Chinmoku no Angel
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Chapter 4- Moonlight
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Disclaimer- I dun own it. Never will.
Summary- Read the one I put a while back!!
Author's Note- This chapter celebrates my finals being over!!!!! WOOT!
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Tsuki shivered violently, her throat tight with fear, "It's s-s-so c-cold!" She rubbed lightly at her wrists, the dried blood flaking off in the violently cold temperatures. She glanced around hopefully, "I wonder if anyone's looking for me..." Then she scowled to herself, "Probably not... They don't need me..."She stretched her arms high above her head, almost unsure whether it was safe to go back, but ultimately deciding that since she had found the cave, she had rights to stay there. So, ever slowly, she readily limped back to her cave.
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Toboe glanced up curiously from where he was snoozing next to Hige and Blue, "Tsuki?"
She glanced at him, her eyes cast in shadow, "What...?"
"You okay...?" he asked slowly. "You're arms are covered in something."
"It's blood." she said quietly, "Just blood."
"Oh..." he said softly, "Are you okay?"
She scowled at him,"Of course!" Her eyes turning a deep blue shade suddenly flashed and caught the dying firelight, "I'm just fine! Always have been, always will be!"
Toboe stepped back in surprise, "I-I'm sorry!"
Tsuki scowled, her face drooping so that it fell back into the shadows, "Don't be. You didn't kill Demeter. You didn't destroy everything dear to me. Good night Toboe." And with that, she flopped down on her pallet and curled into a ball, the fire's dying embers reflecting off her black and red hair.
Toboe would've drooped his ears had he been a cat or dog, a soft murmur escaping his lips before he curled back up beside Blue and Hige, "I'm sorry Tsuki..."
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The next morning, Tsuki awoke to soft hands caressing her hair. She opened her eyes slowly and looked up into Blue's deep eyes. Blue grinned at her, "You're back."
Tsuki scowled at her and shook her head, "Yes I am. And I'm no staying here."
Toboe glanced at her in surprise, "Why?"
Tsuki smirked, "I don't wanna. I'm gonna go live with the cubs. Their momma's not coming back and someone needs to keep an eye on them."
"Oh, please!" drawled a voice from the back. "You can barely stop someone from fighting you and winning! How can you possibly keep an eye on some wolf cubs that don't even belong to you?!"
Tsuki shot a glare to Tsume, "I never said anything about it being wolf cubs, did I... Don't you dare touch them..."Tsuki's voice turned ice cold with dangerous intents.
"What're you gonna do... fight me?" Tsume snickered making Tsuki growl with rage.
Her entire body started shaking from rage until finally, "Y-y-you... YOU ASININE LITTLE FREAK!!! You don't deserve the friends that you have! They put up with your attitude and your guilt trips! They put up with your little behavior quirks! I don't know how they do it!!"
Her voice grew louder and shriller by the moment, "They manage to put up with you while they travel! You must me some kind of asinine jerk-off not to see how they treat you even though you treat them like shit!"
Her voice dropped a couple notches so that everyone, including Kiba and Toboe leaned in to hear the words, "You're an ungrateful little know-it-all who fantasizes about having real friends because he's too stupid to realize that there's people waiting on him right where he is!"
Her eyes misted over with tears as she picked up her blanket and slid her bag onto her shoulders. And then, without looking back, she walked out of the cave, out of the lives of the all those wolves.
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Toboe glanced at Tsume, then to Blue, "Umm..."
Blue shook her head, "Let her go calm down... unless you want a good bashing too?" Toboe shook his head and settled back down, his eyes slightly hazy with the leaving of his new friend.
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Tsuki curled up beside the freshly dug grave, tear literally pouring off her face to water the freshly dug earth in salty tears,"Oh Demeter..." Her voice shook slightly, trying to regain her strength, "Oh Demeter... I can't do it. The ass is right... I have no right to take care of your pups... please come back!"
A slight rustling of the bushes beside her made Tsuki prop her head up, "Demeter?!"
The large silver wolf walked out into the clearing, making Tsuki shriek with joy. The wolf walked right up and nuzzled her neck, proving that this was no dream.
"My beloved, young lostling... I'm so sorry..."
Tsuki's eyes started to water, "Demeter... you came back! I'm so happy! I'm so..." At a loss for words, she hugged the mother wolf tightly, tears flowing freely down her face to land in the grave which now held no meaning over her heart.
Demeter's eyes started misting as she looked lovingly at her daughter of flesh, "Tsuki... Have you ever wondered how you could get so close? My being a wolf and how the little ones loved you so?"
Tsuki, nearly beyond all reason, nodded slowly, "You loved me because you did... and they loved me for the same reason."
Demeter slowly shook her silver head, "No. The reason is because..." Demeter glanced around the wooded area in apprehension before saying quietly, "Tsuki... you're a wolf."
Tsuki's eyes grew to the size of dinner plates, "Say what now?!"
Demeter seemed to chuckle, "You're a wolf."
"Nu uh..." she said quickly.
Demeter nodded kindly, "Yes you are. And you're going to go with the other wolves when they leave."
Tsuki scowled, "There are no other wolves!"
Demeter flashed a smile, "Those people. They're the wolves. Wolves don't have to look like a wolf... to actually be a wolf."
"How so...?" Tsuki asked quietly. Her head was seriously starting to hurt...
"Open your mind's eye," whispered Demeter. "See underneath the underneath. Find the magic settled on your soul and disperse it! Become your inner wolf and run free." her voice faded slightly in a gust of wind, making Tsuki shiver.
"I am no wolf." she whispered fiercely.
Demeter chuckled, a sound of chiming bells echoing around the grave site, "It's my time to go. Tell my pups not to worry, and go be with the rest of your kind. Open your heart and soul. Find the love you need to last a lifetime."
Finally, Demeter seemed to fade away, an everlasting memory in the heart of the poor broken girl. Tsuki's eye began to water and she closed her eyes, already wanting to die again.
"See underneath the underneath... Find the magic settled on your soul and disperse it... Become your inner wolf and run free..." whispered Tsuki, closing her eyes tightly to free whatever bits of soul she had left.
When she reopened her eyes, she found herself a couple feet shorter, staring at a pair of silver paws.
Whipping herself around, she yipped in surprise, falling back on her butt in surprise, "What the fu-?!?"
The joyous yipping of Demeter's pups startled her, "Tsu! Tsu!! We found you!!! You look pretty today!!"
Tsuki looked at them curiously, "Hi...?"
The one with deep blue eyes grinned up at her, "How's mom doin'? Sleeping good?"
Tsuki nodded slowly, "Yeah... Who're you again?"
The tiniest one smiled at her, "I'm Cassie, remember?"
"And I'm Ellissa! You love the way mom named me."
Tsuki turned to the boy pup, asking quietly, "Tarveir?"
The little pup hopped up happily, "Yup!" His tail started wagging frantically as he nuzzled Tsuki who stood there in shock.
She suddenly gave him a soft nudge, "Back to the den. I need to go find someone, 'kay?"
The three pups whined but obediently scurried back into the hidden dem, making Tsuki smile. She walked over to the water's edge, peering in curiously, already sure she was a wolf, just wanting to know what she looked like.
A startling silver and black wolf stared back at her. She raised a paw, lightly touching the surface of the water, a rippling effect coursing across the surface. She glanced to her hind legs, staring in wonder of the abnormally black paw there and in front.
She smiled but then stopped short, fear driven through her by one single thought, "Now how do I change back?!?" Concentrating, she closed her eyes and thought firmly about how she looked before the wolfish form took over her appearance. Seconds later, she found herself sitting in the water.
She slowly stood and raised a peach colored hand to her face, laughing softly, "I'm back! He he he... awesome..." Then she stood back up, savoring the feel of height and the feel of water against her bare skin.
Stepping out of the water, she shook very much like a dog or wolf then started walking back to the cave.
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Tsuki grinned sweetly, "Hullo Toboe."
Toboe grinned back, "Hey, feeling better?"
"Much." she declared, yawning thoughtfully. "But now I'm amazingly sleepy."
He shrugged, "Tsume left a while ago, so the corners back there are empty. Sleep well."
Tsuki grinned and softly kissed Toboe's cheek before walking back to flop on her pallet, almost instantly falling asleep.
Toboe blushed in surprise and spun around to see a smiling Blue, "Wasn't that sweet...?"
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Later that night, Tsuki awoke again, her thoughts running wild in her head for falling asleep. Quietly, she slipped out of the cave, running silently out to the wolf den where the pups were sleeping.
Cassie awoke when she stepped inside, the full moon's light casting an angelic light on her silver and black fur. Cassie nearly yipped in glee, but stayed quiet so her sleeping siblings wouldn't wake up.
Tsuki smiled at her, stepping forward quietly, her nails making a sharp click on the rock, "Hullo dear. Go back to sleep. I'm back now." Cassie smiled warmly and did as she was told, settling back into a warm snooze.
Tsuki, unable to sleep further padded back outside, enjoying the warm feel of the moonlight on her back. She sat down and let out a long howl that filled the night air like a birdsong, traveling quickly to fill the whole valley, almost reaching the far off city of Phox.
A sharp howl cut into hers, mixing like wildfire, making her stop short, the sharp feeling to flee filling her as another wolf stepped out of the tree from the general direction of the cave.
A silvery grey wolf with a scar across it's chest regarded with deep eyes of wisdom, "Stop howling. You're a nuisance."
Tsuki gave him a impish grin, flicking her tail delicately, "Make me." The undying joy at seeing another wolf filled her until the sharp retort was heard.
"Stop now dammit. You're such a pest, whoever you are."
Tsuki growled, her claws extending slightly in anger, "My name is Tsuki, you asshole! Use it!"
His eyes widened and the ears drooped, "T-Tsuki?"
She nodded, unable to shake the feeling to flee, "That would be me. Need something?"
He scowled and stepped back into the woods as more howls surrounded her, "Not from you..."
She swung to her left, tail whipping quickly in excitement, "Hullo?!"
A white wolf, a dark blue wolf and two brown wolves stepped up into the clearing. One ran towards her in delight, "Tsuki!"
She fell back as the wolf ran into her, yelping in surprise, "What?"
The wolves grinned at each other then to her, the white one stepping forward, "It's me. Kiba, Blue, Hige, and Toboe."
A pale girl stepped up next to them, her red eyes wide, "This one knew there was something different about you. This one was right!"
Tsuki grinned, her eyes tearing up and she stepped up to the woman, the moonlight seemingly seeping into her fur.
Toboe nuzzled her next in excitement, "Tsuki! We didn't know you were a wolf too!"
She grinned, "Neither did I. Not until today anyway..."
They all gave her a puzzled look but Kiba was the first to act, "Tsuki..." he began thoughtfully, "Would you like to travel with us...?"
Tsuki's eyes widened, "Are you sure you want me to?"
Blue grinned sweetly at her, "We wouldn't offer if we didn't want you."
Tsuki smiled at them, "Then of course. I'd love to."
And right then and there, Tsuki Sora knew that for once, she belonged. She belonged with the other wolves who cared. She belonged under the moonlit sky, the moon beating down on her back, filling her mind with sharp joys of life. She was home. Running under the moonlight, the sharp scents of life promising a better tomorrow...
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Author's Note- Here's a toast to my reviewers! Thank you to everyone who's read and reviewed any of my stories! It's been a year and I'd just love to thank you all for your contructive critisism and your loving reviews. Thankies to all and a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!!
Mazuma- Here ya go! hope you like this chapter too! Hope it has some more info. .; Thank you muches for reviewing last chapter.
MagykGurl- Glad you liked the last chappie. Thank you too for reviewing! And here's your update.
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Well, another year has pretty much come and gone. .;; If you have any questions about my stories, please leave a review with the question in it. Thankies to all, and to all a good night.
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Silver-Serval