Sebastian: You really did it admin... :o
Admin: Yeaaa... im sorry Sebby... :(
Sebastian: Will i be happy? :'((
Admin: Ofcause! Someday... You could always date Will :P
Sebastian: No thank you _
Grell: Oh that's mean, my dear admin! o.o
Admin: Sorry! *Hides under blanket* :o
Ciel: Admin, pull yourself together! -.-"
Admin: Im sick, dont push me! :'O
Sebastian: Oh My... *Sebastian makes tea for admin* :3
Admin: Thank you my dear :'3

Soooooo please enjoy part 8 of this epic story... so heartbreaking!

Im only expecting to make one more, and then maybe a bonus part, but.. im sorry guys, we are reaching the end of this tale.

I DO NOT OWN THIS ANIME, OR MANGA, OR ANY OF THE CHARECTERS IN IT!

With a lost feeling, which is so pure, and commited to only one person.
The part about being torn is that you know where you belong,
but you are also being pulled somewhere else.

It's no secret to anyone anymore that what i really want you to know, is that life is hard. Life can be cruel, and hard. It can be filled with love, or filled with pain. But in the end, your life is what you make out of it. You have the power to turn your life around to the better. Many knows this, but not many have the strength to do it. With so much hate in our world, why do we try to turn love into the same? Why does human insist on making hate, insted of love, when in the end, they can't live without love. They need something good in their everyday, to make their life work.

Sebastian is the only one who doesn't understand this. He knows that life is short for humans, and longer for demons, or reapers. He could spend his whole life as a demon, with one that would never die, or he could stay with one human and watch that human die. Either way, everybody would slip right out of his hands, because that is what happens in life. When you really wanna keep something very badly, you will lose it. And only by losing it, you know you held on too tight. Only by losing your beloved, you will know how much it meant to you.

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Sebastian could be found in the park, near by town. Alone, and cold. Well his skin was always cold, but he felt more cold now. He had made a deal with Ciel, and he had promised to never hurt Ciel, yet he knew something like this would happen, as soon as he touched Ciel for the first time. He could see the mistake he had made, but he could also see the right things he had done. He had made Grell feel better. He had given Grell his pomission to come back and given Grell back his beloved sinfully red color, and as a result he had lost Ciel. Sebastian honestly wasn't sure what was worst.

A soft sigh escaped Sebastian's mouth. It had gotten dark rather quickly, without him even noticing. He had gone home with Grell, only to leave again. He didn't wish to stay with Grell, only to know he would give himself out. Grell would figure it all out, and Sebastian didn't need more guilt then what he already had. It was a sad story, and Sebastian had yet to figure out how to fix this story. Sebastian had watched Ciel grow up for a few years, seen Ciel be more mature, and seen Ciel grow fond of him. He had also seen Grell grow fond of him, and seen Grell trying to be the best he could be, just to impress Sebastian. Sebastian was truly torn. He loved Ciel, and he loved Grell, but to Sebastian, love was nothing but a word he had never learned how to say.

Sebastian had seen Ciel cry, and had felt Grell watch with guilt. In the end, Grell was not the one to blame, Sebastian was. Sebastian knew he had to make this right, but in order to fix all this, he had to hurt one of the two. So the final question is, would it be Grell or Ciel who had to be hurt? They had both sufferet because of Sebastian by now. So which one of them should suffer forever?

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"Finny? why are you in such a hurry?" Mey-Rin asked, as Finny had come running into the kitchen, and had started to fumble around to make tea.
"The young master wishes tea!" Finny said, he was clearly very exhausted from running. Finny had taken Sebastians place, after Sebastian had left. Only Ciel knew why Sebastian had left, none of the other servents knew why.
"Ah let me help you" Mey-Rin had said as she had handed the tea to Finny.
"No No.. its fine!" Finny said as he had finally made the tea, and was already on his way out of the kitchen with the tea. Finny was clearly very very exhausted, and Mey-Rin could see it.

"Young master" Finny said as he knocked on the door and opened it, only to find the young Phantomhive lord sitting by his desk.
"Took you long enough..." Ciel said, in a very cold voice, as he sat up straight again. He had nearly fallen asleep.
"Im very sorry, my lord... I will try harder!" Finny said, in a sad voice, yet still he tried to seem happy, and chearful, which only clearly pissed Ciel more off.
"Good" Ciel said as he had taken a sip of the tea Finny had now pured up to him in a cup. Finny had stood there for a while, watching the young master sip his tea, peacefully.
"May i ask something, young master?" Finny finally said, after what seemed forever silence.
"What is it?" Ciel said as he finally looked up at the blonde boy, infront of him.
"Where did mr. Sebastian go? will he be back?" Finny asked, in a low voice. He was in fact kind of scared to ask questions like that, and only hoped that it wouldn't piss the young lord off.
"No, he will not be back" Ciel simply said and started sipping his tea again.
"Oh... I see" Finny said and looked down. It was kind of sad. Sebastian had been a part of the Phantomhive manor for a long time, even before Finny was there. Finny would like to believe Sebastian had been there forever. Sebastian was truly one hell of a butler.
"You can leave now, Finny" Ciel said and looked up at the boy quickly, before putting his cup of tea down, infront of himself.
"Yes my lord" Finny said, and left the room.

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((Ciel's POV))

As soon as Finny had left the room, Ciel had sighed and looked at the tea. It was not the tea he had asked for, but he knew he couldn't blame Finny. Finny had never been anything near a butler, and so ofcause he wouldn't know what a butler's job was, or how to do it.
Ciel had been spending a lot of his time in his office and his bedroom since Sebastian had left, and sometimes he felt better, and like he would have moved an inch away from Sebastian's tight grip on him. He still missed Sebastian but he knew that this was for the better. He could only wonder what Sebastian was doing and where he was, then being interrupted by his brain saying that Sebastian was with Grell, and that they were happy.

Ciel let out another soft sigh as he stood up. He had not recived any letters from the queen either, and even if he did, he would have a hard time working out the job, without Sebastian by his side. He had only gotten one letter, only the day before Sebastian had left. He had decided not to do the job, because Sebastian had left the day after. Life was harder when Sebastian wasn't there, but Ciel would try to work it all out by himself. He would try to be strong, and try to go on with his life. He knew Sebastian was.

"Where are you Sebastian" these words slipped out of Ciel's mouth as he stood by the window and looked out. The sun was still not going down, and there would atleast be 3 hours more with the evening sun.

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Sebastian had looked up as he had heard a voice, that sounded like Ciel. He had made that deal with Ciel, and had grown an unbreakable bond with the young lord. Where ever Ciel was, or when Ciel would mention Sebastian, Sebastian would hear it.
"What's wrong Sebby? You alright, darling?" Grell had asked, as he saw the raven black demon look up. Sebastian had clearly been down, even Grell could tell.
"Yes... Im alright..." Sebastian had answered, in a not very trustworthy voice. Grell shook his head and ran his hand over Sebastian's cheek, making Sebastian look back at the red reaper who had found his way beside Sebastian.
"You are not.. i can feel it" Grell said, as he finally laid his head on the demons shoulder, and Sebastian laying his head against the red reapers head.
"I know Ciel means a lot to you, so why dont you go back?" Grell said as he had taken the demons hand in his. He could never live with himself if he knew he was the reason Sebastian was sad. It was true that Grell had felt very guilty for splitting the Phantomhive lord and his demon butler.

"I don't wanna hurt you or him, but it seems like i have to hurt atleast one of you" Sebastian said, very honest. It was no secret, because even Grell could figure out that much.
"Oh darling..." Grell had sighed as he lifted his head and looked at Sebastian. "I will be alright, as long as you are happy... If you choose to stay with Ciel, then so be it.."
"Really now?" Sebastian said and raised an eyebrow.
"Reallllyyyyyy" Grell said in a giggle, "Buuuuut! i will not stay away from you like our deal was meant to do... I will stay when you need me" Grell said and kissed Sebastians cheek. Sebastian had not moved. He had by now gotten used to the red reaper getting so close. He never thought he would live to see the day, where Grell would give up Sebastian just like that, but he wasn't hurt, or mad. He was happy, because in the end, he might have choosen Ciel after all.

"Grell..." Sebastian mumbled and moved his head an inch, so their lips finally met once again. Just like he had kisssed Ciel one last time before leaving, he had to kiss Grell one last time too, because as soon as he would return to Ciel again, he would never be able to touch Grell this way again.
"Its quite alright my dear" Grell said as their kiss had finally broken, and they were now looking into each others eyes. Red meeting Green. Grell simply loved the color of Sebastian's eyes. Such sinful color, of love and hurt.

Where is my cookies, dammit! (O_O)

Anyyyway... please tell me what you thought of this one... i already have an idea for the next part, but this part tho.. (Heart breaks) is Grell just cute or is Grell just cute... my poor baby can never be happy... DAMN YOU SEBASTIAN!

Sebastian: ... Sorry O.o
Grell: *Giggles* I have my dear Admin!
Admin: *Cuddles Grell* My little babyboy!