Thanks for the reviews guys. Means a lot! Here ya goooo… I really wish this story were a little happier, but like… yeah. Good news is… this portion will be mo' focused on Nick and Judy! Anyways enjoy!

He awoke in his apartment.

Rubbed his eyes and open them slowly to be greeted by blinding daylight and an eager little bunny staring at him with round excited eyes.

Nick let out a groan followed by a frustrated yawn. "Morning Carrots… What time is it?" he mumbled through the yawn.

"Time to get out of bed you lazy fox! We gotta get going!" she exclaimed as she jumped on the bed repeatedly.

Her body mass had little effect on the bed, so it served no aid in waking the fox up.

He stared at her with fatigued half-lidded eyes and smacked his lips before letting out another extended yawn.

He stretched his arms and legs out far.

"Where…. Where do we got to get going at… 7 in the morning?" he let out yet another tired yawn.

She looked at him annoyed with paws on her hips. "Nick…"

"It's our day off Carrots, come back to bed I'll make you breakfast later." He opened a bit of the blanket to invite her in.

He closed his eyes waiting for the bunny's fuzziness to snuggle up against his chest.

A minute passed. He felt nothing. A little confused, he opened his eyes.

He saw she was just sitting there at the foot of his bed with her back facing him and her head and ears were standing upright staring at the wall.

"Jud?" He called to her a little concerned. "You alright?" Still, no response.

He chuckled a little "Earth to Judy Hopps… Earth to Judy Hopps do you copy?" her stillness seemed unwavering.

"Aww… are you upset? I'm sowwy…" He playfully pouted as he crawled toward her on his fours.

He placed a paw on her shoulder and started slowly turning her to face him "Hey. Don't be mad ok? We can go if yo-" His eyes widened and he recoiled back and let out a yell in horror at the frightening sight before him.

Her eyes were white and there was blood just streaming out of every facial orifice.

"JUDY?! WHAT HAPPENED?" he still did not dare approach her as he retreated far into the corner of the room to distance himself as far as possible.

Slowly she turned to him. "Nick." She spoke softly as her completely white gaze stared into his eyes. "Why did you let go?"

"I'M SORRY JUDY" he apologized loudly as he tried pushing farther and farther into the corner.

His foot felt an edge behind him as he suddenly slipped off into a dark abyss falling into a seemingly endless pit. He yelled aloud as the falling sensation shook his heart.

"I'm gone Nick." He could hear echo around him as he fell.

"No. Please!" He yelled back

"You let go…" her voice continued.

He looked down and panicked as he realized there was a large field of fire beneath him. "Wait Judy NO I'M SORRY. I'M SOR-" his body fell into the scalding flames. He felt his flesh melting and boiling.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" he screamed at the top of his lungs.

Suddenly his body shot up into a sitting position still screaming. He abruptly stopped as he realized he was no longer burning.

His body was just drenched in sweat and his face drenched in tears. He was breathing heavily as if he had just run 10 marathons.

His heart was racing out of control. He looked around his room franticly. He was in his apartment on his bed.

Again he looked at the clock, it was 5:03 AM.

He continued panting and scanning his room and slowly he came to a realization.

Just that same fucking nightmare. He exhaled in deep relief and frustration as he let his torso fall back onto his bed. His heading dropping into the pillow.

He lied there for a few minutes still staring at his ceiling fan spinning.

…

He pinched the bridge of his snout with one paw. Ugh. So sick of this crap. He looked again at the clock.

5:07 AM

Nick pulled the blanket over himself and tried to sleep again. He let out a long sigh. Another day soon…

His eyes succumbed to the fatigue as he drifted off into slumber.

…

Later that afternoon, Nick had completed his paperwork early and decided to take off early to go see Judy.

It's been about a month and a half. Still, Judy remained unconscious. Despite that, her wounds healed up very nicely and her conditions already stabilized… now all that's left is whenever Judy's body decides if she's ever ready to wake up.

The doctors had isolated the antigen from Nick's blood and successfully created a vaccine for it. This past month had been hellish for all the hospitals trying to get all the mammals in Zootopia vaccinated as quickly as possible.

The first two weeks without Judy were the hardest for Nick, but eventually he became oddly habituated to it. It was like a daily ritual.

Every single day he visited her. Just like he said he would.

Be it work, break, or day off… he would make enough of time to visit Judy. The medical staff knew him well already.

He would always bring her something to eat and drink.

Though she never actually woke up to have any of it… he liked to think if she did, she would appreciate the gesture… and the food.

He also made sure to talk to her about new cases and how his day went just hoping that she could hear it all… Though she never actually woke up, he liked to think if she did… she would appreciate the conversation…

Today was no different. He picked up some carrot cake and coffee with 4 creams and 8 sugars just like how that crazy rabbit liked it.

He walked into the hospital with his uniform still on and his aviator shades gleaming from the reflection of light.

"Officer Wilde." One of the nurses nodded at him.

He smirked and nodded back. "How's it going Francine, you look lovely today. Be sure to give the mister and the kiddies my regards."

She giggled "Ok. Officer Wilde, will do."

He simply smiled and continued onto the Judy's room.

He placed his paw on the counter and took off his shades "Hey Paula. Here to see Judy again."

The impala looked up and smiled "Oh hey Officer Wilde, yeah sure thing one moment though she has other visitors at the moment. You can wait by the door for now."

He raised his brows in surprise as his ears perked up. "Sure…" he said with his eyes fixed on Judy's door.

Judy didn't normally have visitors, and everyone that knew her or cared about her in Zootopia already visited at least once. Even Chief Bogo.

Wonder who they are.

He slowly made his way over to her room and stood by the door silently.

His curiosity was killing him though so he decided to quietly peer into the room.

His eyes widened. Oh no.

Two middle age rabbits, one male one female, sat close to Judy's bed holding her paws and feeling her forehead.

It must be her parents... His hands trembled lightly with fear.

How could he have forgotten? She had a whole family of her own from Bunny Burrow!

I can't face them. He began to panic and quickly started walking away from the door entertaining the notion of skipping this visit.

He fast walked down the hall and quickly entered the bathroom.

He turned the faucet and splashed two paw-fuls of water onto his face.

For about a minute he just stood there with his elbows on the sink staring at the running water.

Come on… You coward…

He stood up and just stared at himself in the mirror angrily.

Nick knew this had to be coming someday. They must have just received the news recently. The ZPD wanted to keep Judy's whereabouts safe for a while in anticipation of any vindictive actions taken by the crime organization.

Her parents must have pried a lot to get this information.

What the hell was he supposed to tell them? He rubbed his temples vigorously.

"Oh hey Judy's parents… it's me the idiot partner who let this happen to your daughter. How's it going? Please to meet you. Did I mention I'm a fox? I'm glad our kind gets along so well! Ha-Ha-Ha. Everyone's having a great friggin' time…" He muttered aloud to himself in a mocking and angry tone while pantomiming the whole scene.

He kicked the trash can in the restroom out of frustration as he continued to pace.

Nick rubbed his head in frustration trying to think of something.

I just gotta do it. It was bound to happen sooner or later.

He took a deep breathe, fixed up his uniform and walked out the bathroom.

Before going to confront them, he dropped off the food and drinks at Paula's desk.

He stood up straight, puffed up his chest, and started the dreadful walk toward what was probably going to be the most difficult talk of his life.

He approached the room and knocked lightly on the frame of the doorway.

The two rabbits' ears perked up as they turned their attention toward Nick.

The worrisome looks they had in their eyes hit him like daggers to the heart.

"Hey." He sheepishly greeted.

They looked at him with inquisitively but noticed his uniform.

"Oh Stu. He's a ZPD officer. Hello… My name is Bonnie and this is my husband Stu… Officer…?"

He stared at them for a little while still scared then realized how rude he was.

"Oh. OH. Sorry…" He shook his head to escape the daze he was in "My name's Nick. Officer Nicholas Wilde… I'm… uhh… I'm Judy's partner."

Both their eyes widened a bit as the mother's eyes got a little bit teary. She looked to the ground for a bit.

"Oh. So… Officer Wilde… How… what exactly happened…" she asked with a shaky voice.

Nick averted his gaze to the floor also and placed his paws inside his pockets.

"Well… Mr. and Mrs. Hopps… Judy was taken by some bad mammals and they tortured her for information… She's hurt bad… We managed to save her… but her injuries put her into comatose…" He tried his best to keep it concise and maintain a distant professional tone. His voice broke just a little toward the end.

"Oh God." Bonnie turned to Stu covering her face with her paws. She was very heartbroken and worried. "Our poor Judy…" she sobbed quietly.

Mr. Hopps' eyes were welling up too but he knew he had to be strong for the both of them. "I knew we should have never let her come to Zootopia, only here are there these psychopathic predators."

That statement struck a nerve in Nick but he let it slide considering the circumstances…

Stu tried to comfort Bonnie as she was slowly wrapping her head around the situation.

Stu looked into Nick's eyes intently and suddenly Nick could feel the blame.

"Well? How could this have happened? Isn't she your partner? Where were you!" he interrogated aggressively.

Oh here we go…

Nick gulped and spoke softly "I… I was with her when… when she was taken…"

Both Bonnie and Stu looked a bit confused. Bonnie then asked, "how did she get taken then? Did you guys decide to split up? That's never a good idea!"

Nick shook his head with great guilt as he looked at the floor once more with his paws digging deep into his pockets. He regretted trying to have this talk with them.

Stu raised his two paws in front of himself "Well?" he questioned with demanding tone.

"I… We… We were hanging on the roof… They were pulling us up… trying to take us both… and Judy kicked me and I let go… So I ended up escaping while she was taken… She sacrificed herself… for me…" he spoke in a very guilty and heartbroken tone. "I'm sorry."

Stu and Bonnie's ears drooped as Bonnie began to sob again. Stu's ears quickly perked back up again in anger as his brows furrowed. He shoved a finger into Nick's chest.

"You let this happen to our daughter?! What kind of a police officer are you?!" he shoved Nick harder this time.

Nick stepped back not making any great effort to defend himself, each push seemed to make him hurt more and more on the inside.

"What kind of a partner are you huh?! Abandoning your teammates out there! Leaving them to die!"

Each word hurt so much. Nick simply closed his eyes and kept slowly retreating toward the door way.

"Please. I'm sor-" Nick tried to interject.

"SORRY?! That's all you have to say? The doctor's said they don't even know if she's ever going to wake up! You damn predators are all the same, you have the guts to eat and pick on small prey like us but don't even have the courage and strength to protect anyone but yourself! You said she kicked you?! I think you're full of crap! You probably left her for dead so you could get away yourself!"

Nick broke. He felt the exact same amount of hate toward himself as the rabbit father in front of him did. He has been feeling this remorse and pain for so long, it's been building up and accruing in the deepest darkest parts of his mind.

The only way he kept these thoughts at bay was by reminding himself of the possibility Judy would wake up.

But now, reality hit him so hard… everything he hated himself for has finally been said to him in mammal by someone else.

Nick's back pressed against the wall as he slid down onto the cold concrete floor, he covered his face with his paws.

"You're right about everything… I'm a failure… I'm weak, I'm dumb… I'm selfish… I couldn't help her. Please just stop. Don't say it anymore." The pain he felt was indescribable like his insides had been torn apart. It hurt so bad he couldn't even cry. His mind and body were just in shock.

Stu looked down at him still with angry eyes when suddenly Bonnie grabbed him by the shoulder.

"Stu… You can't blame Nicholas. What happened to Judy… those monsters are the ones responsible… not him."

Stu stared angrily at Nick and let out a sigh knowing this was true. He spoke out of blind rage from the immense hurt seeing his little kitten hurt this bad.

"You can't see he feels every bit just as bad as us? If not, worse? He was there Stu… He suffered too… maybe just as much as Judy in another way… we weren't there… we don't know what it's like was like…"

Mr. Hopps couldn't hold it back any longer. His tears began to roll out of his eyes as he quickly walked past Nick and out of the room. His sniffles could be heard throughout the halls.

Bonnie sighed and walked over to Nick who was still on the floor incapacitated from the shame and guilt.

She tried speaking a small smile "Officer Wilde… I'm sorry for what Stu said earlier, he doesn't mean it he's just really sad and confused by all this... we all are… It's not your fault really. We know that. I'm sure… I'm sure you did everything you could to protect our Judy. And thank for you that…"

Nick didn't move. He just stayed there with his paws covering his face.

Bonnie sighed and took another glance at Judy and back to Nick. She gently placed one paw on Nick's shoulder and then walked out of the room presumably to find Stu.

It was just Nick and Judy now.

Well that did not go well at all.

He didn't know what to think or do at this point. He took his paws away from his face and stood up slowly.

I'm here to see Judy, not to feel sorry for myself. He reminded himself ashe walked over to Judy to check on her.

His eyes widened. There was a single tear rolling down her left cheek.

His eyes welled up and his ears fell back as he let out an exasperated sigh. He wiped the tear for her with his right paw. "So you can hear us, can't you?"

"I'm sorry Carrots… don't worry about us though… Just please focus on getting better. Everyone misses you…"

He pulled out the chair and sat down as he plopped his head down onto the bed.

"Please wake up soon…"