So, this is the last chapter, published early as a thank-you for reading.

You do not understand the joy of getting a comment until you publish, so if you have commented, or bookmarked, left kudos, or heck even if you've read this shit from start to finish, thank you.

And when I say end, I mean the end of the first half, you can't get rid of me that easily.

So, after a short hiatus I will be back. And by short I mean long af.

Please read The Weird And Wonderful World Of A Guy Named Matt.

It is honestly just the better version of this fic and its funnier, better written, and you should read it.

2nd January

So I told him. At the new years party at school. I was so nervous. Everyone was counting down, and when we got to one, I told him. I shouted it out, when everyone was screaming, pressed together, I told him I loved him.

And he didn't fucking hear me.

Or at least, I don't think he did. Everything was so loud, chaotic. I don't see how he didn't hear, we were so close, but he didn't.

And I don't have the courage to say it again.

-Toru

4th January

I can do this, I just have to keep calm, I just have to not panic.

I don't think I have mentioned it, what with everything that's going on right now, but now I'm a third year, I have been promoted to captain. I'm a little stressed out at the moment, and the whole Iwa-Chan thing isn't helping. But I'll be fine.

I just need to calm down, and breath, so I can sort out my life before school comes back on.

-Toru

6th January

Life has officially been sorted. And by that I mean kind of been sorted. And by that I mean not at all, but I can dream. Iwa-Chan and I are still friends, even if he has been acting weird.

Wait.

What if he heard me?

What if he's mad and thinks it's weird and doesn't want to be my friend anymore?

Or worse yet, what if it was the aliens?

It's not fair, why does Iwa-Chan get first contact and not me?

In all seriousness, I hope he doesn't know.

-Toru

7th January

Makki and Mattsun have been regaining their friend points. They have been nice, giving me consoling words in my time of need.

8th January

Iwa-Chans cat has died. I think I am more upset about this then him. I loved that cat.

10th January

And here we are again, school. Before this school year starts, I would like to talk about volleyball.

I have decided not to include any of our games or anything, because, even if volleyball is a big part of my life, I want this diary to capture the small things, the things I wouldn't think to write down.

And it's got enough angst in it to make its own teenage vampire novel. And I just don't want to write about Tobio-Chan and his silly, cute face.

-Toru

12th January

We have a bunch of new members this year, I'll write about them more later, I'm tired.

13th January

I was even more tired today. In fact, I was so tired I fell asleep on Iwa-Chans lap at lunch, and when I woke up he had to feed me because I didn't want to move. I should be tired more often, that was nice.

14th January

There are 10 to the power of 123 atoms in the known universe. That's a big number.

15th January

It's cold. It's very, very cold. Iwa-Chan and I made a blanket fort, and spent the day watching movies in our pajamas. We had two thermos' and a jug of hot chocolate with us, and we only moved for bathroom breaks.

I keep thinking about what it would be like if we were dating. How we could cuddle more, how when the movie is boring I could kiss him instead.

But I can't, and I never will, because he's Iwa-Chan, and I'm me.

So I will have to be satisfied with this, drinking hot chocolate and watching bad rom coms because it's raining.

I suppose it could be worse, he could have a girlfriend.

16th January

Iwa-Chan has a girlfriend.

Why is this happening? How is this happening? He can't have a girlfriend, I wouldn't be able to stand it if he has a girlfriend.

I don't wanna share Iwa-Chan, he's mine.

Let me explain, there's this girl in one of the classes he's in. One of the classes I'm NOT in. They have this project they are doing together, and they have been spending all their time together. I mean, they do have a project, and Iwa-Chan hasn't said they are dating. But still!

17th January

I asked Iwa-Chan if he likes Kayato-Chan. His answer was just "I guess." but I do not think they are dating. Good.

20th January

There is this guy in my science class called Tomo, I hate him so much. He doesn't believe in aliens? How can you not believe in aliens? We had a debate about it in the middle of class and Iwa-Chan had to physically hold me back from killing him with the mystical powers of the extraterrestrial.

I won the debate, just saying.

-Toru

25th January

Things have gotten weird between Iwa-Chan and I. It was slow, but I have finally decided things have gotten weird. We touch more often, and god, it makes me shiver, he's amazing.

But I also feel like there's this wall between us, like we both have these secrets and we are only now aware of them. I don't like this, I want things to go back to before, when we were just best friends.

26th January

Iwa-Chan and I had a normal day today, after school we went to the park. He brought me ice-cream, we talked all day, and his family invited me back for dinner. There was only one weird moment, and that was when he was handing me by cone, and our fingers brushed. He coughed and changed the subject.

27th January

I can't believe it. I can't fucking believe it.

They told him, fucking Hanamaki and Matsukawa told Iwa-Chan I love him.

I was waiting for Iwa-Chan after practice so we could walk home together, and I heard them talking. Iwa-Chan was asking Makki and Mattsun for help with something, and they just told him.

They tried to cover it up, but he knows now.

Needless to say, I ran home and haven't seen Iwa-Chan since.

I really don't want to go to school on Monday.

29th January

There is only one thing to do now. On monday, I will tell him. I will not wimp out, he will not miss hear me, I will tell him I love him.

Even if it destroys our friendship, he deserves to know.

30th January

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

He kissed me.

Iwa-Chan kissed me.

You know how I said I'll tell him, well I was trying to, I found a spare classroom, and stuttered my way though part of a confession. And then he grabbed my face and kissed me.

Then he looked horrified and ran off. What am I going to do?

I haven't told anyone, and we didn't see each other for the rest of the day, and he completely avoided me at practice, no matter how hard I tried to talk to him.

This doesn't change anything, I still need to tell him, and, well…

If he kissed me it must mean he likes me, right?

So maybe, he could actually be my boyfriend?

Wholy crap.

I can't write anymore, I need a run.

-Toru

31st January

So we're dating.

I don't know how else to say it.

We are dating.

I feel so happy writing that,

Dating.

But I guess you want to know why? He ignored me thout the whole of the first period, and the second period.

And by interval I was tired of being ignored. So I grabbed his wrist and dragged him into the same classroom as yesterday, and I turned to face him and I just couldn't.

I knew it was almost certain he liked me back. But my throat closed up, seeing him there, nervous, scared.

My chest got tight, I couldn't breath.

And then he started to talk, said how he didn't mean it, and how he was sorry, and how if he made me uncomfortable he was sorry. It was only when he started explaining how he couldn't just stop liking me that it hit.

He likes me.

And it was only when he started telling me everything he liked about me, in this long meandering rant that I did something.

And so I kissed him, like he had kissed me. But he was mid-word, and I just wanted him to shut up, and he made this amazing sound.

We may or may not of made out in a classroom, that's what I'm saying.

And then the bell rung, and we had to go to our own classes, and we promised to talk and lunch.

Dating,

We're dating.

And now he's my boyfriend. That's another word I like, boyfriend.

bye-bye,

-Toru

Thank you to BlackSparklesAndLeather for helping, you are amazing.

A few one-shots for this fic might come out, depending on how lazy I am and if people are actually reading this shit.

just, thank you.

-Phoenix