Magnus carried the old book to the table. He planned to read it from beginning to the end. Though it might not be that easy. He had already been here for more than fifteen minutes and soon Isabelle would come looking for him. He didn't even talk to Robert but somehow he felt like this book could hold a lot of answers. Despite not knowing the right question he wanted to ask, it seemed that things might finally start to make sense. He'd heard of the legends before. About Enoch, son of Cain.

Cain was cursed. It was a result of him murdering his brother Abel and lying to the angel about it. When Cain spilled his brother's blood, the earth became cursed as soon as the blood hit the ground. In a sense, the earth was left drinking his blood. So nature turned against Cain and made him go through the same thing. He had to drink human blood to survive. It was a test to redeem himself. He could have saved lives but he did not. He chose to feed on innocent blood. The only person he cared about was his son. Enoch was nothing like Cain. He was good, he reminded him of Abel. Despite everything he did, Cain liked remembering the good moments him and Abel had as children. Which is why he cherished Enoch the most and when he asked him to stop hurting humans, he tried. But soon the hunger and the thirst became too much. One night after seeing Enoch to sleep, Cain tried leaving the house to hunt, he was in bad health and was loosing his vision. He didn't realize when Enoch had started following him to the woods. He could only sense human blood so he attacked the first thing he saw. Not knowing that he'd repeated the same mistake once again and lost the only family he had all over again. He was so heartbroken that he started looking ways to bring him back. He wanted Enoch to be immortal so he buried him in the same soil where Abel's blood had been shed and called upon the fallen angel Samael. The angel with the desire to show off his power and to make it clear that he answered to no one helped Cain in bringing his son back. It was the last straw in creating absolute chaos on earth. Samael was banished from heaven and made king of hell. Naming himself Lucifer.

Enoch did come back but there was a price to pay. He didn't come back as the son that kept Cain holding onto his humanity. The moment he saw Enoch rise from the earth, he realized that he had lost his brother and his son forever. His soul vacant. After that day the only emotion that resided in Enoch was anger for his father for bringing him back to nothing. He needed to know how to end his life and Cain's along with it.

Magnus was interrupted from his thoughts as he heard someone clearing their throat. He was so lost in thought that he didn't even hear the door being opened. Fortunately it was no other than Raphael. He looked beyond pissed.

"Mind if I come in?"

"Yes."

"Too bad I already am." He mock smiled at him. But his expression faded away as he realized what Magnus was holding.

"Is that what I think it is?" He asked.

"Well that depends on what you think it is." Said Magnus while standing up and walking towards Raphael, still holding the book.

"Izzy is making dinner. She asked me to go check up on you."

"Izzy, huh? So now you are onto nickname bases with her?" Magnus kept smiling like a maniac. He loved teasing Raphael because he only got the chance to do that once in a century. And Magnus could not believe his eyes when he started to see the red colour making its way to Raphael's pale vampire skin.

"My, my. Are you blushing? This is the sight I never thought I'd witness. It's moment like these that make you realize what your entire life has been waiting for. You're all grown up Raphe. You've made me so proud!" Said Magnus removing fake tears from his eyes. Raphael just kept avoiding Magnus' gaze not knowing what to say. He didn't want to admit he'd developed a certain liking towards the Lightwood girl.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Replied Raphael trying to compose his voice as best as he could but failing miserably. It just came out as a strangled squeak. Drowning in embarrassment of just saying her nickname Raphael left the room while making sure to thump his feet firmly on the ground. Magnus soon made his way out as well after a few moments. On his way to the kitchen Magnus realised that he should have brought the book with him so he turned around to get it back but bumped into someone.
"Magnus?" Magnus recognised Jace's voice due to all the encounters they had had during all the office meetings.
"Goldilocks!" Magnus was quiet happy to meet Jace. It was the same as being around Raphael for some reason and he did trust Jace but by now Jace would've probably known all the glory details about vampirism considering his background with the Morganstern family. Probably the reason why Jace looked distant. As if not sure that he could trust Magnus.
"Hey, I didn't know you were here."
"I came here to see Isabelle. Hoping it might help me somehow jog my memory?" Jace nodded in understanding. He'd always cared about Magnus. The first time he had met him was at a formal dinner hosted by Robert Lightwood celebrating his new partnership with The Bane Enterprises. Jace had been a teenager at that time but he was completely aware of his brother's silly crush on the sparkly man. After Max's death Alec had changed and Jace had tried to help his brother, his best friend, tried to make him understand that none of it was his fault. But no one ever got to Alec the way Magnus did. It hurt Jace to think of their lives as they were now. He would have never seen himself hunting bloodsucking vampires alongside his older brother and his former brother in law being one of them.
"Well in that case, let's go join Iz and Alec in the kitchen."
The sound of Alec's name sent familiar feelings of longing through Magnus' body. The moment Alec had left the loft all he could do was crave his presence around him.
"Alexander's here?"
"Yeah man we just came back."
"From where?"
"Do you really wanna know?"
"Right." Magnus was quiet convinced by now to not ask either Jace or Alec about their whereabouts since all they seemed to be doing these day was rampage around New York trying to drain life from all vampires there were to exist. Magnus was sure that Alec would never hurt him, but for how long? Soon his hunter instincts will try to take over and no matter how hard he tries, he wouldn't have a choice.
"You know he would never hurt you."
Yeah right.
"Till when?"
"Huh?"
"You say he won't hurt me but by the looks of it all you guys seem to be doing is just that."
"And how exactly are we doing that?"
"What do you want me to say, Jace? Soon Alec won't be in control of who he wants to hurt and whom he doesn't. There are no good and bad vampires for hunters, we're just monsters. He wouldn't have a choice."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
Robert had convinced both Jace and Alec that he would do nothing to hurt Magnus and Raphael's life as long as Alec takes checking off potential vampires from the list he had provided seriously. The only reason Alec was doing any of this was so that Robert's attention could be diverted from constantly attempting to take Magnus' life. What they didn't know was that Robert did everything on purpose. He didn't even consider sparing Magnus' life, he knew sooner or later Alec would give in to his powers.

"I'm sorry, Jace. I think I should leave." Magnus saw no point in trying to argue with Jace. It's just how things are. It's not like I can blame him, it's who he is. But the thought still enraged him, to think Alec would someday want to kill him just made him so mad that he was the one losing control over his temper now. Get a grip, Magnus. Jace just returned a nod and with that Magnus left for the kitchen. On his way there he couldn't help notice the library at the end of the corridor. At first the images that room triggered were just a blur but then they started to get clear. He could see Alec standing near the fire place, a book in hand. By now Magnus had gotten used to his mind playing games on him, this wouldn't be the first time he's hallucinating about Alec but somehow this felt more like a memory than a hallucination so he started walking towards the room. Not sure what he might find once there, he knocked and saw Alec turn around with the most beautiful smile on his face. On seeing Magnus he held out his hand gesturing him to enter the room, so he did. But when he tried to hold Alec's hand, he just ended up waving his hand into thin air. Proving that Alec wasn't really there but it still felt too real. That's when he started to see his own reflection taking Alec's hand and pulling him closer. Magnus just stood there, watching one part of him being with the only person he knew he couldn't be with. It was pretty clear by now that all of this had happened before. He felt jealous. Of himself. It didn't even feel like he knew himself anymore. He wanted these moments in his life, he didn't remember what it felt like to stand this close to Alec and not having a care in the world but he wanted to find out. Now that he'd witnessed them being together with his own eyes, exchanging smiles, sweet kisses, Magnus never had that before and he wouldn't ever have that with Dot. He wanted Alec, with every bit of his beating heart. He wanted to be able to touch him, to feel him, to own him.

After Alec came back from Magnus' place, he was so done with everything life was throwing at him that at this point he had stopped caring that his parents were making plans for his wedding with Lydia Branwell. It was in no way connected to anything supernatural, it was just a solid parternship and would bring lots of money and Robert never did get tired of cash. Alec and Lydia had been friends for longer than he could remember, two years ago Alec and Magnus were going through a rough patch in their relationship, it wasn't always rainbows and unicorn stickers and they stopped seeing eachother. At that time the break didn't make any sense to Alec but it was pretty clear now that it had alot to do with Magnus being a vampire. Robert had tried his best to get Alec and Lydia married then but that didn't work because Alec and Magnus did get back together. Alec had waited six months for Magnus but he didn't show. During that time he grew closer to Lydia. It mattered to her alot more than it did to him. She developed feelings for Alec and when she initiated a kiss, he didn't pull away. But it ended with that. He wasn't going to marry Lydia, or anyone other than Magnus for that matter but there was no point in arguing with Robert. After everything that happened at Magnus' loft Alec was close to losing all hope he had for his relationship with Magnus. So left the bathroom after taking a shower, shirtless. And saw Lydia sitting on the bed he just went up and laid on the his side and Lydia followed after. Both of them on either sides of the bed looking at eachother, Alec saw a friend but she saw alot more so she hugged him and he hugged back burring his face in her hair.
What he didn't suspect was Magnus witnessing them curled up in bed with Alec having no shirt on. Apparently Magnus wanted to give them a try so he ended up barging inside Alec's room while him and Lydia were doing something quiet innocent but by the looks of it Magnus didn't find it that decent. Alec wanted to be selfish, wanted to tell himself that he doesn't owe Magnus an explanation but he still left her in his bed alone putting his shirt on in a rush and leaving the room to follow Magnus.

After realising how much he needed Alec to be with him, Magnus knew that Alec was not going to welcome him in his life with open arms but he was still willing to try, maybe start with being friends but what he didn't expect while he was on his way to Alec's bedroom was that he'd see him curled up against Lydia. Okay, they weren't exactly having sex with eachother but Magnus was pretty sure if he had been there not five minutes ago, they would be doing exactly that. Rushing away from Alec, he knew he had no right to ask for explanations, he'd slept with Dot even if every moment he wanted it to be Alec, he still slept with her after coming back from the hospital but the pang of jealousy in his throat on seeing him curled up against that blonde bitch, and what was worse was that Lydia wasn't even a bitch, she was a good person. But it didn't make the desire of trying to rip her throat out any less. He wanted to hide because he knew Alec was right behind him so he did the most stupid thing, he took a turn and went inside the library, he had no clue why he did that because he had no way of escaping either because now the door was locked and Alec was right in front of him but Magnus kept facing the wall until Alec grabbed his arm "Why are you here?" He yanked Magnus around.

Magnus' eyes blazed back at him. "Don't ever touch me like that again." Alec dropped his hand at the sound of threat in those words. He honestly had no clue at this point about what was going on in anyone's head, not eight hours ago the same guy who told him to leave him alone after Alec beared his heart and soul about how much he wanted to be with him was posing explicit threats at him now standing in his own library, apparently jealous of someone Alec was not even remotely attracted towards. "I came here to meet Isabelle." Magnus eyed him up and down.

"Not that I owe you an explanation." No, he didn't. Magnus knew that yet, couldn't help the jab of hurt that bubbled to the surface, feelings he thought he'd kept ignoring since the moment he asked Alec who he was in the hospital. Magnus couldn't look into his eyes, not sure what he'd see there. He kept looking at the door wishing he could just leave and never come back again but at the same time, the want he felt towards Alec was getting more stronger than his hunger for blood. He wanted to demand an explanation, ask him if everything he said about wanting to wait for him was a lie. Before he knew, the words were leaving his mouth already. Rather harsh words that Magnus didn't intend on saying but couldn't help it. He wanted to hurt Alec just like he'd hurt him. But haven't I hurt him enough?
"Are you fucking her? I bet you're throwing it to her. You couldn't wait two weeks?!"
Alec straightened with a wince.
"Who I fuck is no longer your concern, just like who you fuck isn't mine," Alec spat. Not sure where this sudden hostility between them was coming from.
Alec thought he saw pain in Magnus' eyes, hurt, but he blinked and it disappeared. Why is he jealous now?
"I gave you more of me than I ever thought I could. All you did was ask me to leave, Magnus." All anger gone from his voice, there was only hopelessness left in Alec's words. These few weeks had been hell and not having Magnus by his side was something Alec never thought he'd need to prepare for.

"All I thought about was forever. With you. And you, Magnus? Do you think about me, at all? Or is it all about your beloved Dorothia?" He looked at Magnus dead in the eyes, not giving out a single emotion.
"Don't bring her into this."
"Do you think about me?" Alec stepped forward with every word, his voice dangerously low. Magnus stepped back until his back was against the wall and Alec only a few steps away.
"Do you?!" Alec threatened. His voice sending shivers through Magnus' entire body.

"Yes." He couldn't look at Alec. But he could feel the smug expression on his face. Dropping his voice to a thread of a sound, Alec kept walking towards Magnus until their faces were mere inches apart.
"Because I think about you," Alec said. "And I remember us. Your touch, I still feel it in my bones. Every inch of my body is laced with memories of you. I need to feel this, Magnus." As Alec took a hold of Magnus' neck and stroked his lips with his thumb.
Magnus' vision went blur, he dug his nails into his fists, struggling to hold on to something before he grabbed Alec.
"The marks you left on my skin are still here, Mags. But they're fading away, I need them back." Alec stepped back removing his thumb from Magnus' lips, Magnus almost sobbed at the lost of contact but froze when he saw Alec unbuttening his shirt from the top. He tilted his head to the left and took Magnus' hand, making him stroke his neck where the marks Magnus had left were close to disappearing but still visible. Alec let go of Magnus' hand but Magnus took it again, holding it as if his life depended on it.
Alec kissed him at one corner of his mouth then the other. He rubbed their cheeks together before planting tiny kisses along Magnus' jaw, journeying to his ear. "Tell me what you want."
He stepped forward and ghosted the pad of one finger to Alec's bottom lip. " To kiss you. I've been thinking about you, about this. Damn it, Alec." The words tumbled from his lips, harsher than he intended. "Just once. To know what it's like. What you taste like." Alec's eyes darkened. "Maybe then I'll be able to forget you." Alec arched an eyebrow and pulled Magnus in by the waist. "You think it's that simple?"
The desire in Alec's voice was too much to bear and not quiet enough. He leaned forward and pressed his mouth to Alec's. They both froze in place. Until Alec parted his lips and Magnus dove in. Hungry and rushed and wet. They ate at each other's mouths, tongues twisting, teeth banging against each other. Magnus made a harsh sound and grabbed Alec's jacket, pulling him closer. Alec broke the kiss. Moving his mouth to Magnus' ear, nipping at his earlobe. He whispered, "Where is she? While you're here kissing me?" Magnus chased after him, brain fogged with lust, desire and alot more than he could explain. His phone went off displaying Raphael's number, Alec stepped back daring him to take the call. Both of them stared at each other until Magnus turned his phone off and put it back in his pocket.
Alec sank his fingers in Magnus' hair pulling him in by his collar and held him steady, kissing him deep until Magnus jerked away.
"Are you sleeping with her?" He asked Alec knowing he had no right to. Alec jerked away too.
"So you didn't sleep with Dot?" Pain laced in his voice. Magnus didn't say anything. That gave Alec the answer he was looking for. He could've told Magnus that No, he didn't sleep with Lydia but he didn't want to look weak, he didn't want Magnus to know that he couldn't look at anyone else, not after he slept with Dot.
"It's never going to be me again, is it? " Alec started walking backwards shaking his head and letting out a harsh chuckle, the tears in his eys threatening to fall.
The hurt boiling in Magnus' stomach from thinking someone else had touched Alec the way he did just now was too much to bear. He grabbed Alec by his hair and yanked his head backwards? taking his mouth in a harsh possession, forcing his tongue inside when the man in his arms whimpered. Alec shuddered, hands pushing Magnus away but lips and tongue pulling him in. Magnus kissed him until his chest burned from the lack of oxygen. He wanted Alec to know that it was always him. Yes, he slept with Dot but only because he wanted to remove Alec's essence from his body. Because Alec was there, with every breath Magnus took, he was there. He fucked Dot, wishing it had been Alec spread out beneath him instead.
Their hips rocked into each other, cocks straining, rubbing as he inserted a thigh between Alec's legs. Alec whimpered, his body arching as he moved on Magnus' thigh, his movements fluid and sensual. All the pain and betrayal of the past two weeks faded to a dull memory in the background. The friction of jeans and thighs against his cock felt too good. He deepened the kiss, teeth clinking. Alec pulled away, kissing Magnus' neck. Tearing his shirt off and dragging his tongue over Magnus' naked chest. "Fuck!" Magnus threw his head back, shuddering at the wet heat of Alec's kisses. Fingers fumbled at his crotch, grazing his painful erection as Alec unzipped him slowly. He looked down. Molten eyes stared up at him as sure fingers grabbed his erection and squeezed. "Alexander" Alec closed his eyes trying to savor the sound of his name on Magnus' lips. Pupils dilated, lips parted, he dropped to his knees and tugged Magnus' throbbing dick. "It's been too long, Mags. Way too long. " Alec's voice was deep. "I need you. I need your hands all over me. Your skin on my skin." A thumb brushed over Magnus' slit, smearing pre-cum around his crown. "Ahh...Al-Alex ahh.." He whispered the name and cupped Alec's jaw. Alec stared into Magnus' eyes, begging to feel his taste. Two weeks of feeling like he would never feel Magnus inside him again. He wanted to scream at the thought of not being able to taste him again. Magnus watched through his lashes as Alec bent and took him to the back of his throat with one swallow. "God!" Magnus gripped onto his own hair for balance. Alec sucked him greedily, his tongue flicking over and dipping into his slit. Magnus thrust into his mouth, grunting at the wet slide of tongue and the tiny graze of teeth. His heavy balls ached, fire singed his skin. "Please. Alexander." Alec stroked while he sucked, moaning around Magnus' cock. The vibrations shook him. He covered his mouth with one hand, the other he used to grab the back of Alec's head, moving it up and down on him.

"Babe." His throat tightened. "Put your leg on my shoulder." His breath faltered. He did as he'd been ordered to and draped his left leg over Alec's right shoulder. The man dove in, taking first one then the other of Magnus' balls into his mouth, rolling his tongue over it and sucking. "Oh my...fuck!" Magnus panted. "You're killing me." In response, Alec flicked his tongue over the area between balls and ass. Magnus' entire body clenched. His chest constricted. Alec nuzzled his balls then pushed his stiffened tongue into Magnus' fluttering hole. He hissed. Fingers sank into his ass cheeks and pulled them apart. He squeezed his eyes shut as Alec worked his hole, licking, sucking until the muscle relaxed, then thrust inside. "Shit. Shit." He couldn't think. Should he be needing this, welcoming this so much? A finger pushed into him, sinking deep and touching something inside him. He cried out, body jerking. Another finger pushed inside. Then another. Three digits sank deep, stretching, burning. The pain brought pleasure and he welcomed it, contracting around those fingers with a guttural moan. "Mags!" Alec almost sobbed, needing to feel Magnus contract around him and listening to those sinful sounds. Alec moaned, taking in the scent of Magnus' precum, It was like a drug and Alec was addicted.
"Fuck, you feel so good... baby...shit!" Magnus looked down, holding Alec's heavy-lidded gaze as he tightened his grip in Alec's hair and lifted off those fingers stretching him and sank back down, treacherously slow. A plaintive moan fell from his lips. Alec hissed. The fingers inside him flexed. He lifted off again and slammed down this time. "God." His eyes watered at the burn, but he repeated the movement. This time Alec thrust up as he bore down, bruising that place inside him. "God." Stars blinded him as the orgasm hit, swamping his senses. He writhed on Alec's fingers, ass clenching wildly. "Fuck. Fuck." Alec didn't stop, he kept massaging and pressing that sweet spot as streams of cum shot from Magnus. "Yes. Yes. Yes, Fuck! Mags, Give it to me." Magnus' lungs burned as he rode the climax until those magic fingers slipped from him. He lowered his stiff leg from Alec's shoulder. Magnus sunk to the floor hauling Alec into his arms. "Alec." There it was, that wretched nickname again. Alec had never hated being called that more in his life.

"Yes, Magnus?" He looked up and placed a soft kiss on Magnus' lips until he jerked away.

"I don't love you."

"Excuse me?" Magnus stood up and grabbed his clothes yanking them on.

"Are you just going to pretend nothing happened between us?" Alec's voice was tough but he was breaking down and silently begging Magnus to stay.

"That was probably a mistake and I-" Alec scrambled to his feet. "You what?"

"I love Dot." Something flashed in Alec's eyes. "Are you telling me that or forcing yourself to believe those words?"

"Raphael's waiting for me downstairs Alec, he's probably called me a thousand times and Isabelle will be wondering where I am. I left an hour and a half ago telling her I needed to use the restroom." Alec grabbed Magnus' hand and pulled him in, they were both fully dressed, their ruffled hair and swollen lips the only evidence of what had transpired moments ago. "Why are you doing this?" Alec said, his voice suddenly detached of all emotions. "For starters, I'm in love with Dot!" Magnus taunted but didn't meet Alec's eyes. Alec grabbed Magnus' hair and pulled his head back, exposing his long, graceful neck. Anger finally taking hold of him. "You think you can make me your little mistress? You'll always have Dot so you just need a young, ignorant boy to prey on-" Magnus interrupted his words by pushing Alec away. Magnus' expression was of pure hatred- not for Alec but toward Alec's words. "I'm not some sick pedophile, Alexander." He spat. "Oh yeah? How old were you again?" Alec snapped again. His eyes narrowed and his jaw clenched; he was so angry that he felt like he could breathe fire.

"I'm not having this conversation with you, Alexander. I'm leaving."

"Make sure you never come back."

A/N Eh. Sorry everyone. People are hating on Magnus way too much but i just want to let you guys know that despite all the curses and magic spells, his conscience is still fighting and he the one he desires most is still Alec. Just a reminder. Hope you guys liked it so far 3