A/n: Hi guys waves sorry it's been so long . Thanks for the reviews and enjoy this chapter. Just a reminder this fic is Au as it is my version of Mary and Carlo's story and exploring their relationship. Hope you like :)

Love and Loss

Part 4: Fear holds it in

Two months had passed since I discovered I was pregnant and I still hadn't told Carlos. The only person who knew was the person I spoke to on the day. Luckily I hadn't heard from him since.

But Carlos wasn't completely ignorant, he knew something was wrong and at times I would find him staring at me for minutes at a time. I always turned my head away and when he asked if everything was all right, I'd always turn back to him plaster a fake smile on my face answering of course. That one word seemed to satisfy him and I would always let out a little sigh of relief.

And then the time came to go back home and visit my family. The day before we left was an open sign to Carlos that despite the fact I'd told him everything was all right it clearly wasn't.

When the phone rang Carlos had answered the phone. He looked confused as Wilson's voice sounded through the speaker's huge congratulations.

I ran to him quickly and snatched the phone off of him. He looked at me skeptically.

"Congratulations for what"?

"On our marriage"

He had raised a brow before picking up a suitcase and taking it out to the taxi that was waiting for us out front.

"What are you doing calling here" Wilson sighed through the phone

"You haven't told him have you"?

I was silent for a moment.

"No" I whispered clearly ashamed.

"You have to tell him"

"I know I just need more time"

"Mary if you don't tell him the baby will end up telling him"

"I just need time"

"Mary"

"I'm scared ok, imagine how my family are going to react when they found out, they'll be disappointed I'm so young"

"Why worry about them, Think of Carlos he is your husband Mary"

"They don't know"

"Don't know what"?

"About the whole husband thing"

"Oh"

"Yeah"

"Not so good"

"I know"

There was a moment's silence

"Otherwise how are you"?

"Ok, Been feeling sick a lot lately"

"That's to be expected"

"Yeah"

"Well I have to go"

"Mary"?

"Yeah"

"It'll be ok"

I sighed, " Thanks Wilson, I hope so"

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Our flight was far too quick for my liking. I soon found myself outside the front door of my parent's home , with Carlos hand in mine.

This sure wasn't going to be easy.

And it wasn't. My parents were shocked to see Carlos and even more blown away by the newfound knowledge that he was my husband.

Soon people were running up and down stairs, whispers passing from one mouth to another's ear.

It was very uncomfortable.

And my family being the insightful people theywere sensed there was more, but luckily enough time decided to be on my side for a change. Once the dreadful dinner was over and everyone upstairs having an early night It was just Carlos and I sitting on the foldout bed, set up in the family den.

I knew it was the time now , little did I expect he'd be the one to tell me the news.

TBC