An: Once again, I'm soooo sorry I havn't updated in soo long, school and exams are finally are so now I'm free to write once again! Theres one more chapter left, then the sequel should go up shortly.
Enjoy!, I promise You'll never see the ending coming
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
"We...we have to do something...I'm not going to let her just die like this!" Chuck spat, kicking the soda machine located in the hallway hard.
"Chuck!" Nate practically yelled as he held onto Serena tightly, Dan had yet to shown up making him the sole care taker for the tall blond. "...your not helping, we know we have to do something, but unless she gets a heart...there's nothing we can do!."
"Its not fair!...shes so young...she...she wasn't suppose to go this way" Chuck stammered slowly sitting down in one of the uncomfortable little hospital chairs "..shes 17, not 71." He sighed "Its not her time, it isn't."
"What if it is?" Serena suddenly blurted out, unable to comprehend the fact that she did "...shes done and gone through more in her 17yrs then we have, bulimia, a gay father, an over bearing mother, queen Bee, gossip, scandal..." Clenching her jaw tightly she sniffled "She's my best friend, the thought of losing her scares the hell out of me...but what if theres nothing we can do?"
"Serena?" the sudden familiar voice filled the hallway, as the trio looked up and saw none other then cabbage patch "oh god Serena" He rushed towards her, his voice now more panicked.
"Dan!" Rushing out of Nate's arms, the blond quickly rushed over to none other then her own knight and shining armor, her tears making themselves known again as they poured down her cheeks.
"Shh, shh" He cooed as he held her tightly in his arms "Its ok baby, I'm here now...shh it's ok"
"But it's not Dan" She cried "Its really really not."
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
It wasn't fair, it just wasn't. She was 17, she hadn't even begun to live her life, now it was being forced to end so suddenly? Had he known her bulimia had been so bad, he swore he would have done something, even if it meant moving into the Ostroph center with her. He didn't see their love, as just another high school romance. He'd scarcely admit it out loud but he saw them getting married, starting a family. Little Chucks running around driving Blair nuts as their father did, and little Blair's who couldn't get enough of their daddy...growing old together. Every other girl he'd ever been with had just been another conquest, Blair wasn't. She was it for him, she was the only one for him, and deep down he'd known it for years, never actually wanting to admit it because Nate had been the object of her affection.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
He would do anything for her...even die if he had to. She was the only girl, he'd even think about watching Juno with, or laying all day in bed, in nothing but a bathrobe and slippers. She made him want to take chances, and not just be the snotty rich little boy who would inherit millions when big Bart died, and probably waste it all away. With her, he saw a future, he saw a lifetime of memories. It just wasn't fair, she was far to young.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
"She has to wake up Dan" Serena mumbled holding tightly onto Blair's small cold hand, while Dan had his arm carefully wrapped around her waist "I can't live the rest of my life without her...I just can't." She chocked.
"If I can remember clearly, she always states that she's a Waldorf" he replied squeezing her gently turning his eyes to the girl he loved "...she states it 99 of the time, and usually holds to it."
"Her hearts failing Dan...she needs a transplant."
"And she'll get one in time Serena" He answered softly, kissing the side of her head pulling her in close to him "she's as stubborn as a mule, and has far to much to live for...including her best friend. You won't lose her, I promise."
"...how can you be so sure?" She questioned resting her head on his chest with a sigh.
"Because I'm cabbage patch, and shes Waldorf" he replied simply.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
"B" Serena whispered softly, once Dan had left "..listen...I know you probably can't hear me...but...you need to come back to me..to us" She whispered "Me and Chuck will kill each other without you in between us...please Blair" She half begged squeezing her hand tightly "We need you, we need you so very very much...more then you can possibly understand.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
It was hours later when Chuck heard the news he was truly dreading. Her heart was now in total failure, if she didn't get a transplant in the next 24hrs...they'd lose her forever. Eleanore had finally been called, as it should have been done earlier and Lily had immediately rushed up to the hospital along with Jenny to be with Dan and Serena...Nate was...well he was beside himself.
Chuck hadn't returned to the hospital since then, he couldn't bring himself to come back into the hospital room to watch his beloved slip away, it was just to painful. He wouldn't allow her to go so soon, there was no way. She wasn't any where near the top of the list, unless her specific blood type was found in a transplant victim...the blood type the two of them miraculously seemed to share.
He'd never considered himself a hero...or anything of the sorts, but after all the pain he'd put her through in the past year, it was about time he put himself first for a change, even if it meant never getting to spend one single moment with her again, it was a selfless act of love that not many were ever given the chance to achieve, and now with one simple pull of the trigger, he'd be able to do so, and in the process give the love of his life, the world.
Holding up the small handgun, he knew it'd be over faster then he thought it up. She'd be able to enjoy and live her life, and for once maybe he wouldn't be known as selfish Chuck Bass...and she'd know deep down he truly always did love her, at no matter what the cost.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
"She's got one!" Nate exclaimed as he ran down the now semi-crowded hallway "She's got a heart...exact blood type and everything!...there gonna prep her in a few minutes, she's gonna live!"
"No way!" A simple erupted on Serena's face as she jumped up, jumping into the arms of her old friend "She's really gonna be ok?" She questioned with a smile "Like really really be ok??"
"Well..she's gonna need physical therapy and what not" he smiled "but she should be the Blair we know in a matter of weeks."
Turning to Dan, Serena seemed it impossible to stop smiling "you were right" She murmured, before capturing his lips in a passionate deep kiss "she's gonna be ok!" She smiled "...she's really really gonna be ok!"
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
Sitting back in one of the chairs in the waiting room, Serena smiled looking over at Dan. Everything was going to be perfect again, her and Dan were together, her best friend was no longer going to die. Everything was perfect...that is until she saw Lily walk slowly down the hallway her cheeks tear stained.
"Mom?" Serena questioned as she slowly stood up, afraid that it might be the worst news about her best friend "..Mom what is it?"
"...It's Chuck" Lily simply stated as the tears slid down her cheeks once again.