AN: So I know it's been a while and I'm sooo sorry but the good news is, with school being over I'll be able to concentrate more and more on this story, although it only has a few chapters left. Rest assured though, you'll never see the ending coming, and there will be a sequal! So keep enjoying and sending those reviews.

Her heart was failing, she was 17 and her heart was failing?...It didn't seem real, it didn't seem plausible. At 17 you weren't suppose to be dieing, but it seemed that her years of Bulimia had finally caught up to her, the overdose had just sped it up, making the inevitable happen faster then it should. Eleanore hadn't called, nor had Serena or Nate called her, they hadn't done much after purswading Blair's doctors to tell her what was really going on. They were best friends, all 3 of them. Had been for years and now at the tender age of 17 that all would end in a flash. She hadn't woken up yet, and with the amount of drugs that had been carried out through her system they weren't sure she ever would, she was a fragile as a porcelain doll, breakable at a single tough.

Nate and Serena sat in the waiting room, debating on what to do. Should they call Chuck? That was the question they'd been debating on for hours the most, forget about her mother, no the love of her life instead. He'd want to know...it was his right to know, even if he screwed around with her fragile heart making it even weaker then it was. Chuck had to know, he'd kill them if he didn't find out before it was to late, if Blair was going to...die, they had to make peace with one another, it would only be fair to Chuck for when he had to go on after she was gone.

Picking her head up from Nate's shoulder, Serena softly wiped at her eyes, the tears had been flowing ever since they'd received the news and only since had started to cease. Looking over at Nate who seemed to be in his own little world, she gently placed a soft hand on his knee, waiting for him to glance over at her, make eye contact anything "We have to tell him" She whispered softly, her eyes searching for any emotion in his face.

"He's the reason she's here in the first place Serena" He said looking over at her, his eyes glazed over as he took in her features "...I'm not saying this wouldn't have occurred if he hadn't but...he led her to taking those pills Serena...it's his fault."

"And I'm not saying it is...but deep down you know they still love each other, he needs to be able to say..." Shutting her eyes tightly she found it impossible to say the final word, the word that meant her best friend would no longer be with her, she'd be on her own standing alone "goodbye" She whispered as a fresh batch of tears slid down her face.

Wiping away a few of the blonds stray tears he sighed "No Serena" He protested "We can't...seeing him would make things worse...it would just..."

"Nate" She sighed "You know I'm right..."

"Serena I can't...I can't face that prick, espically when I know hes the reason she's dieing"

"Then you stay with Blair" She said looking up from the spot she'd be staring at on the floor "...I'll go."

His jaw was still sore, and he was pretty sure he hadn't deserved the extent of the pain he was going through, but at the same time, he knew any time he put Blair in pain he deserved it back at him 10 times worse. Filling his tumbler back up with scotch he plopped down on the couch, his mind wandering. He hadn't heard from anyone in hours, and when he'd stopped by the palace, he found absolutely no one in the penthouse, not even Dortoa which was odd. Something in his gut told him something wasn't right, they wouldn't all just dissapear for no reason, espically when Serena had practically shoved it down his throat to go and apologize, though he knew Blair would never except it, he couldn't blame her though. His mind was fluttering as he looked around his sweet, images of them on every surface completely naked filling his mind, with Blair it was all different, it wasn't just sex. It was in the words of Humphrey, "Sex is like Art, you don't rush Art." Dan was right, with Blair he didn't wanna just screw and be done with it. He just wanted to lay inside of her and watch every emotion of her face, every time a speck sparkled in her eyes, or a smile came to her face, but now he'd never see that again, he'd never be able to experience the warmth that surrounded her on a daily basis.

Downing the rest of his Scotch, he circled the tumbler in his hand watching the crystal reflect in rainbow colors around the room, her scent was still floating around the suite. Pulling out of his thoughts to the door buzzer ringer, he got up dropping the glass, not really making much of a notice to it. He stumbled to the door and was more surprised to see none other then the familiar blond at his door.

"Sis...it's a pleasure as always" he said with a smirk moving to the side to let her in.

"Chuck I'm not here for pleasantries so just shut up" She said firmly and abruptly.

"Well pleasantries thats my specialtie around here..."

"It's Blair" She said simply as her eyes filled up with tears again "...she's sick Chuck, really sick"

He could feel his heart smash in his chest, there was no way he heard her right, no possible way...his Blair couldn't be sick.

"She's...dying..."

Dieing? He questioned to himself as clenched his jaw tightly, the words ripping through him slowly but steadily, it wasn't possible Blair was young and beautiful...she had a whole future in front of her very eyes. There was just no possible way this could be happening, not to him...and not to them.

"You certainly know how to scare every one Blair" Nate whispered with a small smile as he sat down next to her bed, taking her cold dainty hand, in his big warm one, hoping it'd do some good but knowing very well it wouldn't. "you've got everyone worried about you...I haven't seen Serena like this in...ever actually" He sighed "Come on Blair, open those eyes for me. You know you can, theres nothing to be afraid of, I'm Nate remember?"

It was useless he knew, her sleeping form probably hadn't heard a word he'd said but it was worth a try, for Blair anything was worth a try. Squeezing her hand, he pushed some of her brown hair back, it'd seemed to have become a mess with the days activities. Glancing up over at the door he hadn't even noticed her start to stir and open her famous eyes "Na-Nate" She coughed, trying to conclude how she'd wound up in the hard bed.

Glancing down, a small smile spread across his face as he moved closer to the bed squeezing her hand softly "I'm here sweetheart" He said softly gently rubbing her scalp, trying to get her to fully come about.

"W-what happened?" She barely got out, as she started to cough again, her eyes roughly getting use to the light again.

"...you took a lot of pills" He said softly "Alot...me and Serena we found you and rushed you here"

"My chest...hurts" She stumbled out "Nate it hurts" She got out with a gasp for air.

"Blair breath, come on" He coaxed standing up, still holding onto to her hand tightly "Breath for me Blair please" He begged "Please"

A coughing fit started to come about, as she wheezed for air to enter her lungs, although it didn't seem to be doing so, her face as white as a sheet.

"Doctor!" Nate started to yell not leaving her side for a moment "Doctor!"

"Nate" She coughed out, clutching onto his hand for dear life, the coughing only getting more violent with each desperate breath she took "Ch-Chuck..." She managed out, before she was thrown into the world of darkness once again.

Handing Chuck a small tumbler of water, Serena sat down cautiously next to him. She wasn't exactly thrilled to be in the same room with her, but for the sake of her best friend and her health she wasn't going to cause any more drama it wasn't a smart idea "take these" She said softly handing him 2 Lexpro, hoping they'd do something to calm his nerves, she'd been there a good 5minutes and he hadn't said a word since she had told him the news.

Downing the pills, he quickly drank down the cold liquid as he sat back, running his hands over his face still unable to grasp the words that Serena had said only moments earlier, it wasn't possible, it just wasn't, not his Blair, not his Blair.

"What happened" He mustered out, glancing over at her, his eyes no longer gleaming as they usually did "...how"

Taking a breath the blond looked up at him with a sigh "...It seems that her bulimia has finally caught up with her" She mustered out with yet another sigh "she's gone into heart failure."

"But she was fine a couple days ago..."

"...she downed a mixture of pills this afternoon..." She sighed "It weakened her heart even more then it was..."

"Is there any chance..."

Shaking her head she put a hand on his shoulder "They didn't say, though after they said the words...I sort of blocked out the rest...its mind numbing" She whispered.

"Why did you come?" He asked his voice hoarse as he looked up at her "...why tell me?"

"Because she loves you" she said simply as her cell started to go off, the familiar ring tone surrounding the room "Because you love her" She said once again picking up the phone "Hello?"

"Serena" Nate replied in a panic voice as he paced the hallway next to Blair's room.

"Nate?! Whats wrong?! What happened?!" She asked rapidly as she started to panic.

"I don't know...she woke up and just started coughing" He rambled "They won't tell me anything...they've been working on her for the past 10minutes, you need to get back down here"

"Alright" She nodded "I'm on my way" She said rushed hanging up as she quickly got up.

"Wha-what is" Chuck asked quickly as he watched her.

"Come on...we're going to the hospital, that was Nate, things aren't good, we both need to be up there right now!"

"Nate?!...Nate!?" Serena yelled as she ran down the ward where Blair's room was located, Chuck following suite behind her "Oh god what happened??" She asked getting increasingly worried.

"I-I don't know" He replied as he looked up at her "The doctor said he'd be out in a minute to talk to us...whats he doing here?" He asked glancing over at Chuck.

"Nate I had to bring him" She whispered "He deserves to be here"

Swolling hard he nodded as Blair's doctor walked over to them "Miss. Van der Woodsen, Mr. Archibald..." Sighed he shook his head "I'm afraid she's gotten worse...if she doesn't get a heart transplant within the next few hours...I'm afraid..."

"Oh god" Serena mustered as she clung onto Nate for dear life, as the sobs took over her body.

"...we've put her to the top of the doner list...but theres still no guarantee I'm afraid."

"Are we allowed to see her?" Chuck asked out of the blue as he looked away from Nate and Serena "Can we..."

Noticing the pained look in the boys odd, he nodded slowly "Take as long as you need" He said softly before walking away.

"Listen, I know you two don't think it's a good idea..but...I have to" He sighed "I can't let her go without knowing how much I love her first."

Looking up from the hysterical Serena in his arms, Nate nodded with a sigh "Tell her we love her" He said softly, before turning back to the blond.

She looked so peaceful, she was hooked up to oxygen and numerous other machines but yet, she still had such a peaceful glow about her. Cautiously walking over to the bed he felt his heart break, it wasn't fair, she was so young and beautiful, her life it wasn't ready to end, she still had so much to do, it couldn't end so soon, it couldn't. Leaning down he planted a soft kiss on her lips, careful of the many cords that surrounded her body "I love you bear" He whispered softly into her ear, he was only one of the few people that was allowed to call her that, and always knew it brought a smile to her face, though this time he new very well she couldn't hear him, though something inside him told she could "If I could take back what I did, just to have one more minute with you...one more day to hold you in my arms..." He sighed stroking some of her hair back "I'm so sorry, for everything. Your the first girl I ever fell in love with, and I wouldn't take any of it back for a second...and I'm gonna do everything in my power to make sure you open those beautiful eyes again...anything." He whispered

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