A/N ok I know I haven't update and the last chappie took a bit but I lost my memory stick and then my computer was being stupid and wouldn't work. So here is the next chappie.
Disclaimer: I own nothing from Stephenie Meyer its all hers blah, blah, blah and so on so forth you know the rest of it.
WRITERS BLOCK- that's why this chappie took so long to update. Sorry peoples.
Chapter 9- The Past isn't the only thing to Dread.
Bellas POV
I raced in the door at double speed and barely acknowledged the moans and gasps getting louder. I was in at Edwards door finally. I quickly did a check and opened the door. And who was inside
Edward was inside. But Edward wasn't alone. Edward was riding some girl I didn't even know. Ridin' her like a fucking horse. ((A/N srry this guys. It's weird but bare with me)) I watched them under the covers. I saw their bodies move and heads bopping up and down. And finally when I couldn't take it anymore I turned and dashed out. I couldn't bear to watch longer. In the total minute or so I was standing there my heart had shattered to a million pieces and beyond.
I couldn't believe Edward would do that to me. I thought he loved me. Well I guess I thought wrong. God.
Seer can you help me pull out this mask thing. I want to whip his pale shinning ass all the way back to hell.
I can help you Bella but I wouldn't kick too hard. I want to kick half way there too
I grinned. I was trying to pull out the mask and I tried over and over with Seer helping. It wasn't working I couldn't create this mask of power. I ran outside where everyone I heard was coming through the forest bushes.
I heard Alice gasp once she saw me.
"Bella they're fading. They are fading Bella. Let me see your back." Alice whipped me around and started to examine my back and then she started to trace my back where the sword tattoos were.
"Whats fading Alice? Whats fading?" I asked.
"Your tattoos. The ones on your face and back." She giggled.
They were fading? That's sure weird. Alice looked at me like I had two heads while examining my fading tattoos.
"Wait, wait. Some of my powers aren't working either."
By this time Carlisle had come over and started to examine my face along with Alice. Then my head started to pound and I felt funny. I heard Seer scream my name but it sounded far away. I fell into a black hole and I kept falling and something hard caught me. I looked beneath me and I saw a rock, well many rocks and most of them pointy. There was a pain in my back and I looked below me and saw I had landed on a very pointy rock which had stabbed my heart.
When I opened my eyes after a very long time and a very strange dream I was stunned by the light.
I saw Alice staring down at me but right directly above my face was Edward. At the sight of him I screamed. And they didn't flinch away like before it was just a normal scream. What was happening to all the powers I had. Why were they all disappearing. I wonder if I can still change into an animal. I thought about being a coyote and felt myself change. Thank god for that.
I could still change into a coyote. I wonder if I could change into other animals. I had never tried.
After I changed I realized all the Cullens were now in the room and they were watching me. I felt embarrassed and if still in vampire form I would have blushed deeply. I howled and then ran. I ran from Edward and I ran from my problems. I ran back to my old house. Well not really old but the one I was originally going to live in before Edward told me to stay with them. Why did I get so attached I knew what men were like. Take Phil. Phil was a bastard who ended up killing my mother – well sending people to kill us - and the people to kill her were men. Then there is Edward who is a cheating scumbag full of shit who makes a girl think he loves them and then CHEATS on them. God I really did think Edward loved me.
Well I guess love isn't always enough.
I really loved Edward. And I really did think someone out there could love me. I mean I even know Seer has someone now. There siblings but she still has someone. Someone she can marry someone she can love. I wonder what I did wrong.
I got a piece of paper and a pen and wrote Edward a letter
Dear Edward,
What did I do wrong?
I'm sorry I wasn't perfect enough for you
I'm sorry I couldn't understand your lies
I'm sorry I didn't realize you were pushing me away
I'm sorry I didn't look godly enough for you
I'm sorry I didn't worship your feet like the humans
I'm sorry I met you
I'm sorry you didn't really love me
But most of all I'm sorry you had to deceive me and show me something I never wanted to see just so you could get rid of me.
I will always love you Edward.
Thank you Cullens for your hospitality.
Love Bella
If I were still human I would be bawling. I quickly folded it up and ran over to the Cullens house again. I put the note on the door, rang the bell and zoomed off into the trees. I hid a ways back. I heard the door open and Alice answered. she looked down expecting it to be there.
"Goodbye Bella" she whispered and closed to door.
Edwards POV
I heard the bell ring and looked up from Kiki who I was currently making out with and listened to Alice's mind. Something I hadn't done in a long while.
Dear Edward,
What did I do wrong?
I'm sorry I wasn't perfect enough for you
I'm sorry I couldn't understand your lies
I'm sorry I didn't realize you were pushing me away
I'm sorry I didn't look godly enough for you
I'm sorry I didn't worship your feet like the humans
I'm sorry I met you
I'm sorry you didn't really love me
But most of all I'm sorry you had to deceive me and show me something I never wanted to see just so you could get rid of me.
I will always love you Edward.
Thank you Cullens for your hospitality.
Love Bella
Bella? BELLA? Omg Bella. I forgot about her. Why would she write something like that to me?
I had a flashback
Bella was gone with Seer to see Seer's boyfriend.
A day after she left the door rang and a beautiful looking vampire stood there.
Later I found out her name was Kiki. She was traveling along looking for vegetarian vampires, she kept eyeing me and one night came into my room. I was reading a book Wuthering Heightsand she sat down beside me. I looked up and I realized I couldn't read her thoughts.
"Hey Edward" she smiled. I smiled back and when she turned her head away I felt inclined to pull it back so I could look at her face.
I leaned closer and closer and then my lips crashed down on hers. I felt so much lust towards her. More than Bella. Maybe Bella and I weren't meant to be together.
We slept together that night (sex people who are slow) and I never left my room. I was either making out, having sex or reading. At one point Kiki said she would surround the room with barriers but eventually it grew to the house inside the barrier. Another time I heard my door open when we were having sex. I didn't look thinking it was Alice or something. There was a gasp and the door shut. With the door shutting came a beautiful sent.
Bellas scent.
END Flashback
Bella. How could I do this to her? Maybe Kiki was manipulating me. Wait no. her power was barriers. How did Bella get through, right barriers didn't work on her. At one point she told me that.
How could I do this to her. And the letter she wrote. I had hurt her deeply. I had cut through her skin and bones into the center of her heart and just torn it open. How could I be so selfish?
Bellas POV
After a while in the trees I moved on. I couldn't stand to watch the house of some now painful memories haunt me. I moved on.
Seer I loved him so much. How could he?
I don't know Bella. I was sure he loved you too.
Everything was such a lie.
I kept on ranting away feeling bad that seer had to listen to my rants. My pathetic rants and help me out.
Tell me a story. About you.
About me? Ok.
Well once before I was put inside your body I was not called 'Seer' I was called:
The Mighty Demon…
A/N ok guys what should Seers real name be, I have some ideas but feel free to tell me yours.
-Shuuhei (shoo-heh-ee)
-Soyfon (so-ee-fon)
-Shoma (sho-ma)
-Sohma (soh-ma)
-Samia (sam-ee-ah)
-Sabaku (sa-back-oo)
-Shinobi (shin-o-bee)
-Sarugaki (sar-oo-ga-key)