Hey everyone!
These are two separate one-shots in Beyond's POV that i wrote a while back and thought it'd be fun to post! I hope you guys enjoy, i edited them but i didn't change them majorly. So they're two separate one-shots that are easier to put together!
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Death Note characters or the references!
I'm sitting in my house. Well, the warehouse. This shabby, old thing I call my home; it's better than living on the streets but it's still not a house. I could never afford one that is big and luxurious like his. I'm not L, no matter how much I want to be. The longer I think about it the more evidence I find that proves how much of a failure I am and how much I'm not like L; he who has power over every army in the world. He who has all the money a man could hope for. He who has everything.
Every time these thoughts creep into my mind I start to shake; the anger takes over. He makes me so angry it's inconceivable; angry and sad. Sometimes, it's hard to tell if the shaking is from anger or sadness but all I know is that it happens. Every time someone or something brings up his name it happens.
This time it's worse, no one mentioned him though, it just came out of nowhere. The trembling starts off in my finger tips and then slowly spreads. Filling my body with that horrible feeling I'm cursed to live with; the shaking is gradually getting worse though. I begin to shake uncontrollably and then a tear- single tear- forms and falls down my cheek steadily. More follow quickly after until streams of tears are falling down my cheeks as I frantically try to stop them. The fact that I'm crying over this man disgusts me to the point of illness but that still doesn't make the tears stop.
My attempt to stop the stream becomes more and more desperate as they don't stop until I scream. I scream at the top of my lungs as my hands find my hair and pull, hard. He's made me cry, no, not crying but sob. I'm sobbing because of L and there's nothing I can do about it.