Lyla's Thoughts
I just found out today that my life might be over, at least the one that I had planned for myself. Who am I kidding? That fairy tale perfect life was over ages ago. The news today just put the final nail in the coffin of ever getting that back. To tell you the truth I wouldn't get it back even if I could. I figured out something today that I hadn't been willing to admit to myself until now. I love Tim Riggins. I just wish it hadn't taken . . . .
I don't know what to call it . . . for me to realize how I felt about him. I just can't tell him and risk him not feeling the same way. He has been so wonderful to me through this whole thing. I couldn't have asked for a more supportive man. But will he come to hate me once he truly realizes what this all means? Will he leave me all alone?
Tim's Thoughts
In just a short amount of time, I went from a teenager who biggest decision was which party would I go to celebrate out win at State. To a man child with some pretty grown up decisions to make. I watched her as everyone had celebrated our win. Through the crowd of people, it was still her brown ponytail I picked out. She just has something about her that just makes her shine. She looked so sad standing out on the sidelines while everyone around her cheered. I wanted so bad to just go and scoop her up in my arms and never let her go. Then I looked down at my best friend in a wheelchair. It make me snap out of my little fantasy world. I slapped him on the back and watched him as he wheeled over to her. I saw her begin to back further and further away. Then from the other direction I saw Buddy heading over. She threw up her hands and took off running. I had a sudden urge to forget about all the stuff that had been keeping me from her. All that mattered at that moment was that she was okay. I didn't care that we had just won state or that if Jason knew what I was doing he would probably be mad as hell. I just had to know that she was okay that the woman I loved was okay. When she told me that she thought she might be pregnant, I can't begin to tell you what I felt. I was so scared but not for myself. I was scared for Lyla. I only wanted the best for her. I only wanted her to be happy, and now she looked so scared and sad. All I could do was hold her in my arms and pray that everything was going to be okay. When we found out that she really was pregnant that we were going to become parents. I started to think of my future in a whole different way. It wasn't just "Texas Forever" anymore. Who was I kidding anymore any hope of that future was long gone. I now had to be a bigger man and take care of my new future, my new little family. I love her so much. I know the future ahead of us will be hard, but I know we can make it. I just know we can.