Between The Episodes

"Tasha personal log stardate 42922.4, It has been a while since I have put anything in here with work and all. So I will update on what has happened in the last several months. The Enterprise has defiantly encountered strange phenomenon's, some in which I didn't think was possible. I think the most interesting one most of all was our encounter with the Borg on the other side of the galaxy. I just wish Q would stop toying with us. I will admit though; will I be alive long enough to truly encounter them when they do come here?"

"Perhaps I can't leave out the adventure we had on ThetaVIII. A casino bases on a bad book on the surface just because the aliens felt guilty about killing his crew. I guess in a way; I feel sorry for him having to endure that place for so long. I would not have been able to stand it there myself. There was just something about Data wearing that 10 Gallon hat that I wish I could've have taken an image of that."

"Besides those, I have continued to attend some of Worf's calisthenics programs. Each time the difficulty gets a little harder. But I can't believe the fun I've been having with him. I know I have to keep up, but I think he doesn't have it as hard as he claims because I feel he thinks I am more fragile. Which is true compared to a Klingon, but one day I will show him."

"I have also decided to introduce some new security updates pending Captain Picard's approval of course. I want to increase security measures on all decks to lower the arrival times of teams should something serious happen. I think with some training on new officers and stationed around certain areas we can achieve that."

"I was also told we would be getting updates on….".

"Listen to me, I should be talking about myself but I keep rambling on about work. I suppose that's normal for me. Some crew members talk about relationships, their families, there passions."

She sat there just looking at the screen not saying anything. Why was this not so simple with her? Was she just afraid she was uninteresting? Was she afraid of opening up about her deepest feelings? She often spoke to Deanna about these things, yet it wasn't the same on a computer. Even before she poured her thoughts into hear before but now, she didn't know.

She closed the screen down and turned the chair around taking a deep breath. She got up and stretched her arms before placing them back on her sides. It had been a bit quiet lately. They have encountered so much that for once the Enterprise could actually breath. Perhaps that what was bothering her, not being so active around current events. It wasn't like Iconia where Captain Picard, Data and herself were trapped while investigating the destruction of the Yamato.

She decided to take walk to ten-forward and relax, see if her friends were there. When she arrived, she didn't see anyone she knew there and decided to have a seat at the bar. Guinan walked up greeting as she normally did.

"Hello Tasha, what brings you hear on this lovely evening?" Guinan asked.

"Hello Guinan, I was just coming in to see if perhaps Deanna or Worf was here but I see they are not." Tasha replied. A hint of disappointment in her voice.

"Well, I haven't seen them recently, why don't we have a seat I don't think we ever had a real conversation before." Guinan said and grabbed two glasses of something before escorting her to one of the small tables in front of the window.

They sat down and looked out watching the star fly by while the Enterprise was at warp. She took one of the glasses and sniffed it before taking a sip. Surprisingly, it was very good. She looked back up at Guinan who also took a sip and placed the glass down.

"What is this? It's very good." Tasha complimented.

"It's a Verrelian Berry drink from Icos 9, I learned about it before I joined the Enterprise, I heard it helps people relax." She said and picked it up again.

"Tasha, I was wondering" Guinan started and Tasha looked up, "why haven't we had an actual conversation before?" Guinan asked.

Tasha opened her mouth but no words came out. She closed them again and looked back with an embarrassed smile.

"it's ok, we are all busy aren't we."

"No, that's not it, every time I come in here your busy, but I usually always find Worf or Geordi and." Tasha didn't finish.

"I understand, I'm not angry. But I do watch you, sometimes you sit alone, other times your laughing with your friends. There are moments when you stare out that window for minutes on end, you don't say a word or move and I guess I was curious." Guinan said softly.

"It is a habit of mine, to be lost in my own thoughts. I guess when I look out there" they both turned. "I get a sense of peace. I love looking at the stars flying by the nebulas we explore. When I was a little girl sometimes I dreamed about what was up here like I imagine most children do. I never thought I would survive long enough to achieve that."

"But you did. And I agree, I like to do the same thing when the bar closes. What did you mean though when you said survive long enough?" Guinan asked.

Tasha looked at her. She wasn't comfortable telling her story, she never was. Besides she didn't truly know her well enough to tell her. All she did know that she was from the delta quadrant, and the Borg scattered her people across the galaxy.

"It's all right, you don't have to tell me" Guinan said. "So, chief security officer, how is that working out for you?"

Tasha smiled a bit and began telling some stories mostly from past experiences on the ship. She found that Guinan was a good listener. She didn't interrupt while she spoke and nodded even putting in some of her own input in between. She decided she liked Guinan more and felt that if she had a problem she could come see her if needed.

"Oh I'm sorry you had to listen to me ramble like that." Tasha said feeling a bit guilty.

"No, it's perfectly fine, I rather enjoyed listening to your stories, I can begin to see what kind of person you are." Guinan replied.

They looked over to see Deanna and Geordi walking through, they waved and began to make their way over.

"I didn't really learn anything about you" Tasha said. She felt bad about turning that last 45 minutes all about her.

"Are you busy this time tomorrow?" Guinan asked

"No" Tasha replied, she knew where this was going.

"Come back again and I'll tell you about me, and I will also have more of this drink." Guinan said getting up clearing the table.

"I look forward to it" Tasha said watching her walk away.

"Mind if we join you?" Deanna asked. Tasha nodded and they took a seat.

"I see you were talking to Guinan." Geordi pointed out.

"Yes, we were just talking about things. She is a very good listener" Tasha remarked.

"Yes she is, she actually might have more patience than me" Deanna said and they all laughed talking about their days like they normally would do.