Packing went by in a whirlwind. I got the clothes that I would need immediately together and I left the rest of my stuff there. I was so focused on getting things ready to go to New York that I never actually thought about it. I just packed.
As I walked out the door I decided I should probably leave a note for George and Izzie. They would wonder where I was, I suppose. That is, if George even cared what I did now, after last night.
Hey Guys,
I know you're probably tired of dealing with my drama and frankly I am too. So I'm saving you a lot of trouble. I'm moving to New York. I'll still have the same cell phone number if you need to call.
I'm really sorry for all the trouble I've caused. Especially to you, George. I never meant to hurt you and I'll never be able to forgive myself for doing it. I love you.
Love,
Meredith.
Even though I knew my note would do no good, I hoped that it would. I hoped that George would read it and be able to forgive me, move on, and definitely forget me. I wasn't worth remembering. I was dark and twisty and no one deserved that in their life. Not only did I hope that George would be able to forgive the memory of me I hoped that I was able to forgive myself. I'd done a terrible thing last night, and hopefully New York would provide solace.
I decided the quicker I got out of the house the better. So I left the note on the table, grabbed my bags and jumped in the Jeep. I'd already reserved my spot on the plane but it didn't leave for a few hours. Maybe the time alone would give me some time to think. Actually, never mind, thinking was probably a bad idea. But maybe the airport bar would be open. I could really use a drink.
I would call the Chief and Christina from the plane. That would be better for me because I was afraid both of them would try and talk me out of this "irrational" decision. But I knew what I needed to do and I didn't need to hear otherwise. This was going to be good for me, and if it wasn't hopefully the Chief would find a place for me back in the Intern program at Seattle Grace.
No, I wasn't going to New York to be a doctor. I was going to New York to get away from doctors. I would have to find a new, less stressful job to keep me occupied. But I can worry about that when I get to New York. I've got some money saved back in my bank account, and there's always my mother's money. She wasn't going to be using it any time soon.
As I pull into the parking space at the airport, I realize this is exactly what I need. I had no doubts and definitely no reservations. I was going to make this change in my life and it was definitely going to turn out for the better.
It was time for me to make my own McDreamy life and stop relying on other people, mainly men, to do it for me. But I still needed a drink.
I checked my bags and headed straight for the bar. I really wasn't kidding about needing a drink. But there was someone sitting there, that I hadn't expected to see. Someone very handsome, very successful, and very single. Wait, wasn't I just two seconds ago saying I didn't men in my life? Yes, I was. So I was definitely going to ignore the gaze of this might as well be a stranger. Because I was starting a new chapter in my life. One without men.
Man, is this going to be hard.
A/N: thanks go out to Absent Heart for reviewing. I just changed the rating so hopefully I will get more readers. Hope you enjoy this latest part. Things are really getting ready to change in Meredith's life for sure.