Katya's POV
My phone was going off like crazy right now and I really didn't want to deal with shit right now. But it could be my cousin with more news on my sister Sabrina. Sabrina had become real sick last week and yesterday she was placed in the ICU apparently in a drug induced coma. The doctors know pretty much nothing at all about what's wrong with her or even if she'll come out of the coma. Sabrina was everything to me. We'd been so close growing up always helping each other out making sure that the other one was alright. Hell Sabrina had covered my ass so many times and I for her. She knew that I'd die for her and she'd do the same. Reluctantly I rolled over and grabbed my phone.
"Yeah?"
"Hey Kat." Maria's voice filtered thru the phone. She was my best friend here in the WWE. My stomach tightened however at the sound of her voice. Something was up and at the moment I wasn't a hundred percent sure that I could handle it.
"Ria? You okay? You sound off." The response I got was a sigh. I closed my eyes. Oh lord.
"Uhmm… Well not exactly. I don't want to have to tell you this especially because of everything you're dealing with right now."
"It's alight Ria. Just tell me quick and get it over with."
"I got released from my contract. And I'm leaving tomorrow for LA. Vince just called me and let me now I was no longer needed." I swear my heart stopped and all the air that was in my lungs rushed out at her words. What? My brain couldn't even come up with a coherent thought for a minute or so.
"I'm so sorry Ria. Were you suspecting it or did he just surprise you with this shit?" My voice sounded alien to me as I spoke.
"It completely blindsided me. I mean hell just last week I took out Maryse AND Michelle in a handicap match both of which are title holders right now. So I don't even know what the fuck is going on."
"What are you gunna do in LA?" I asked.
"My sister works for a record label. She told me that she was gunna show them my demo cd and depending on the answer I'd go from there. Even if they don't sign me there are plenty of other labels. Besides it's LA after all, lots to do there."
"Yeah I hope it all works out for you. I'm sure as hell gunna miss your ass around here though. Your all I got left." I heard a sniffle followed by a small sob.
"Aww I'm gunna miss you too Kat! I love you so much!" We cried together on the phone still for the next 10 minutes. Finally she had to go pack her things up and I resumed my former position on my bed. It was getting dark outside now and the city lights looked real pretty against the sky. I didn't even bother to change in to pajamas. Instead I stayed in my jeans all night. My body felt numb so it's not like that even mattered anyways.
I barley slept at all. My mind kept racing with thoughts all night long practically. It hadn't completely hit me about how sucky my life was right now until I didn't have a distraction around. My sister was incredibly sick possibly dying, my best friend in the whole world the only person I had here with me was leaving and since she was one of the best divas the fact that she randomly got released meant that I should be worried about the same shit happening to me as well. And the best part was that I still had feelings for my ex. Fuck that I was still totally in love with him and I was forced to see him every day. Usually Maria was with me as a buffer so seeing him wasn't as painful as it would be if I was on my own. But now I was and I didn't have the faintest clue what to do. My chest was burning and I felt like I couldn't even get off the bed for anything. My world slowly crumbled down on top of me crushing me with the weight of it all. Raw started at 8 which meant I didn't have to be at the arena til 7ish. So I literally stayed in bed all day long until it was time for me to leave. I did take a shower however before I left. I wasn't completely dysfunctional quite yet.
Everyone had heard about Maria's release by now and lots of them were as shocked as I had been. Maria was an amazing athlete and she could work the crowd pretty damn well. Even Michelle was surprised. Maryse gave me a hug when she saw me and asked about Sabrina. I talked to the other divas but we weren't close or anything like that. But I didn't mind Maryse asking so I told her that nothing had changed. After that she left to go find Mike and I stayed in the shadows for the rest of the show.
I didn't have a match or a promo to do tonight which I was incredibly grateful for. Finally the main event was up next and I could return to my dark hole of depression aka my hotel room. Of course as fate would have it as I was about to sneak out the back door someone entered the hallway. My whole body froze. Even out of the corner of my I knew who it was. CM Punk, Phil, had frozen too at the far end of the hallway. My brain was buzzing. Without really meaning to I locked eyes with him and just like that a tidal wave of emotions hit me. All of my old feelings mixed together with the new ones. Damn it! But what pushed me over the edge was when he gave me this look, a look only he could give me and I knew I had to get the fuck out of there. In a flash I had broken our gazes and slipped out into the night the door slamming behind me. I ran not to my rental but I just ran. I didn't care where the fuck I was headed I just needed to move. Raw was in Atlanta this week and I wasn't entirely familiar with the city but I didn't give a fuck. Finally I came to a stop on a street corner my chest heaving with the effort to get air back into my body. Off to my left I noticed a handoff between a nice looking gangsta and what I knew to be his dealer. Crack. And I pretty decent amount from what I could see. My hands started to shake some and I felt an incredibly strong urge to go over and score a dose. I'd been off the stuff for 4 years now but at the moment none of that was connecting in my brain. My body was craving it, the rush, the high. Suddenly though I got caught up in something Maria had told me once. It was like 3 months after me and Phil had fallen apart and he'd given me the same look that he'd given me tonight back in the arena.
Flashback: Maria and I were sitting on some crates that were in the hallway that lead to gorilla position. It was in between matches right now so some superstars were walking about backstage. Randy passed us and waved. We waved back and resumed our conversation.
"So today better then yesterday for ya?" Maria asked me. Her hand was currently in mine and I gave it a soft squeeze. I nodded. I knew that if I spoke my voice would give away the lie. But Maria still knew that I was lying crazy bitch. Then the one person that made me feel a thousand different things all at once appeared along with Cena at the other end of the hall. Immediately his eyes were on me and he was gave me this look. I couldn't even begin to tell you what the hell it means but my heart skipped around some. Phil's eyes were smoldering as he looked at me. I dropped my gaze and grasped Maria's hand a bit tighter trying to make the ache in my chest go away.
"Why does he do that? Look at me like that?" I murmured softly staring down at my lap. Maria, who had seen the whole thing, tightened her grip on my hand as well.
"Babe no matter what happened between you two there will always be a connection. A bond if you will. Now this might not be the right time but everything will play out in the end. Some things can't just be forgotten and they can't just slip away." I glanced back up to where Phil had been just in time to see him send me another look before he slipped into the curtain that lead out to the ring.
End flashback

"Damn it Ria…" I mumbled under my breath. Both the dealer and the gangsta were gone when I looked back over to where I'd seen them a few minutes ago. Somehow I made it back to the hotel without getting shot at or mugged. No clue how I managed that with how my luck has been lately.Luck is for losers. It was 2:30 am and I wasn't tired at all. I didn't even want to go back up to my room so instead I went into the stairwell and sat down between floors 9 and 10 my shoulder leaning up against the railing. I don't know how long I was there before I heard someone coming. A second later Phil was standing before me with a hand on the railing. Once again he froze. I was so fucked up that I barely registered what was going on. I heard him whisper something and then he came closer to me. I felt his hand gently cup my cheek bringing my eyes up to meet his. What was he doing?
"Kat…" I hadn't heard him say my name in so long. It sounded like a foreign language now. The numbness was fading away now leaving everything to come at me hard and raw. I raised my eyes feeling the tears begin to well up in them but refusing to fall. I was teetering on the edge and Phil knew that. Without a word he pulled me up against his body and held me close as we went up the rest of the stairs. He was warm which felt nice against the coldness that clouded my body at the moment. Phil stopped at a door, his room, and slid the key thru unlocking it. In a second I was inside and the door was gently closing behind me. Phil never let go of me not once on the way here and even now he was holding onto my hand.
"Kat." At the sound of him saying my name again I completely lost it. I couldn't hold it together anymore and the tears began to free fall down my cheeks and my breathing became erratic as everything exploded. I felt Phil wrap his strong tattooed arms around my body holding me to him and without any hesitation I had my arms tightly around his neck. His back was against the wall as he held me and I buried my head into his neck. Phil rubbed my back with one hand while he just let me breakdown. I didn't want to let him go because when I was touching him everything was muted some. I could actually breathe my chest wasn't being crushed and his warmth was seeping into me keeping the coldness away. We stayed like that for god knows how long. At one point I thought I was going to pass out from lack of air but Phil somehow knew this and he cupped the sides of my head with his hands making sure that I was looking at him. He directed me to hold my breath for a minute and the slowly release it. I tried and after a moment my breathing became more regular. Phil kept his hands on my face. Suddenly I felt like the storm had passed at least the hysterically sobbing and hyperventilating part of it.
"Sorry about that. You prolly didn't need an audition for 'Girl, interrupted' this early in the morning." I said. Phil chuckled and the sound felt so nice to hear again after so long of not.
"It's all good babe. Now a Silence of the Lambs audition? Not so much." We both laughed at that one softly.
"No worries. I'm just depressed broken not homicidally broken." I noticed the dampness on Phil's neck from where I'd cried all over and slowly I lifted my hand up. As soon as my hand touched his skin Phil closed his eyes and subconsciously I moved a little bit closer to him. I wiped away as much of my tears as I could. There was still some dampness but it wasn't as bad as before. I kept my hand on his neck a tad bit longer then was necessary my fingers gently tracing the lines of his tattoos. But when I realized what I was doing I pulled my hand back and was surprised to see him watching me his eyes a bit darker than usual. We were extremely close in proximity so close in fact that I could smell his cologne perfectly. Maybe it wasn't cologne maybe it was just… him.
"Phil" I breathed. He didn't move at first but then he backed up a little bit still keeping my hand enclosed in his. We sat down on the bed and I told him everything that brought me to this point minus the dilemma about him and my feelings of course. Phil knew my sister because of when we were together before therefor he knew how important she was to me. Maria understood too but they were the only ones. Phil listened to me fully and didn't say a word the whole time I was explaining things to him. He truly was amazing.
I paused. Phil of course knew about my old drug problem. I had been up front with him when we had first started dating because I didn't want any secrets between us. He'd taken it well and had helped me through all of that shit. So despite that I was nervous to tell him that I'd almost relapsed I knew I had to. I know we aren't together right now but as Maria had once told me No matter what there would always be a bond between us. I needed to tell him.
"There's one more thing Phil. Um I just want to apologize in advance." He nodded at me but he was slightly anxious now I could see it in his expression.
"Alright."
"Well after I ran out tonight after… seeing you again-" Another pause. Phil ran his thumb over the back of my hand and I went on. "Everything came crashing down all at once and I couldn't deal. Didn't even know how so I ran around Atlanta for a while not really having a destination. Dangerous prolly but I didn't care. I noticed a handoff being made across the street in an alley. It was my shit too. Good amount-" I stopped as I felt the desire sweep thru me again. Just thinking about it made my pores hum. I must've spaced out because Phil pulled me into his lap so that I was straddling his thighs.
"Hey Kat. Right here. Stay with me." That effectively snapped me out of my daze and my eyes focused onto his face. I brought my hands up to rest on his shoulders.
"Sorry… it's just my whole body is screaming at me to score again. It never gets easier Phil no matter how long it's been since my last high. And tonight I could've- it would have been so easy." I trailed off but Phil made sure that I was still focused on him. His hands slid up and down my sides slowly and I felt a wave of heat pool into my center.
"Hey but you didn't. Things were real fucked up and you were more desperate than you've been in a long time Kat but you still resisted. And that right there is amazing. It's okay and now I'm here. You don't have to worry about doing this alone. I got you." A smile came to my lips at his words and I leaned into his muscular body hugging him tightly.
"Thank you Phil. I need someone right now." I whispered into his neck. I thought I felt him shiver but I must've imagined it. He kissed my hair and whispered back:
"Anything for you." By this time it was 4:46 am. Neither of us had to be into work until 6pm thank fucking god on that one. Somehow we managed to slip under the covers of the queen sized bed without any complications. Phil kept an arm around my waist holding my body into his side. My leg was thrown over his while my head rested on his chest with my arm across his stomach. We fell asleep like that and even though Phil had insomnia he stayed like that til we had to get up.
1 week later-
I was practically flying around backstage. It was Raw again and I had a match with Michelle later but at the moment all I could think about was finding Phil. I rounded the corner rather fast and smashed into something incredibly hard and I felt my self falling to the floor but last second arms wrapped around my waist. I came face to fa- well shoulder with Phil.
"Found you!" I exclaimed and Phil raised an eyebrow at me.
"More like dented me." Phil muttered and I laughed.
"ME dent YOU? Surely you jest."
"I kid you not." Phil said rubbing his chest and I playfully shoved him.
"Anyways what's got you like the energizer bunny?" I bit my lip and then jumped up and down.
"Sabrina's alright! It was just a bad reaction to the vitamins she'd been taking but now she's awake and it's FINE!" I yelled still jumping up and down like a crazy lady. Phil gently grabbed my arms and pinned them at my sides. I was still vibrating some so he wrapped his arms around my body causing us to be taut up against each other in an attempt to keep me still.
"That's great Kat it really is. Things are getting better already." I stopped moving and my senses seemed to become more heightened. I was standing in Phil's arms and it felt better than any high I'd ever had.
"Thanks to you." My voice was soft barely above a whisper but I knew he'd heard what I'd said. His expression changed and then I realized that he was giving me that look again. Only this time I think I knew what it meant. I gently grabbed his face between my hands and kissed him. My eyes slid closed in pleasure and Phil responded to my touch immediately by tangling his hand in to my hair keeping out lips pressed together. His other hand traveled down my side and anchored my hip to his. I moaned softly into his mouth as he sucked on my bottom lip. After all the time apart we'd spent neither of us had moved on. Not even a little bit and I'm so happy that that was the case. I couldn't be without Phil for another minute.
God could this man kiss! I stepped back until Phil had me pressed up against the wall on one side and him on the other. Instinctively I jumped up wrapping my legs around his waist. Our kiss got rougher as we made up for lost time. I ran my hand thru his hair pulling gently the way I remembered he liked it and his soft growl of approval proved that nothing had changed. Slowly our kiss became less rough and desperate but it didn't lose any of the passion. He kissed me gently before pulling away for air leaving our foreheads resting against one another's. Our breathes mingled together and I swear our hearts were pounding hard in sync. My hand was resting half on his neck and half on his face. I ran my thumb over his lips smirking some when I felt the lip ring. Phil caught my gaze with his own and I kissed him again.
"Been too long." I mumbled.
"Far too long." He answered. Neither one of us moved from our position though we really didn't have to because the corridor was completely deserted.
"Kat I love you baby. Never stopped." At his confession I pressed a kiss to his neck and this time I knew I definitely did not imagine the shiver that passed through his body.
"Good because I still love you too. And I still need you always." Another kiss followed and eventually we had to take our reunion I guess into his locker room. Otherwise we'd probably have to charge people for and x rated show. And that just wouldn't fit in very well with the PG era ;)

Well after what feels like 1 million years I FINALLY updated! Yea me! I never thought I'd be feeling a wrestling oneshot quite yet but ah well. Member comments might help me update this thing again before the next millennium passes ;)