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He had this smile. Not the boyish grin Nate possessed.

Not his trade mark smirk, either but something more, something deeper, truer.

Something he only gave me. Hidden in that smile were stolen times and kisses only we knew about.

Chuck. He wasn't a very complicated person to the outside world. He had sex, drank, and had more sex. No one would suspect anymore from him other than me. I've seen him when there was more than the outside charade he put on for people.

I should know we're not that different at all.

Times when he wouldn't even admit to himself that it hurt that he had been burned from his dad once again just like when my father chooses his sexual escapes with Roman over time with me, the identical feeling we both get when we pull an elaborate plan, or the feeling of euphoria from my first orgasm that sealed Chucks place in my memory.

With our little rendezvous' that followed after he had seemed to change. He seemed more content and happier despite what he was doing to his best friend. I also changed. The important things didn't seem as important anymore. It was like he was my anti-drug that kept all the burdens and idiotic problems at ease.

All I asked was for him to prove himself. Prove to me that he could behave but he couldn't do it so I saw my chance out of the rabbit hole I had dug for myself and went back into Nate's arm.

He doesn't think I saw him when he came up the stairs but I did. I said my lines in Nate's ear loud enough to make sure he heard it. The look on his face is what made me worry. It was a look of betrayal.

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Monaco. Out of all the places to go he chooses the border of France. It's so like him.

I've been practically begging him not to tell anyone all day but he's ignoring most of my calls.

Finally I receive a text but my mouth drops once it's open

Who would I tell?

And there it was a picture of my first love and my chronic sin.

Nate in the same time zone as Chuck completely oblivious to anything out of the ordinary or to whom his best friend was texting.

A half hour later I feel my phone vibrate and my heart jumps to my throat as I see its Nate.

"Blair"

"Nate, where have you been?" I ask convincingly as if I didn't already know he was with Chuck frolicking around Monaco doing god knows what.

"I'm sorry I didn't call it was just a spur of the moment kind of thing"

"What was?"

"After Connecticut Chuck called and I was still pretty stressed out about my family and so I booked a flight to Monaco to meet up with him. I just needed a break."

"And you didn't think you could have talked to me"

"You had a lot going on with your dad bringing his, you know, so I didn't want to put anymore problems on your shoulders" Nice save I thought.

"It's fine"

"We're coming back tomorrow morning. If you want you can meet me there and we can start our vacation together then." He said hopefully.

"Sure" I say half-heartedly. "I'll see you there"

The next morning I was there waiting in my cutest outfit for Nate of course not Chuck. I'm fidgeting, I never fidget. As I look to the gate I see Nate running toward me a huge grin in place. I let him pick me up and twirl me around. He finally let me down and I look toward Chuck noticing he wasn't alone.

"So who's this" I ask trying to keep the tenseness out of my voice.

I see him smile towards her. It wasn't the same smile I used to get obviously it was designed for her but the smile didn't reach his eyes. I notice happily

He turned to me and smirked.

He smirked at me. I haven't gotten that smirk since before my birthday.

I feel like smacking that smirk off his face. But not only that I feel cold. I feel cold just like the look in his eyes.

"This is Jacqueline"

Jacqueline, more like Jackal and Hyde. Her face is heinous

"So, what is she a French maid you brought back with you looking for a job?"

"Blair" I heard Nate say looking at me disapprovingly.

"What, it's just a question"

"It's okay Nathanial, Blair's just probably cranky because her father's lover hogged the bathroom this morning. She looks as if she had had better days."

"Look, all because your hired help from across the seas is over here--"

"Blair, how about we go. I had your Christmas present sent to my house and I'm sure you want to see it." He said quickly trying to avoid the conflict.

"That's so sweet Nate, sure" I said giving him a long passionate kiss feeling Chuck's gaze on me. "Go to the Car I want to get a magazine from the stand over there"

"Alright, I'll see you there"

I turned back around with a satisfied grin to see the sneer on Chuck's face.

"Jacqueline go get a head start to the limo I'll be right there"

After she left he turns to me as if he's going to kiss me in front of all these people so I move to push him away but he grabs my shoulders and his lips move to my ear.

"You're still hungry for it. It's written all over your face."

A shiver ran down my spine and I cursed myself for signaling that he was right. I look back up at him with stubbornness in my eyes.

"And STD will be written all over yours if you sleep with that French whore"

He starts backs away. "Call me when you're done playing house."

"And what makes you think I will"

He points to his face and smiles, that secret smile that knows only what we do.

We both know I'll call

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