A/N – Hey guy's thanks for the reviews your all great and they put a smile on my face all day. As you can tell, this chapter has been put up slightly later than expected, but I just kept re-writing it, I'd prefer this chapter to take longer and great than a fast crappy chapter, I hope you can appreciate that. I hope you like this chapter; I had a lot of fun writing it and hope you'll have just as much fun reading it!

Special Thanks to Zen kind of Love for helping me out a lot with the summary and also encouraging me to write this next chapter, this one's for you :D

Chapter Two – Lessons

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Chapter Two – Paragraph 1 - 2

Thinking about my childhood, negative thoughts always arise. It wasn't terrible, but I also wouldn't wish what happened to me on others. After my mom left, it changed me. I taught my self to harden my heart but in the end, all it did was make me hollow. For a long time I thought it was normal to feel that way but something inside me always craved more. I wanted to be loved… to feel loved like the way I did on my birthday, when I had a family and new friends to share my joy with.

There was always a trust barrier getting in the way of that feeling I so badly wanted…always to afraid that the minute I let my feelings for another person show, would be the minute that very person would leave. So I would spend my years practicing an art I had just begun to explore. An art Pam Macy had opened my eyes to.

1966 – The Burkhart Mansion

'Jackie?' Jackie felt someone nudge her arm whilst talking to her softly. 'Jackie, wake up. It's your first day of school today… wake up.' Jackie rolled over and looked up at the voice interrupting her sleep.

'Today is the first day of the rest of your life.' Jackie looked into her mother's blue eyes and smiled at these comforting words.

'I didn't think you would make it.' The sleepy child said relieved.

'I told you silly. I'm always going to be here… I'm not just your mother remember? I'm your best friend… now wake up we can't be late. They're waiting for you.'

Pam peeled back the covers to reveal Jackie's pink flannel pyjamas soaking wet with paint. Horrified she looked back to Jackie and saw paint of all colours dripping all over her face.

'I warned you!' Pam yelled. Jackie looked down at her hands and saw the paint… terrified she reached up to touch her face and feeling the cold paint, let out a high pitched scream only becoming even more terrified when she looked to her windows and saw them shatter, morning turning to night as they did so.

Pam grabbed her daughter's wrist and dragged her to bathroom, grabbing the rough side of a sponge she started to scrub at paint covered hands.

'Mom! Stop it your hurting me.' Jackie cried out, pleading with her mother to stop.

Pam began to get more violent when the paint didn't dry, scrubbing more violently, ignoring Jackie's cries.

'Fine.' Her mother said giving up defeated. 'If you want everyone to know how dirty you are, then you can go t school like this.' She turned her small frame back around and when she walked through her door to her bedroom, all the kids from her birthday party were sat behind desks laughing at her.

Jackie looked down at her paint covered self and noticed she was now wearing the same pink dress with cream coloured flowers around the waistline that she had worn on her birthday a little more than a year ago.

'Look at me… I'm Jackie Burkhart, my eyes are different colours!' Donna yelled out from the corner, making the entire class roar with laughter.

'Hey… I'm Jackie, I turned five today… this is my party!' Pam Macy imitated Jackie whilst pointing at her.

Jackie looked around for someone to help her.

'I'm not five… I'm six… it's my first day of school.' She tried to explain.

'Oh my god! Jackie's mom and Counsellor Lionel are making out!' Kelso said standing up and pointing to the corner where Pam was.

Jackie started to spin. I shouldn't be here… I have to escape. She thought catching glimpses of everyone laughing and her mom in the corner.

'Can someone help me?' She yelled out panicking, starting to feel dizzy and light-headed. 'I have to get away…I have to-'

She felt two strong arms stop her, and saw two steel blue eyes staring back.

'You have to stop this.' He said. The laughing came to a halt.

'Steven?' She said in a small voice.

'It's me, doll.' He answered calmly. 'I can make this entire thing stop, okay?' She nodded, feeling relieved he was here. 'Close your eyes.' He whispered softly.

'Can you swim?' She opened her eyes looking confused, noticing they were in her back garden.

'I'm learning to swim… but I can't yet.' She said baffled.

'Oh well.' He pushed her and with a big splash she was in the pool.

Watching as she flapped her arms about trying to get out of the pool he laughed, her mom laughed… they all laughed.

'I can't breath!' She screamed out as her head bobbed above the water, trying to escape. 'Help, please... Somebody!'

'Jacquelyn?' A strange, distant voice yelled.

She stopped waving her arms and started to rise to the surface whilst looking for the owner of the voice.

'Jackie!' The voice yelled again now noticing she was being carried to the top of the pool.

'Steven?' She said.

'It's okay... they're gone now.' He smiled as they surfaced above the water.

'But I-' She began to say.

'Jacquelyn?'

'I don't understand!' She looked around for the voice.

'Jacquelyn?' She sat up right in her bed she gasped for breath. 'Get up your going to be late for your first day of school.'

Looking around the room, still out of breath, she realised she had been dreaming.

'I'm awake.' She called out to the voice between breaths. Hearing the footsteps exit the hallway she lay back down, switching the lamp on adjusting her eyes to the light. These nightmares had been coming more and more often since she had found out her first day of school was approaching fast. And let's just say that after her birthday fiasco; today wasn't exactly something she was looking forward to.

'I can do this.' She thought, after all she was a Burkhart, and Burkhart's could do anything… even abandon their only daughter if they chose to.

Point Place Elementary School - 1966

Stepping out of the car, driven by help, Jackie turned to say goodbye to the driver but instead, looked on dismally as the car drove off. Cautiously she walked up the steps to the school, looking around at all the other children playing in their own little cliques.

To her left was Judge Mathew's son, with a bunch of boys running around terrorising first years. To her right was a group of first years with their parents saying goodbye. And, almost walking into the group of kids in front of her, Jackie saw Donna, Steven and the other two kids that were at her party.

'Hi Jackie.' Donna said appearing to seem friendly.

Jackie was about to answer when Pam Macy and two other girls started talking to the group of friends stood before.

'Oh great, you all decided to come back for another year. I thought I told you last year that you should make yourselves disappear before this year started.'

Donna looked to the three boys and rolled her eyes at Pam's ignorance.

'I thought we told you last year to get a life!' Donna replied snottily.

'Burn!' Kelso yelled out with a stupid grin on his face.

'Your not trying to get more freaks to join your 'little gang', are you?' Pam said looking Jackie up and down.

'She's not a freak.' Jackie was surprised at Donna's attempt to defend her. Although Donna had picked on Jackie at their last encounter, she had decided she would make up for it this year. About a week after Jackie's party, she overheard her mom and dad talking about Jackie's mother and felt more than guilty for being so mean to someone she didn't even know.

Jackie looked to Donna, and then to Hyde, who looked disgusted when Donna tried to defend her. She then looked at Pam who simply looked at Jackie as if she were testing her.

'Im not a freak actually!' Jackie looked at Pam, then to Donna. 'And I don't need nor do I want you to defend me.' She looked back at Pam who didn't look impressed. 'So don't bother, you big lumberjack.' She said to the taller red-head.

At this Pam laughed, she had passed the test. Pam took her arm and walked off with her.

'Maybe you're not so bad, kid.' Jackie turned and looked back to Donna who just gave her a glare and turned her back.

She knew she should feel remorse for hurting Donna, but she didn't. It felt good to be accepted by Pam; almost as good as it felt when her mother looked as though she might love her.

Later that day - 12:30PM

'Okay, so all you have to do is stick with us and then you're sorted for life. You've already passed the test, but you need to learn a few things first.' Jackie felt so small sat looking at Pam in front of her and wedged between the two other older girls either side of her, but listened intently anyway.

'Lesson number One; The freaks over there…' She pointed to Steven and his friends, noticing Donna was missing. 'Are not to be liked, talked to, looked at or interacted with. Showing them any sign that they exist will just give them more ammunition. There are some acceptations however, if looked at; make sure to show them hatred, if talked to; only to criticise and if interacted with, well…. Same as above. Got it?'

'I got it.' She said uneasy. 'Can I just ask you a question?' Pam nodded. 'Why don't you like them? They haven't done anything wrong have they?'

'Lesson number two.' Pam said irritated. 'Never question my authority. Every clique has a leader, that leader has the power to overrule the judgement of any other member of that clique. They have the power to fire any member of their clique and if that leader develops any kind of problem with one of its members, then it's safe to say that someone needs a new clique.'

The girls either side of Jackie nodded frantically as Pam sat up and strutted across the cafeteria.

'Basically…' The girl to the left of Jackie spoke for the first time Jackie had heard. Her name was Natalie, she had found out from Pam. 'Anything Pam say's… agree with it. Admire her and worship her. Otherwise you'll be out… and just like that girl Donna, you'll regret it.'

'Yeah' Sandy, the girl to the right of Jackie agreed. 'It's like the Law.' They both stood up and followed Pam.

Jackie drank the rest of her juice then walked in the same direction Pam had just gone.

'Okay.' Pam said barely giving Jackie time to catch her breath after the brunette ran to catch up with them. 'Lesson number three; look the part. My sister is the most popular girl at Point Place High; she didn't get that way overnight. It's hard work being perfect, y'know.'

'What's wrong with what I'm wearing now?' Jackie looked down at the denim dungarees she was wearing. Her father had said it was very fetching; she had the maid help her pick it out.

At this question Pam stopped, turned to face Jackie and folded her arms, raising her eyebrows.

'Right.' Jackie said... 'Pay attention…' She thought 'lesson number two's very important… I'm going to have to work on that one.'

'I have other clothes.' Jackie said unsure of how Pam would react to her slip up.

'Well, if all your clothes are like that then don't bother. We'll come by your house tonight and check out what you've got.'

'Okay… but I'm not sure if my dad'll let us. I'll have to ask.'

Pam stopped by the water cooler and took a sip of water.

'Lesson number four.' Pam said wiping her mouth delicately. 'When asking your dad for something all you have to do is put your arm around him and do this…' She said while demonstrating on Natalie. 'Daddy… can my friends come over tonight?' She said while fluttering her eyelashes. 'See?'

'Really? And he'll just let me have what I want?'

'Of course, it's something I picked up off my sister; she's taught me almost everything I know.'

An hour later

Jackie was walking down the empty hallway feeling lost as she listened to the sound of her footsteps echoing off the walls. She had so much to take in today, there was History, Mathematics and of course those all important lessons from Pam. Even though a lot of these lessons she didn't exactly agree with, she definitely had to learn them if she wanted to survive elementary school, and if that was what she had to do fit in with Pam Macy's clique then she'd do it. She knew that if her mother ever came back, then she would be proud, she told her to make friends with Pam and that's what she had done. So overall this day had turned out pretty well, despite her earlier thoughts.

Turning the corner Jackie found the toilets but as she opened the corner came a sight that brought her whole day down.

'Donna?' She said quietly. She had never even saw anyone, besides herself, cry before and that that remorse she should have felt earlier when she had picked on Donna had suddenly surfaced.

'Leave me alone, Jackie.' Donna said turning her back trying to hide her tears.

'Are you crying because of me?' Jackie asked knowing the answer before she had even asked the question.

'It's not my fault, you know.' Donna blurted out suddenly, after a couple of minutes of silence.

'I don't… understand.' Jackie stammered noticing how red and puffy the red-heads eyes were.

'I didn't ask to look like this. It's not my fault I'm taller than most girls… or bigger.' She let out a louder sob. 'I was trying to defend you and you threw it back in my face, in front of Pam Macy of all people!'

'I… I'm sorry, I didn't…' Jackie stuttered. Donna wasn't really that big and she didn't think her words could hurt someone so much.

'You didn't what, Jackie? You didn't think, did you? I was told by my parents what the Burkhart's were like… your mom even went out of her way to get me and my friends kicked out of your birthday party last year when she found out what side of point place we lived on.'

'She even told us that people like me weren't welcome in your house or your life. She called us scum.' Jackie's eyes grew wider filling up with tears at the sound of each passing word 'I thought once she left that… I don't know… somehow you'd be different… I felt sorry for you. I thought that maybe you might have a heart after all.' She pushed past Jackie heading towards the exit stopping once her hand was on the handle of the door. 'Turns out you just like your mother.' With that she left the room slamming the door behind her.

Jackie walked to the mirror trying to stop her bottom lip from shaking and took a good look at the reflection, seeing only her mother. She had admired her mother, thought she was the greatest person in the entire world, never saw her for what she really was. She lied, cheated, ran off and treated people with indecency Jackie had never witnessed before and even after all this, Jackie couldn't help but want her back. Everything she was, everything about her, everything she stood for, was a part of Jackie. Donna wasn't scum; her mother was… and a part of her was too.

Finally Jackie started to weep, not letting one tear stay prisoner any more, she fell and sat with her back against a wall, crying with her head in her hands.

Later that day - the Burkhart Mansion

Jackie had spent the remainder of her first day at elementary school sat in the toilets crying. She had spent the rest of the afternoon thinking about the choices she had to make. Her first option was to go down stairs and do what Pam had told her to do, do what her mother would want her to do. Or she could rebel… she could be her own person, be the person Donna would want her to be, be a person Donna would like.

School had finished an hour ago but right now was her final lesson of the day, and depending on the choice she made right now, it could go either way. Should she accept Pam's friendship; take the easy way out, have security for the rest of her school years and if her mother ever were to return, be someone who she could finally love. Or would she have an uncertain future, be the person she wanted to be and go apologise and beg for Donna's forgiveness.

She already knew what she was going to do, she needed to do it. The tiny brunette exited her room, walking slowly down the long ever winding hallway, down the marble staircase, taking a deep breath. 'I have to.' She thought. Walking slower, she entered her father's study after knocking lightly.

'Daddy?' She said unsure… she had to do this, there was too much at risk. 'Is it okay if I have a couple of friends over tonight?' She put her arm around his shoulder and fluttered her eye lashes.

'Of course you can princess.' He hugged her as she thanked him and exited the room, her heart told her to turn around and tell him she had changed her mind, go to school tomorrow and find Donna to make her feel better. But her brain told her different. Her mother was a part of her, it was inevitable she would be her someday… why fight the impossible?

That, for now, was Jackie Burkhart's last and most important lesson.

A/N – Okay, so this chapter was a lot different when I first set out to write it. But I just had to write some of the stuff that's in here before I could post the other chapter I wrote. Most of the things in here were mainly to get Jackie's personality and future characteristics across and even though it wasn't as great as it was supposed to be, it was vital, so I'm sorry for not having much J/H apart from In the dream sequence, I promise the next chapter will be a lot better, and have more j/h. Please review, it does mean a lot, and thank you so much for reading.

Next Chapter Due Date – 8th December