Healing
WARNINGS: Lime in this chapter! (not lemon as they don't actually have sex), sap.
Disclaimer: Once again all Fushigi characters belong to Watase Yuu. Sniff
"I love you, Tasuki. Sorry it took me so long to figure it out." Chichiri closed the remaining distance and kissed Tasuki, the salty tears mixing with the sweetness of his lips as the two relaxed into each other, both finally where they needed to be.
Tasuki broke the kiss and stared up in shock at Chichiri.
"You... You love me?" He asked in a trembling voice. "Is this a dream?" Chichiri laughed shakily and smoothed Tasuki's rumpled hair.
"Does it feel like one?" He asked, before claiming Tasuki's mouth again in fierce desire. The kiss rivalled the intensity of their first so long ago and left Tasuki momentarily speechless.
"No. It doesn't." He replied when he finally found his voice again. He leant against Chichiri, content to hear the comforting sound of his heartbeat as he attempted to sort through what had happened. Chichiri, realizing what Tasuki wanted, shifted backwards until he rested against the wall above the bed and turned Tasuki until his back rested against Chichiri's chest.
Not long ago he had been ready to end his life, feeling as if he could never be happy again. Now Chichiri had returned to him, professing love, and Tasuki could hardly believe it. He's here. He's really here. But why? What brought on this sudden change.
"Chichiri, why are ya back?" Chichiri was startled by Tasuki's question.
"I told you Tasuki. I love you and I came back to be with you."
"Why now? What made ya change yer mind?" Tasuki's voice was still hoarse with the tears he had shed. Tears I made him shed. Chichiri thought guiltily.
"When you kissed me, it scared me Tasuki. I'd been thinking about you in way that suggested more than friendship, but I never thought you'd return those feelings." Chichiri said slowly, his free hand moving through Tasuki's hair, smoothing it gently.
"When you suddenly showed me the depth of your feelings I was scared I'd hurt you. I didn't think myself worthy of those feelings." Tasuki stiffened in shock as Chichiri's words passed over him.
"I didn't realise that my leaving would hurt you far more. Gomen nasai. It took a visit from Taiitsukun to bring me to my senses and force me to acknowledge my feelings for you." Tasuki moved forward out of Chichiri's embrace and twisted to look him in the eye.
"Ya mean, ya left because ya were afraid of hurtin' me like ya hurt Hikou an' Kouran?" Miserably, Chichiri nodded and turned his gaze away from Tasuki's. He probably hates me for being such an idiot.
When Tasuki knocked Chichiri to his back on the bed, Chichiri looked back at him quickly. There was anger in Tasuki's eyes, but it was drowned out by the amount of love they held.
"Ahou." Tasuki muttered quietly and he bent to kiss Chichiri again. "Yer the best thing that ever happened to me Chichiri." He held Chichiri pinned to the bed and grinned at him. Chichiri looked back up, flushed and apprehensive.
"What... are you going to do?" He asked quietly. Tasuki's grin widened into a smirk and he bent once more to nip at Chichiri's neck.
"Don't ya think ya deserve somethin' for keeping me depressed these past two months?" He asked playfully; before beginning to explore Chichiri's body, keeping the older man firmly pinned beneath him.
Chichiri gasped as what Tasuki did to him drove him wild. The young bandit was slowly opening his shirt, having divested him of his kesa quickly. With each button that was opened, Tasuki ran his hands over the smooth skin revealed. Chichiri writhed beneath him and struggled to escape from beneath him, though what Tasuki was doing was quickly making his body respond. Tasuki stopped when he had fully unbuttoned Chichiri's shirt and grinned back up at him, fingers hovering tantalisingly over the waist of Chichiri's trousers.
"Stop yer squirmin'. I know yer enjoyin' this as much as I am." Glancing at Chichiri's expression, his own softened at little, and he moved to lie fully against him again, catching his lips in a soft kiss.
"Chichiri. Just how far have ya gone?" He asked quietly.
"Kouran and I never moved past kissing. I have never been with anyone else." Chichiri said quietly, flushing with embarrassment. Tasuki smiled and caressed his love's face.
"I like that. It makes ya even more appealin'. I'm gonna enjoy teachin' ya. Do ya trust me, Chiri?" Chichiri gazed back at Tasuki in shock, he'd never thought Tasuki would want someone so inexperienced.
"O...of course, Tasuki."
"Then let me show ya how it feels to be truly loved."
Tasuki kept his promise and used every way he knew of to make Chichiri feel as much pleasure as was possible, bringing him to the edge many times but never letting him go over. He worshiped Chichiri's torso lavishly, toying with his nipples and licking gently at sensitive spots. Chichiri whimpered as Tasuki moved away again from his naked lower half and back to lie against him. Tasuki bared his fangs and nipped at his lover's neck. Chichiri shivered as his felt those teeth against him and looked back at Tasuki with glazed eyes.
"You're teasing me." He was surprised at how firm his voice sounded, though it was low and hoarse with desire. Tasuki laughed and stared possessively down at him.
"I told ya. I'm makin' ya pay for makin' me wait so long." Tasuki told him as he returned to the sensitive spot he had discovered on Chichiri's neck. Chichiri could feel how hard Tasuki was and wondered briefly if it was as painful for him to hold off like this, before Tasuki sent him into incoherent sensation yet again. Tasuki's hands seemed to be everywhere, finding his weak spots and the warmth of his mouth moved constantly, bringing new pleasures to every spot it touched.
Chichiri finally decided Tasuki had had enough fun with him and flipped the bandit over onto his back. Tasuki let out a shocked gasp as Chichiri took his mouth harshly, tired of being submissive.
"This is a new side to ya, Chichiri." Tasuki grinned back up at his partner. "Not one I'm complainin' about neither."
"You've had your fun Tasuki, now it's time for mine. I'm not a total innocent after all." Tasuki's eyes widened as Chichiri pinned him down and took his turn in teasing his lover. Using what he had just learned from Tasuki along with previous knowledge and some that he found out along the way, Chichiri made Tasuki feel as though he would burst with the pleasure inside of him. He discovered all of his sensitive spots and was even daring enough to go very low at times. Tasuki had never dreamed the shy monk could be as daring as this. Tasuki lost his hold on conscious thought as Chichiri placed his mouth on one of his nipples and swirled his tongue around the tip, causing Tasuki to buck up against him.
When he could finally think straight again, Tasuki found himself laying next to Chichiri who was grinning at him as he ran his hands through Tasuki's long red hair. Tasuki turned and pushed himself against Chichiri, grinned when he moved back.
"How far are ya willing to go?" He asked as the two of them moved against each other, causing a friction neither wanted to break.
"I... I'm not sure." Tasuki moved away with a slight growl, to allow Chichiri to think.
"I wont do anythin' ya don't want me to. I'll wait for ya Chiri, wait 'till yer ready." Chichiri looked at Tasuki with pure love in his eyes.
"Arigato, Tasuki."
"Are ya sure ya want this? Once yer mine yer mine forever, an' I'm not shy about showin' that."
"There's never been anything I wanted more." Tasuki's grin changed to a smirk again as he let his gaze travel slowly down Chichiri's naked body.
"There are other things we can do. If you'll let me." Tasuki asked for acceptance; which Chichiri easily gave, knowing that he'd always be safe with him.
Tasuki moved closer and began kissing his way down Chichiri's chest and over his abdomen again, trying to prepare him for what was coming next. He slowly reached out to touch the area he had previously avoided, and Chichiri let out a strangled gasp. Tasuki quickly looked up, to check this was all right, and was met with eyes flushed with desire and a silent plea not to stop. He gently began touching and stroking his erection, still kissing Chichiri occasionally, and driving him painfully close to the edge.
Tasuki's touch sent fire through him and it was all he could do not to cry out. The sensations he had created were something Chichiri had not thought possible before tonight and he felt powerless behind them. The sensation abruptly changed and Chichiri could not hold back his shout as Tasuki took him into his mouth. Chichiri desperately buried his hands in Tasuki's hair as he licked and sucked at him, the pleasure reaching such intense levels it almost felt like pain.
"T... Tasuki!" Chichiri cried out as his body stiffened. Tasuki ignored the cry and brought his lover to his climax with expert skill. Chichiri screamed Tasuki's name again as he came and his vision whited out in the incredible sensations as Tasuki pulled back and swallowed his seed.
He came down slowly, panting harshly, to find Tasuki lying against him again. Tasuki kissed him softly and Chichiri, realizing that the flavour on Tasuki's lips was his own, kissed back eagerly, revelling in the taste. Although his own need had been satisfied, Chichiri was very aware of Tasuki lying by his side. He rolled the bandit onto his back and grinned down at him; before shyly running his hands over Tasuki's lower stomach, watching him quiver as he came closer and closer to his own erection. Tasuki watched the formerly shy monk in wonder as he took control of his body. He can't be learning all this right now. How much of it is he makin' up on the spot? Tasuki arched his back as Chichiri's wandering hands came teasingly close. However he learnt it, fuck, he's good.
Chichiri shyly ran one hand over Tasuki's erection and was encouraged by his shivers of delight. His movements became more confident as he explored him and watched Tasuki's reactions. He soon learnt what drove the other man absolutely wild and leant down to catch Tasuki's mouth in a passionate kiss as he stroked him. Tasuki joined the kiss, understanding that Chichiri was not yet confident enough to take him into his mouth, and let himself go as Chichiri's questing fingers tightened and drove him to the height of his pleasure.
The two tired young men fell into each others arms and were simply content to lay there for a while, while each caught up with what had happened.
"Ne, Chiri. I'm still pissed with ya, y'know." Chichiri sighed at Tasuki's sleepy comment.
"I know, no da. I'll just have to find a way to make it up to you." Tasuki smirked as several ideas came to him.
"Well, ya can start by comin' down with me an' puttin' Kouji outta his misery." Chichiri groaned softly at Tasuki's suggestion, remembering how many of the bandits weren't too happy with him.
"Ya that scared of facing him? Heh, I'm surprised he didn't catch ya on the way in."
"He did. And I ended up flat on my back with an extremely annoyed Kouji on top of me." Chichiri told him in a flat voice. Tasuki burst out laughing and Chichiri blushed.
"Ah, I see. But if he let ya come up here he must be ok with ya. So, what'cha afraid of?" Chichiri sighed again.
"I met Hitsuro and Yumike on the way up the mountain. Yumike tried to attack me and Hitsuro wasn't too friendly at first either." Tasuki realized instantly why Chichiri didn't want to face the other bandits. He sat up, bringing Chichiri with him, and looked him in the eye.
"Ya don't wanna face the other bandits, 'cause they're pissed with ya. Yer scared of them." Chichiri nodded miserably and Tasuki laughed again. "As ya should be, I was in a pretty pitiful state." Tasuki pulled Chichiri to his feet and tossed him his clothes. "C'mon, the gang doesn't hold a grudge for long." Chichiri dressed slowly, wanting to believe Tasuki but still not sure of how the other bandits would react to his return.
"How many times have I dragged ya along this corridor?" Tasuki asked, in an attempt to lighten the mood.
"Those were different circumstances, no da." Tasuki glanced at Chichiri, the monk was still a little flushed from their activities and looked very uncomfortable.
"I get it! Ya don't have yer mask. If it really bothers ya that much then put it on." Chichiri sighed quietly at Tasuki's ability to read him so easily.
"I can't. Kouji took it." He muttered. Tasuki stopped and turned back, giving Chichiri a chaste kiss.
"Ya don't need it any more." Tasuki murmured quietly. "I love you Chichiri, the whole of you including that scar, an' I don't care what anyone else thinks of ya." Tasuki's words deepened the love Chichiri held for him and he tightened his arms around him, silently conveying his love to Tasuki, as he did not feel able to speak. Tasuki gave him his fanged grin and took his wrist again, dragging him to the doors to the strongholds main hall.
"Ya ready?"
"Matte. Will they be ok with…us?" Chichiri asked hesitantly. Tasuki regarded him fondly and chuckled.
"Ya lived with us for all that time an' never noticed how many of the bandits had different preferences? Most of 'em don't try to hide it." Chichiri laughed at himself as he considered Tasuki's answer.
"I guess I'm just nervous, no da." But will they be as accepting of their leader taking a male lover?
"Don't be." Tasuki gave him a reassuring glance before turning back to the doors. He swung them open confidently and strode boldly into the room, Chichiri following close behind and keeping his gaze firmly fixed on Tasuki. All talk in the room had ceased the moment the doors had swung open, and every bandit in the room now stared in shock as Tasuki returned to his usual seat beside Kouji. Whispers began as they saw Chichiri silently take the seat by his side.
"Glad t' see yer back t' normal Genrou. Or at least what passes fer normal fer ya anyway." Kouji's mocking greeting seemed to relieve some of the tension and several of the older bandits began their conversations again, although many more continued to watch Chichiri suspiciously.
"I know ya don't mean that." Tasuki exclaimed as he smiled at Kouji. Kouji relaxed and returned his smile, it was the first real smile he'd seen from Tasuki since Chichiri had left. He leaned forward to look at Chichiri and smirked when he took in his appearance. He tossed Chichiri's mask down in front of him and both Chichiri and Tasuki froze.
Chichiri reached out slowly and picked up the mask, turning it around slowly in his hands as he stared at it. A slow smile spread across his face and he flung the mask away from him, into a corner of the room.
"I don't need that anymore." He told a surprised Kouji. Tasuki grinned proudly at him as Kouji spluttered in Chichiri's sudden confidence. The exchange had not gone unnoticed by the bandits and several now wore expressions of confusion. Many of them had never seen Chichiri without his mask before and he looked away uncomfortably from their stares. Kouji looked between the two, taking in both their appearances, and began laughing as he guessed what had happened. Chichiri blushed and looked down at the table and Tasuki smacked Kouji on the back of his head.
"Ahou. Don't go embarrassing him like that." Tasuki told him quietly, glaring at him as Kouji slowly got himself under control again.
"Gomen, Chichiri." Chichiri shook his head and grinned.
"Don't worry about it Kouji. But, shouldn't we do something about that, no da?" He asked, gesturing to the rest of the hall where many of the bandits were now looking at them with confusion and expectation in their gazes. They had expected Kouji to kick Chichiri out of the stronghold on sight for what he had done to Tasuki. Many of the older bandits looked carefully from Chichiri to Tasuki. They saw the glow of life that had returned to their leader and decided that Kouji had made the right choice in allowing Chichiri to stay. Hitsuro caught Tasuki's eye and nodded with a calm smile. Tasuki's eyes widened in shock as he realized Hitsuro knew what had happened between them. The older bandit's gaze held nothing but joy at seeing Tasuki happy again and Tasuki soon relaxed. He knew none of the bandits would hold this against him. Tasuki looked out over the rest of the bandits with a worried frown. He stood and banged his fist on the table in front of him. All the bandits immediately turned to look at him.
"I'm sure ya've all noticed I haven't really been myself lately," Tasuki held up a hand to quiet the chuckles and continued. "But that was 'cause one of my dearest friends left the stronghold for a while." Glares were directed towards Chichiri; who sank lower in his seat, wishing that he had his mask to hide behind. No, I have to learn to live without that now.
Tasuki leaned over to Chichiri and pulled him to his feet beside him.
"Play along." He hissed quietly. Tasuki quickly kissed Chichiri and the entire hall went silent. Chichiri flushed but didn't try to pull away until Tasuki released him. Slinging his arm around Chichiri's waist and pulling him close, Tasuki turned to grin at the other bandits in the hall.
"Anyone that's got a problem with Chichiri has got a problem with me. Got it?" Yumike wolf whistled at the pair and several younger bandits clapped, causing Chichiri to become redden further and sink back into his seat. As Tasuki took his seat again and poured out some sake, conversation resumed and most of the bandits took their attention away from the top table.
"Told ya they'd be fine with it." He remarked causally. Chichiri buried his face in his hands and groaned.
"Daa. I'll never be able to look them in the face again, no da." Kouji was almost choking in an attempt not to laugh at him, as Tasuki was sending him angry looks, but managed to calm himself down in a few minutes. He took a large gulp of sake before patting Chichiri on the shoulder.
"Genrou's never been th' subtle type." Tasuki laughed and pulled Chichiri's hands away from his face.
"C'mon Chichiri, yer causin' more of a scene."
"I didn't think this was what you meant, no da."
"It was the only way to get them all to accept our relationship quickly. This way they know we're serious about it an' it'll have gotten rid of any ill feelin's towards ya."
"Yeah, 'cause now they know that Genrou must've screwed up somehow t' make ya leave in th' first place."
"Kouji! I should flame yer ass fer that!" Chichiri laughed quietly as Tasuki turned to threaten Kouji. He looked again at the bandits and noticed they all seemed more relaxed now. Those who caught his eye smiled back at him and he knew he was forgiven. They might have forgiven me, but I'm sure Tasuki isn't finished with me yet. Chichiri sighed, there were plenty of ways Tasuki was going to be able to embarrass him. If I'm going to be living here from now on I have to get used to their ways. It'll be a hard adjustment, but one I'm happy to make.
"Tasuki, Kouji, behave no da!" He called to stop the fight before it escalated. If I wanted a quiet life I would never have returned. I'd better get used to it, no way Tasuki's letting me leave again. Tasuki laughed and settled back in his chair, handing Chichiri a cup of sake, which he took hesitantly and sipped from carefully.
"Ne, Tasuki. Does this mean you're going to stop drinking so much?"
"Only if ya distract me from it." Tasuki answered, baring his fangs in an insolent grin. Chichiri laughed at the bandit's flippant reply and relaxed.
That night passed easily and Chichiri found himself enjoying the company of the bandits once more. The easy banter and playful fighting was another thing he had missed in his time away. No matter what life throws at me now, I know I'll make it through. As long as we're together we can stand up to anything that comes our way. Chichiri swirled his sake and watched the liquid move distractedly. He relaxed in the comfortable atmosphere as he absently sipped at his cup. And we'll always have our friends with us to help us through. Warm arms surrounding him from behind jolted Chichiri out of his thoughts and smiled, looking away from his cup and into the warm amber eyes of his love.
"Why don't we turn in for the night, Chichiri?" Tasuki whispered, his breath tickling Chichiri's ear.
"Aa, no da." Tasuki helped the slightly tipsy monk to his feet and walked back to the bedroom with his arm around his waist, neither caring what the future brought as long as the other was with them always.
And this story comes to a close. To those who read and reviewed a million thanks guys. Please tell me how my first attempt at writing a lime turned out.
Ok, I leave it up to you guys. Should I turn this into a oneshot or is it fine as it is?
Hope you guys had as much fun reading as I did writing. I've got another story in it's planning stages as I finish Torments. What is it? Well you'll have to wait and see. Ja, guys.