Wait… missing?
I stopped. My chin fell in an arc to my chest.
How could I forget? How dare I! Their sacrifice. They gave it all up for me. The chance to love. To be happy. To have a family. I was only missing part of my life. But they. They were missing all of theirs. I... I am so stupid… So selfish... How…
The damns broke unleashing a flood of salty teas unto my already red rough cheeks.
"Roxanne…"
"I am sorry." I whispered letting the air carry the soft sound.
"For what," asked Lilly as she hesitantly took a step closer.
"You all gave up everything. Your hopes, your dreams. Those precious to you. Your chances at a happy life. Everything. Just so you could guard me, and hear I am crying of two years!"
"Roxanne. Calm yourself. Look, Lilly and I, we made that choice. It was wrong of us. We never gave you the choice. We were wrong to force you away from happiness. To take you from Riku. We were wrong on a lot of levels and about many things. But this one was all by your father's wishes. He said to only let you find a proper gentleman. The two of us assumed it would mean a prince. But we were wrong."
I looked up at Crystal's face.
My parent's will? They had never been mentioned before. NEVER.
Lilly and Crystal had gone to great lengths to keep that knowledge from me. I never thought that they would ever tell me anything about it.Even now, though I doubted receiving an answer I asked anyways.
Though looking back on it now, I wish I had never asked.
"Crystal, what happened... to my parents?"
Crystal bowed her head. Then se did something I never expected. Her legs buckled, and she crashed to the floor sobbing and crying out. Saying she never wanted to.
Lilly bent down beside her and tried to comfort her.
I stood still. Feeling very awkward.
"It's okay Crystal. We did what we had to do, "Lilly said as she padded Crystal on the back. But she was crying too. Just silently.
"Roxanne take Crystal inside. I will return in a moment to explain things. It's time you knew the truth. I'll return after I settle everyone else back in. I'll return and help you calm Crystal before we begin."
Lilly walked out and down the hall as I helped Crystal up and into the room.
About a half hour later, Crystal had settled down and Lilly had returned. She requested that I sit on her bed while they faced me from Crystal's.
"Now Roxanne, you're sure you want to know this right," Lilly asked looking me directly in the eyes.
"Positive," I said stiffening up.
"Okay, first understand that until we find your necklace we can not revive your memories of Riku," Lilly said pausing to look at Crystal. "Did you wipe out her departure memories as well?"
"Yes. I thought it would be best if she remembered nothing."
"Okay. Roxanne. Brace yourself. What I am going to tell you is going to hurt. At the time of your departure, the master of the purelings, the one you have set out to defeat, was on his way to Kingdom Heart. Even then, your mother was still insistent that you were meant to fulfill the prophecy and not her. So, she put you on a ship and sent you away. You were taken to Traverse Town were Cid introduced us to Destiny Islands. He said that he had barely even noticed the speck of land, and that you should be safe there. So we took you there, obtained everything you needed and locked away your memories of home. By locking your memories, we knew that you could never be found. While you were safely hidden, our armies fought full on with the purelings. But they were no match for the purelings. They simply outnumbered our forces. However, we managed to find out their plan. I am not sure how, and the queen never told anyone anything except it was the last thing that the person had ever done. The master had planned to find and kill your parents turning them into purelings, and then the master wanted to raise you as his or her own. Your parents had visited the front lines, and knew our people stood no chance. Two weeks before you were retrieved, your parents requested us to kill them, destroy their hearts, and then parade their bodies through the town and dump them into the sea, but instead allowing the bodies to be captured by the purelings. They also wanted a clone made of you to be killed and paraded the same way."
Lilly paused. Tears strolled quietly across the fleshy pavement. Her eyes stared at the floor.
Tears were covering my checks in a sea of salt. I knew that they had done it. Btu no matter what anger tried to arise in me; it was drowned be the oceans of sorrow and pity I was feeling. For some reason I had always pictured my parents dying majestically. In battle, at the front lines. But never had I thought that they had been murdered. My thoughts raged, trying to grasp everything. But crystal broke through the barrier of confusing knots.
"Roxanne," Crystal cried. "We are so sorry. Believe us we never wanted it to be like that. Please try to understand it was the only way your parents could save everyone. And don't think they didn't love you. They did this so you could finish learning in peace. And so you would have a home to return to."
I looked up, just to see if they were looking at me. However, their faces were still down, and their heads bowed.
"It's okay. I understand. I just wish I could have done something. I wish I would have known…"
"So do we. But Roxanne. All your parents wanted was for you to fulfill the destiny set before you. They knew that you would and could do it. And even if you would have failed, they wouldn't love you any less. But because of everything that's happened. We know what your mother knew all along. You are the one. You will save the worlds, and you will avenge your parents. You are not plain, and you are not ordinary, Princess Roxanne."
Those words. They made me smile through my tears. I could not help it. It just made me feel so happy. To know that or once someone else was counting on me. Instead of me counting on fifteen others.
I got up and hugged them both. I now understand why my mother picked them to be my head guardians.