day." I go to say something but Johanna cuts me off.
"Lets just see how she dances first." Johanna says, reminding me of dance show next month. I look to Peeta who has been looking at me. Why does he always look at me? Does he really have a-
"Oh guys its 9 o'clock." Annie say. I look at the wall to see she is right. I didn't feel like an hour went past. That was so quick.
"Alright, get out of my room!" Johanna shouted pointing to the door. Finnick and Peeta laughed slightly. We all stood up from the bed and walked over to the door. Finnick held the door open for us. I nod to him and walk out of the door. Peeta follows behind me, and then Annie.
"See you in the morning guys." Finnick said as he closed the door behind him. I look behind me to see Finnick and Annie walk in the opposite direction to me and Peeta. I say goodnight to them and carry on walking.
"So how has your first day been here?" Peeta asked me. I look up at him.
"Best it could be I guess." I mumble to him. He gives me a nod.
"You get used to it don't worry." Peeta says to me. I nod at him. He nods back. We then come to my bedroom. "Is this your bedroom?" Peeta asked pointing to my door.
"Yeah..." I say looking at him with a questionable look. He then points to the door next to mine on the left. It says: 'D12M'. He is next to me? That I was not expecting.
"Well I guess I will see you in the morning." He says as he opens his door.
"See you in the morning." I return to him. He gives me a little smile. I slightly smile back at him. I open my door and the close it. I lean against the door and let out a breath. It has been one long day. I walk over to my bed and pull open the covers. I lie myself onto the mattress and bring the covers over me. I bring myself to lie on my left side facing away from the door. I close my eyes, waiting for the nightmares to flood my mind.