Softly the rain taps the window of the cab as I sit in traffic waiting to get to the take out place. It was already dark and the lights lit up the streets creating a calming but also invigorating feeling. Nights like this remind me of before the el Manama incident. When 2d and Murdoc where getting shit faced at the local bars while Russel had to take care of them, I would go to the arcades and meet fans then beat them at whatever game we were playing. When I was cleaning out a room with 2d a month or two back I found all the old stuff I won, made me smile but tear up.
The cab driver wasn't much for talking and I didn't mind, I paid him and hopped out into the damp night.
"Kuso" muttering, I find myself without an umbrella. Oh well the store is just around the corner I shouldn't get too soaked. Despite the rain couples pass down the street, kind men holding the umbrella or some just having fun wildly dancing in the rain. It brought a smile to my face seeing people happy.
The store welcomed me with savory smells and dryness. After a few minutes completing my order the man taking it gave me look of "how the hell is a tiny girl like you eating all of this". It made me laugh. I could eat a lot and wasn't going to be shy about it because I'm a girl, I've won against 2d in a competition we had. However I did order him udon noodle soup and rice if he felt like eating and I even got something for Murdoc.
"That'll be €40.78 miss and 15 minutes." While I wait I sit in a familiar spot. 2d and I use to come here along time ago; before I could speak English and up until the Feel Good video. Watching 2d eat food and his face puckering in fear only to find out it was delicious was one of my favorite memories here. Unfortunately since we've been doing the new album we have no free time to do anything. The other week we where in the states shooting a video and before that we've been meeting up with all the artist we're collaborating with.
Although since we've been doing the album 2d and I have been a lot closer in the time since, plane rides, hotels, car rides and all that good stuff. Feels good for him to be a constant in my life again, even when he wasn't there he in a way was. His voice was in the back of my mind after the el Manama era. I love being able to hug him and talk to him, he gives me a comfort that rids me of my troubles. I wonder why I didn't see it earlier in time that I felt this way towards him. Maybe I always knew, koi no yokan, but never actually knew until Russel pointed it out. Feelings are weird, life is weird, I'm weird; I let out a frustrated sigh.