Thank you for the comments I'm glad you're both liking it so far anyway. I know this is a short update but I wanted to leave it on a cliffhanger for once hehe. Enjoy!
Elphaba stared into the open space before her. The sun was setting in the distance. She watched as it sunk behind the hills and allowed the light from her life turn into darkness. How could she have been such a fool? She loved her, they told each other endless times, that was all that mattered. She didn't even give Glinda a choice at all; she just decided her future for her, just like that. Although it felt like she was doing the complete opposite when she chose to do what she did, when she kicked mentally kicked herself for all the things she could have done differently, she had been selfish all the same. It felt far from it when the only source of happiness had been taken from her life, when she freely gave it away, but she still managed to be selfish. Selfish because she didn't bother thinking of what would become of Glinda. She clenched her hands into fists and beat the ground beside her. 'You're such a fool, you've ruined everything; made everything so much worse.' She didn't care if she were spotted now, to hell with it. Let them find her, let The Wizard torture her, she deserved all that came her way now. She lay back on the ground and stared up at the stars becoming visible above her. They sparkled brightly in the grey sky. The stars made it beautiful; they gave her something to look at. It had been a long time since she was last in a situation like this. It was common back then for her to live under the stars. To fly through it and marvel in it's beauty with her blonde lover sat right by her. Holding onto her, at first she gathered it was nerves. But she held onto her the same each time and she knew by the look in her eyes she loved flying like so. If only she could go back and play it all differently again. 'If only', she thought to herself.
She cried and she cried and she cried. She promised herself and her dad that she would be happy this day, but she cried none the less. The sight of her Popsicle's cold, still body being placed into that coffin and buried underground made her heart break. She loved him dearly and he had helped her so much throughout her entire life. Her mother too for that matter, she cried because of the realization of how short life is and how you have to live it to the fullest. Otherwise you'll regret it. After the ceremony had ended and she thanked everyone for coming, which took some time considering all the people that had come to pay their respects; she placed a single lily on his grave and blew him a kiss.
''Tell momsie that I love her Popsicle.'' She ran her hands over his tombstone and glanced over at her mother's grave right besides his.
''I love you both so much, thank you for everything.'' She whispered with a small smile on her lips, but it was a smile either way. They had both lived happy lives; they had the family they both dreamt of having. They loved each other with every fiber of their being. At least they were together now. This was more than she could say with her Elphaba.
Later on that day she got a few things together and left The North to travel West. As that was the only place she could think of, to find her. She bid farewell to the other nurses and her neighbors, knowing she'd most probably never see them again, or The North again for that matter. It was hard to leave the place where she'd grown up but she had made her decision and nothing or no-one was going to change that. She produced a bubble seeing it was night, not wanting to draw any attention to herself. She watched the land below her sleep peacefully and she relaxed at the sight. She'd never known Oz to be so peaceful in such a troubled land they lived in by day. She only stopped when she needed to; she made sure she didn't sleep for too long after. She didn't want to waste another second of it. She had already sacrificed so much time, that they could have been together in.
The storm raged like a hungry devil waiting to consume anything that crossed its path. Elphaba looked up to the heavens and wished in that moment that the rumor were true. That she was allergic to water and that she would melt away like Dorothy had put it so. She set the Grimmerie in front of her and found the page straight away, as though it wanted her to cast this spell too. She allowed the drops of rain fall onto her, hoping that the next one would burn her like acid. Her chanting begun and her hands danced in time with her words. And then … fire. It felt like a burning flame held against her skin. What took her by surprise was the burning sensation down her cheeks. She didn't even realize she had been crying. The drops of rain burnt her almost as much as her tears, but nowhere near as much as when her heart broke all over again. She didn't have her hat to shield her face, she didn't even have her cloak to wrap herself up from the wetness. She was vulnerable out here and there was no shelter nearby. She stayed still and looked up at the grey sky above her emptily. Her head automatically bowed when another hit her face, wanting to feel this pain. She needed to end her pathetic life once and for all, for the good of everyone. Within a matter of minutes the amount of layers of clothes she had on failed her and the rain drops were beginning to soak through. Her head was battling with her to get out of the rain, to go back to the cave as quickly as she could, before the storm got worst, but the other side to her was telling her to stay, that she deserved this, to suffer like Glinda did when she lied to her. And so she remained sitting, she didn't even flinch when the thunder roared above her angrily. She closed her eyes and thought of Glinda, inviting death in.
''I'm so sorry my sweet.'' She let a tear roll down her cheek