My Undead Heart
Standing here I can almost feel human again. Owen is holding me, he's overly protective. Ah, the joys of first love. The cliff beneath my feet is high, much higher then the one I jumped from as a human. A vampire could survive the fall, a werewolf, maybe. A human be crushed on impact. It is exhilarating to feel fear again.
"Come on sweetheart. Let's go." Owen whispers in my ear. I smile mockingly at the sun before turning to kiss him. I have gotten to the point where I feel only a faint quiver in heart when I kiss Owen. It still hurts but the pain is lessening day by day. Soon I will forget all about the bronze haired god who sang me to sleep.
It is only a wish. Just another prayer said in the night to no one. But it is alive. It is music, it is sparkling in the sunshine, it is a sweet scent, it is danger, it is a certain song, it is a certain voice, it is love. It is Edward. I remember love. It was warm and settled over me like sunshine. I will never forget.
I do love Owen. He is the only one who can make me, for just a while, leave behind the pain. Who can make me forget. He is kind and loves me far more then he should. I shudder when I think of his first love being wasted on me. A souless, heartless monster.
Alice and I go shopping. She drags me to stores I would never go into by myself and buys me clothes I will never wear. After we are done we go home to watch Buffy on TV. I sit in Owens's lap and let him kiss me. I am happy, for a while.
That night I sit on the roof and wish, as I do every night, on a star. It is a bittersweet thing, to wish. To throw something out there and hope that it is answered. The only person I ever wish for is Edward but then guilt consumes me and I throw up one more wish for Owen. And then one more, for me, for life, for a heart. But it is never answered, those wishes. And my heart stays cold and empty. Except for a few seconds each time Owen holds me and whispers, you are a beauty. I smile bitterly then, he can't see the beast underneath. But still, I smile, and let him warm my undead heart.
A/N: ok! new screen name! and new chapter! this story bring out my emo side (can you tell) so i apologize for all the depressingness.