Chapter 2-Feeling Guilty

On the way back to the firehall, the Ghostbusters sat in silence. Janine, Kylie, and Jenny had all gone home. No one said anything during the ride as they were in a bit of shock and worried for Ray. He had never gotten seriously hurt and gone into a coma before. But Egon knew the feelings of a coma all too well. He had been in several before. And they were not fun, and he didn't like to think about it.

"Any of y'all hungry?" Peter asked, "I'm starving."

"Yeah, I guess I could for some food." replied Winston.

"Egon, how about you?" Peter asked.

"No. I'm not hungry." Egon replied a little coldly.

"Are you sure?" Winston asked.

"Yes." Egon said a little snippily.

"Ok, just asking." Peter said. He knew better than to get on Egon's bad side.

The three then stopped a local Chinese restaurant. Egon stayed in the car as he didn't want anything. He kept thinking. He kept feeling a sick feeling, but it wasn't from passing out at the hospital or the car ride. It was something else, but he didn't know what. Just then, Peter and Winston came back to the car with the food.

The three then headed back to the firehall and doled out the food. However, Peter and Winston didn't eat much, while Egon didn't eat a thing.

"That's weird. I said I was hungry, but I haven't eaten much." Peter said, putting his chopsticks down.

"Nor am I." Winston said, "Egon, are you sure you don't-"

"No." Egon snapped.

"Ok, ok. Just asking man." Winston said, not wanting to make Egon mad or go ballistic.

"Let's see if there's anything good on TV." suggested Peter.

The guys went into the rec room and turned on the TV. However, a newscast was on, telling about the fire and Ray being in the hospital. Egon's heart began pounding really fast and hard. Peter kept surfing through channels only to find the same news. Even though there was no video of the incident, Egon kept playing the scene over and over. All he could see was the piece of ceiling falling on Ray and trapping him. Not to mention the word "GO!" Ray had shouted while trying to get free. Egon felt like he was gonna cry.

Finally, Egon couldn't take. "I have some work to get done." he said as he got up and went into the lab. He closed the door behind him. He took a deep breath while trying to calm down. But it was hard.

After a few hours, Egon decided to call it a night. So did Peter and Winston as they were heading into the bedroom. Later on, Peter and Winston were able to sleep, but Egon had the opposite. All he did was toss and turn. And it didn't help that every time he tried to sleep, all the distraught Ghostbuster could see were boards falling on Ray's leg, and the last thing Ray said was "GO!".

After waking up from the horrible memory for probably the millionth time, Egon sat up really fast and hyperventilated a little bit before calming down. Cold sweat dropped from Egon's face. He then got up and went into the bathroom.

Egon splashed some cold water on his face and tried to calm down. He then got the sick feeling again, but he knew what it was. He then realized something.

It was HIS fault Ray was in the hospital. If he hadn't been so clumsy, careless, and stupid and watched where he was going, Ray wouldn't be in this mess. The sick feeling Egon kept feeling was guilt. Egon then realized that he was a danger to the team. He had hurt Ray.

Egon felt like he was gonna cry. He had hurt his own teammate and could likely do the same to Peter and Winston. He was a danger to the team.

"What have I done?" Egon asked himself, while looking straight into his own eyes. "What have I done?"

To be continued...