Blame

Chapter One:Enemy in the School

I walked into my English class,avoiding everyone and their hateful,unforgiving looks and sat in my seat,crossing my legs. I was late again,which Mrs.Kwan quickly took notice of as she issued detention to me. Great. Even the teachers are against me!! I can't help that I had to take Bella to the day care that was fifteen miles out of my way!!!

The announcements come on and Miss.Hatsilakos says,"Good morning students..." she went on to talk about clubs,test,report cards,and practices before she says words that make my blood run cold. "The Lakehurst students will be coming to Degrassi for the rest of this year. I am hoping that having them in our school will help resolve the war. I am surewe can get over JT's unfortunate passing once you realize only one person committed the act." the loud speaker turned off and outraged shouts permeated throughout the room.

I was silent although I wanted to be just like them. I couldn't believe that they where going to come here after what happened. It uncovers yet another reason to hate me. They will most surely blame me for this too. Not that I blame them. A friend of my ex at Lakehurst did kill someone they loved. Don't they realize that I feel awful about the nightmare that happened? I would've been fine...even without friends if Lakehurst weren't going to be here to bring on horrible memories. I guess I'm being punished. I mean I loved JT. I loved how good he was with my daughter,his show,his smile,his eyes,his hair and jokes...everything!! I miss his arms wrapped around me and our tickle fights. I miss the closeness between him and my daughter,him tucking her in and playing with her on the playground. She missed him too. When I told her what had happened she had screamed and shouted and cried then she had curled up on her little bed hugging the picture of the two of them and the teddy bear he had given her watching PJ JT over and over again. She didn't really eat unless I made her and she didn't smile. She is still broken up over it but I told her that he would always be with her even if she could not see him. I told her that he was her angel and that took away some of the saddeness atleast but I don't think Isabella will ever be the same after all that happened. The person who was like a father to her is gone. I may have lost a friend as did everyone else but Bella lost more and sometimes I have to wonder if Bella might blame me as well.

The bell rang and class was over. I stood from my seat and walked from the room and torwards the gym for cheerleading practice. I heard Manny and Darcy talking as I was about to go inside. They where talking about Lakehurst. "I can't believe that those creeps are going to be in our school!! We already have one!!" Darcy said,tugging at her ponytail.

I hid in a corner and peeked out at them,watching as Manny sat down indian style and said,"Darc,it isn't Mia's fault. That freak Drake is the one who killed my best friend not her. I think we should try and be nice at least.

Darcy looked at Manny in disgust. "I can't believe that you would say that! If Mia hadn't come here with her daughter JT would still be alive!!" She said.

Manny looked at her in anger. "Darcy,Mia cared for JT and so did Bella! She didn't force Drake to kill JT. The war and hate are so stupid!! JT wouldn't want it!!!" Manny stood and stormed out,not noticing me as she ran past.

Why didn't she blame me like everyone else did?? I guess that is something I would never know.