I am really sorry for not updating sooner. I was going to update June 6 and make it a one year anniversary present, but I didn't think of that until about June 29. So then I decided that I'd update on July 7 (07/07/07) but I went to my friend's cabin and wasn't able to do anything about it.
So here's a new chapter now, July 18.
I apologize for the shortnest of this chapter. I always try to make each chapter at least 1, 000 words long but I just couldn't stretch this out any longer. I was going to have another part to this chapter, which would have made it the minimum length, but I decided it would be better if it was a different chapter because it sort of loses the writing style.
Next chapter will sort of get out of the memories type style, and more into the whole actual problematic plot of the story. Also, Raven is a bit more/less emotional in this story. She's less because Slade isn't really doing anything to her, and she's more because she is dealing with this herself and she needs to get it out of her system, while in the show she told the other titans and that was how she got it out.
Now here's the chapter.
Terra left on Tuesday. It was Sunday that she had told me about my father. The titans and I went searching for her. It was useless to look though, and I knew it.
Terra was already gone.
She was gone. Dead. Her only purpose on Earth was to tell me of what I had to do. She had done that, and my dad had given her one more day on Earth before he took her back down.
Yesterday she had came up on the roof to talk to me. As hard as it may seem, we actually became 'friends'. Well, maybe not friends, but we were mutual at least. She understood me as much as anybody could, and for one moment I think that I might of understood her. Maybe.
I had always thought that Robin had understood me most, even though he was the one with the least knowledge about my background.
Starfire had heard about my origin, well, the basic facts, but she had never heard about my mother or father, even though she asked. All I told her was that my dad left me before I was born, and my mom had 'died' when I was thirteen.
Beast Boy and Cyborg had both seen my father before, but they did not know it was him, so I can't really count it.
Robin and I had met before any of the titans had. We had formed the team, and we knew each other for a few months before we actually carried out the plan to put the team together.
Robin hardly knows anything about my past; all he knows about it is that I don't like my father at all. He knows that I came to form this team to get away from my dad, and that's all I have ever told him. He has never asked anything about him like the rest of the team, he knows I want my privacy about my old life. He also knows I want my privacy about my new life.
Now I am starting to question if he knows me the best. Here Terra is, and she has actually met my father, face-to-face. She has met him, and she knows about why she is delivering this message. She knows I am going to destroy the world.
Maybe she knows the most about me.
Does she really know me though? All she knows is my destiny, not me. She does know that I like my privacy, but every one on the team knows that.
She knows about my father, who he is, what he does; she might even know what he did to my mother.
She doesn't know that I love to drink herbal tea though, and that I get up at six-thirty every morning, or that I try to read two books every week. She doesn't know who my favourite author is; she doesn't know that I actually do listen to music.
I don't know.
Terra started telling me how sorry she was for everything that she had ever done, even though she knew that I would never completely change my mind about her. Still, she told me anyway. She needed to get it out.
...And I let her.
She told me that it was all her fault, and that she did not want to blame it on Slade. I let her confide in me, and the more she talked the harder it was when she told me why she had came up here and told me all those things.
When Terra came to find me she had needed to tell me something important. The clock, the one that she had heard while in the stone prison - and the one that she had heard counting up from seventy-eight when she woke up - it was back again.
And it was counting down.
She had heard it first thing she had woken up, and it was counting down from 16 hours, which was exactly how much time that was left until midnight.
Eventually she walked closer to me, and she gave me a hug. I don't really know why I let her hug me, but I know why she did it. Even villains need comforting sometimes - even when it is too late for them. I guess I did not push her away because I have felt she has earned her redemption, in a sense.
I think I might have actually found somebody more complicated than myself. Ever since I had met her I had gotten strange vibes from her, and then she went and betrayed us to Slade. She had betrayed us, yet she still wanted to be our friends. She was definitely more complicated than I was.
Then again, maybe not. I'm about to do the same thing. Both of us know that what we did or what we are about to do is wrong. The only difference is that I didn't go to him. Instead, he came to me.
I think that's the only real difference between us.
When she disappeared we searched the whole city and even a few cities beyond it. We put up posters after that, and we got a few calls, but none of them told us where Terra was. They only thing we found out is that there are a few faithful citizens out there. A few citizens who believe God will bring her back to us.
I wonder how much they will believe in God when one of the protectors of their city summons a demon to destroy them and their god does nothing to stop it.