Love and Loss
Chapter 5
Ever seeing ever knowing
Sitting beside Carlos that night, felt like I was sitting beside a parent, getting ready to fess up.
I took in a deep breath then slowly let it out. My hands now clasped in my lap were just itching to move around in frenzy.
Then he faced me and gave me his smile.
"It's been a good visit" he commented
I nodded, yep and I was about to ruin the perfect visit with a shattering announcement.He cocked his head to the side and grasped my shaking hand in his.
"Mary"?
"Hmm" I answered my gaze set on my hands.
"Look at me" he asked somewhat pleadingly.
And when I did look at him I didn't see a disappointed parent, but rather the caring husband that had been there all along, why was it I always seemed to miss the fact that he was always on my side.
Maybe cause you don't deserve him, answered another part of my mind.
I shook my head to rid myself of the thought.
"I know Mary"
My heart leapt into my throat.
"I know that you've been keeping something to yourself, I know you've been calling Wilson" he continued. And yet it wasn't in an angry or accusing town.
Which made me all the more nervous, damn, how did he always manage to remain so calm?
I sighed and placed my face in my hands "How"? Was all I could manage to ask.
He scooted closer to me.
"How could I not? I'm not blind Mary"
"I know I'm sorry"
This time he laughed "why? This isn't bad news"
"But I kept it from you"
He nodded, "I know, we can talk about that later for now we should celebrate"
His eyes were twinkling in excitement, and I was starting to find it contagious.
He nudged me playfully "Say it"! He whispered. And for the first time of saying this I felt truly happy.
"We're going to have a baby"
I now had hope that everything would be ok, of course I still had to tell my parents.
TBC