Disclaimer- Obviously I don't own Harry Potter or any of its characters, though it would be nice to!
Song lyrics: "Memory" by Sugarcult.
Lyrics are a good source for creating predictions and foreshadowing upcoming events and premonitions.
Remember that.
Oh, and another thing. I apologize immensely if this chapter seems rushed…because it slightly is… I got tired of not updating for so long, so I finished this chapter in haste after so much procrastination.
Deceiving Appearances: Chapter 6 Reminiscing of Forgetting
This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
There was an unsettling feeling Cho couldn't quite decipher that resonated in the pit of her stomach, obtrusive and daring to expand. Without knowing what else to do to calm herself, she closed the book she was reading, careful not to disturb her sleeping roommates.
Cho glanced around idly and watched the dormancy of everything in the room. A small sigh emitted from her chest. She attempted to busy herself by carefully taking out her broom, avoiding noise as she edged toward the door, placing one last glance at her sleeping roommates, and turning off her reading light.
She managed to escape her temporary prison into the night illuminated grassy fields outside of school grounds. She slowly exhaled, watching, as her breath appeared before her in the chilly evening night. Plopping down, she threw herself back into the soft strands of deep green and enjoyed a few seconds of complete isolation. Looking up, she smiled to herself as she attempted to count the many tiny bright dots that seemed like sugar splattered against a velvety cake.
A sound disrupted her train of thoughts as two warm hands proceeded to obscure her vision. She reached up to pull them away, but the owner held steady and voiced a "Tsk". Cho sighed, swerving her mouth to the side in an annoyed fashion. "Alright, alright, Draco," she exclaimed. She reached up to move his hands, but was surprised to find that his suddenly enveloped hers and she was pulled back into an embrace.
"And what do you think you're doing?" Cho muttered, not amused.
He leaned forward and rested his head on her right shoulder, tickling her ear with his breath.
"Groping you, of course."
She could feel him grin devilishly and hastily pulled away from him, slightly annoyed by his sense of humor.
"Why don't you do me a favor and just leave? Even better yet, I'll go first!" Cho muttered sarcastically as she picked up her broom.
"Sorry, but following a lady's lead just isn't my style." Draco crossed his arms and smirked as Cho frowned, obviously pissed off.
"When will you ever stop being such a big ass?"
"I don't know…when you stop looking?" Draco ducked as Cho swung her broom in full force at him. He let out a chuckle at the fact that Cho was trying to hide her amusement from his joke.
Cho rolled her eyes, turning from him to go back to her dorm…or at least somewhere far from him.
"Since when did you become such a priss, Chang?" Draco piped up from behind her.
Cho sighed inwardly, wondering what exactly she did to ever deserve this. "Look who's talking, prat," Cho muttered, rolling her eyes.
"Awh, is our little Ravenclaw Princess a little bit mad? Does she need her Hufflepuff hero to come save her?" Draco drawled out in a childish voice.
Stopping in her tracks, she bit her bottom lip and turned around. If there was one thing she absolutely couldn't stand, it was anyone who had the nerve to mock Cedric's relationship to her.
"At least I don't go around acting like I have a wand shoved up my ass!" Cho bit back furiously.
"Excuse me? If I don't recall, I'm not the one crying over every little thing or guy! Absolutely pathetic!"
"I don't run to Daddy Dearest's beck and call, you…you…muggle fucker."
Cho paused, her anger building up like a rising volcano. Her voice lowered down to a whisper, but they still had the same effect, nevertheless. She just hoped Hermione wouldn't take offense, she really wasn't trying to be rude or mean, it was the only insult she could think of that would sincerely hit a nerve.
Draco's eyebrows fled upward, his face clearly showing surprise at the statement that had tumbled hastily from her lips. However, the effect afterward was no disappointment. His face flushed with anger, his fists were clenched as tightly as it could be allowed, turning almost translucent. His next words were slow, but dangerously so as he spoke his next words.
"You little bloody bitch."
However, her brain was working was functioning just fine under the angry stress, and she spit back a retort as quickly as he spit out his.
"Takes one to know one."
"Concubine!"
"Eunuch."
"Whore."
"Slut! At least I'm paid."
"Yeah, less than a pound a night!"
"Better than getting absolutely nothing, prat."
They started quickly down the stairs, on opposite sides of the wall.
"Hooker."
"At least I look better than you ever will!"
Draco reached a foot out and tripped her. She glared, fuming, and picked herself up. She ran up to him, shoving him into the wall.
"Ugly!" He yelled at her.
"Hideous!"
"Fat!"
She stopped, gaping at him. Growling, she threw a hex his way. He nearly got hit, but missed by a couple of millimeters from practice of dodging Ginny's daily hexes.
"Colossal pig!"
"Obese heifer!"
He took this chance to push her into the wall. Before she had a chance to retort, he yelled, "Lesbian!"
"Walking gay closet!"
As soon as the words came from her mouth, they both stopped traveling down the stairs, confused, and annoyed expressions both mouthing the same exact thing, "What?!"
After that moment, they glared at each other, then continued on with their ramblings.
"At least I didn't get done in by a hippogriff!"
"That thing was savage, might I remind you! Besides, it nearly killed me!" Cho scoffed at his remark.
"I hate you, and I never want to see you again!"
"Right back at ya, princess!"
"Why don't you just drop dead?!"
"Believe me, if I could, I would. Anything to get me away from you!"
They were getting closer to the Ravenclaw dorms now, Cho hurling any nearby books she could find, and Draco tripping her whenever he got the chance.
"I'll just forget about you! It shouldn't be hard, after all, what is there to remember?"
He glared at her.
"Not if I forget about you first!"
She stopped, yelling at the back of his head. "Then we'll just both forget about each other, and we can get on with our lives!"
An irritable portrait began to grumble loudly and yawn. "You kids are really loud---"
Cho and Draco simultaneously turned around, bellowing a loud, "SHUT UP!" before turning back around and hastily walking forward.
As he proceeded in front of her, she took a piece of gum that Hermione had given her, chewed it thoroughly and hastily, then threw it squarely into the back of his head.
He immediately halted, feeling the back of his head, finding the piece of protruding gum stuck securely to his hair. He seethed, growling softly, then turned around. He marched up to her, ignoring her protests as he pinned her into a corner of the wall.
"Sacred, Chang? What are you going to do now, you…loathsome monkey?"
"Ostrich!"
"Gigantic Mammoth!"
Before she had a chance to think, the words fell out of her mouth in an instant.
"Giant…pink elephant!" Cho burst.
Draco opened his mouth to retort, then knitted his eyebrows in confusion, taking in what she had said. Cho blinked, feeling rather stupid. "Giant, pink, elephant? Oh yeah, that's a definite score. Whatever happened to, 'At least I'm not extinct!'?" Cho let out a groan inside her head.
She looked up to see his reaction, in shock to see that his shoulder's were shaking oddly, and his face was downcast, his hair shielding his eyes.
She examined closer, looking up at him, seeing that in fact, Draco's eyes were filled with amusement, his lip bit severely. He was laughing at her!
Once he regained a bit of composure, he leaned farther down, resting his head right above hers, his soft hair tickling her face.
"Giant pink elephant?" he asked, humor apparent in his voice.
She flushed hotly, feeling utterly stupid and dim-witted at the moment.
"I'm so glad that I amuse you…" Cho grumbled.
Minutes passed, and the pair remained stationary, both unsure of what to do.
She looked up, realizing that after all this time, he was watching her with a look of…regret…sorrow, perhaps?
No…that was impossible.
Her eyes simply locked with his. It was so easy to drown herself in those icy pools. Before her mind could protest, she felt his hand ease down her arm, and she reached out to it, intertwining her hand so perfectly into his. His head no longer rested above hers, but inched closer downwards, and she inhaled quickly as her eyes closed. He pressed closer to her, noses touching, and his free hand holding her waist.
His kiss was strangely final, an unspoken "goodbye". His lips were softly pressed against hers, yet his kiss was not soft. It was bruising and needy, and at the same time, gentle and distant. It conveyed a raw need she felt him express…a hunger that could never be satiated, and emotions she only now could understand him feel. Confusion. Regret. Hurt. Anger. Passion.
He was really leaving her.
For what reason it could be, she didn't understand. She supposed she could believe what he told her…but for some reason, it didn't prove to be enough. Something felt missing to her…something she would never get the chance to unravel in time.
He backed away slowly, gazing into her wondering eyes. "Heh. I shouldn't have done that." He whispered to her, giving an apologetic half-smile.
As he backed up from her, he took once more glance before disappearing.
Cho slid her down the wall until she felt the cold floor against her palms. Her throat constricted, she could hardly breathe. She felt something inside her die that night, as she lie there, trying to figure out what went so terribly wrong.
The kiss itself hurt.
But what hurt more was the fact that he didn't want it to happen.
Cho forced herself up, and woke with a start. Her breathing was heavy and shallow, and her chest continued to rise and fall at a quick pace. As she observed her settings, she breathed a sigh of relief, until she noticed the sleeping figure of Draco beside her. Immediately, her discomfort and guilt seeped through her. Why did she have to remember something like that at this moment?
Then Draco stirred, hearing her wake up. He rubbed his eyes sleepily with the palm of his hand and exhaled. His eyelids fluttered open, and he gave her a disoriented half-awake smile that screamed "CUTE!" in her brain. She promptly ignored this feeling and shook it away.
He closed his eyes again and pulled her close to him, placing his lips on her forehead. He received a gasp of surprised confusion until he whispered, "Well, no fever." After his discovery, he pulled up the covers and turned over with all intentions of returning to sleep.
Cho inwardly shook her head at his unconventional methods, as they clearly put her on edge. She propped herself up with her left elbow, and jabbed her finger into his back.
"Hey…" She began softly.
"Ow…" He immediately turned over with a slight wince. "Is that how you treat your savior from impeding doom?" He asked, opening one eye to look at her.
She scoffed, but gave him a thankful grin. "Thanks. So what happened, anyway?"
He flipped back onto his back and looked up at her. "Well, we got in the shower, but before all the fun started, you passed out in the tub after the water hit."
She gave no response, looking thoughtfully to the side.
"I know, I know. It's terribly disappointing to you, isn't it? I wouldn't be so gloomy though, they're always other ti-" Before he could finish, she smacked him lightly across the head, slightly amused. He grinned devilishly at her and raised his arm to protect himself from another smack. She raised her arm in a smacking position to provoke him, and he caught her hand and propped himself up with his free elbow.
"You know, since I did save you and everything, don't you think I deserve a reward or something?" Draco slyly uttered.
Eyeing him cautiously, she replied, "What did you have in mind, exactly?"
He smirked in approval at her response. "Well, nothing much, really. Just a kiss."
Her eyebrows flew up in surprise, but she tried to mask her real intention of surprise with a façade of an ordinary reaction of surprise. His request reminded her too much of the recent flashback that had occurred in her blackout, and her discomfort arose again.
His voice broke her thoughts. "Awh, what is it? Scared? Don't be. I don't bite…much." He inquisitively grinned at her, and she reluctantly stared up at him.
He laughed at her coyness, not realizing her guilt, and bent down, claiming her lips. Her eyes were cast downward, and she closed them slowly, feeling troubled. The scenes of the kiss they had shared before were flashing through her head, and things felt all too much alike. His lips lingered only for a few moments, but he kept his face inches from hers. His head gave a slight turn and his eyes flickered with acknowledgement of something she did not know. She bit her lip in response; he wore the same expression he did before: his apologetic half-smile.
It was almost as if he knew what was going through her head.
But that was impossible. If she was just remembering, how could he have a clue, or even bothered to remember?
This may never start
I'll tear us apart
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
Tearing out my heart
I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
I'd be your memory
Feelings disappeared
Can I be your memory?
swellkisses- Thank you for reviewing, and for the birthday wish! I'm feeling a lot better now! Hehe! I'm sorry about not updating sooner! I'm such a bad procrastinator! . I hope you like this chapter, though!
StormwolfX3- OH YEAH! I UPDATED…a lot later than usual…XD Oh boy, save me from sharp, pointy, metal objects that are bound to come my way! XD STARBUCKS:has a 'squee' attack and dies of absolute bliss from the coffee: Okay, ADD is acting up on me again. ;) Haha! Yeah, I just had to add the "Rubber Ducky" song…I mean, with Cho and Draco…there's bound to be some angst and emotion here and there, but above all, you can't skip the humor. I just couldn't help myself. Hehe. Thanks for your review:D :disappears to write more: Laura [and Jane- AHHHHHH!!! You people will be the death of me. And Jane…that was a mean trick to make me think that reviewer was you!!! Evil!!! I felt so bad because I mixed the person up with you! XD Ewwwwwww, don't tell M…ewwww, cooties major, yes? Yes. LOL! Poor twiggy. Being abused from his computer because you want to read my fanfiction…yes, I feel loved. :D BTW, thanks for the review. :D Review love.
hAzElEyEs - Yay! Another birthday wish:feels special: Thank you for the review! I know the feeling, school is such a pain in the backside sometimes. Hehe! I have catch-up-days for fanfiction, too! I get so overwhelmed sometimes, that I forget what the stories were about originally. XD Haha! Don't worry, sometimes I read over my writing and think…"Jeez, I sound about 11" or "Whoa, I sound like I'm 50" XD I'm sorry you're sick! I hope you get better! (I bet you probably have, considering I haven't updated since…when? XD)
Serena Goodkey –Haha! I'm so glad you enjoyed it:D I'm glad you liked the humor! Awhh, thank you!! I'm glad you think so! I'll try really hard to go through and finish this fanfic! I'm so sorry for the huge lapse with no updates. I hope you'll continue to read this fic, though:D
Omigod. Shit and crackers…what in the world have I been doing? I've neglected my poor fanfiction for quite too long. :pets the fanfiction: I've already partially written Chapter 10 already, (even though I skipped the chapters 7-9 XD) and yet, I didn't finish this one until…December of the next year…XD TT.TT I'm sorry to all those who have been reading/reviewing! I didn't mean for my chapter to make its appearance so tardy! I swear I worked on it though! In the beginning, right after the 5th chapter, but then I kind of…stopped.
Oh yeah…now I remember…I recently got Resident Evil 4, and I've been playing it like a mad-woman ever since. XD Leon's so purdy. Just like in Resident Evil 2. Hehe. I can't really stand Ashley though…she's kind of snobbish and…bleh. And I kinda can stand Ada Wong more…even though if you say her name really slowly, it sounds REALLY weird, but funny. Okie…I'm going to stop blabbing about Resident Evil because it has absolutely nothing to do with this fanfic…
This chapter had a lot of dialog. I mean…sheesh…I guess I'm not really used to it. Especially the name-calling. XD The name-calling was some pretty rudimentary stuff that came from the top of my head…so I apologize for its lame-ness and its shortness…
Wow…I'm feeling sleepy! All this lack of action is getting to me…I never was a patient person for things to unfold. Ah, well, looks like I'll have to manage somehow. Poor Cho, poor Draco…I'm too cruel to them. XD I should leave them alone so they can go back to their regular lives…but then there would be no story, no excitement, no twists, and no miserable characters to prod at.
Where's the fun in that? ;)
Ah, sorry for my feeble attempt to make this chapter funny. If it's not that funny, at least know I wrote most of this during the early daylight hours (and when I say "early" I mean 3:00 a.m. early) and I was on a caffeine high from coffee. Oh, good 'ole coffee.
UGHHHH I'm so excited! I have the whole fic planned out already, and I know exactly what the big part of the story is; now it's time to fill in the gaps and holes.
Read and review! It makes people happy, and the review faeries don't die! You can do it! Just chant to yourself, "I believe in reviewing, I believe in reviewing!" …Okay, enough poking fun at Peter Pan.
Sheesh, I need to seriously shut up now. I'm looking at my end-of-this-chapter-commentary going, "Holy tangerine speedos…I talk way too much."
Onto the seventh chapter! Oh, and a late Merry Christmas to everyone but an early New Years :D