Frank's POV

I couldn't believe that a girl I met in a city I have never been to could make me want her so bad. I missed her soft hair and her gorgeous skin and her luscious curves. Just thinking about her made me wish I could talk to her. But right now I was supposed to be concentrating on playing my guitar. But with all the shows were I play the same thing over and over again it sometimes feels like someone else is playing while I stew in my thoughts. It had only been a week but I missed Nicki with a passion. After every concert I would im her she said she was getting a webcam tonight I am so exited to see her face again.

"Good night Portland." Gerard screamed to the crowd

They words that let me free. I ran to the back room they had set up and grabbed my laptop.

Panseyman: Nicki lets see that gorgeous face

NickiFM: Someone is a little exited

Panseyman: I've missed you

NickiFM: alright.

She sent me a request to view webcam and I accepted.

She was laying on her bed in her PJs.

Panseyman: you look adorable

NickiFM: I look icky I have been so beat lately

Panseyman: why

NickiFM: I have school and work and missing you

Panseyman: I'm sorry babe

NickiFM: you and you're enchanting me

Panseyman: Like you mind

She looked over to the side and mouthed what I think is a swear word

NickiFM: Babe I am sorry I am opening the store tomorrow

Panseyman: its ok sweet dreams

NickiFM: as long as you're in them

She signed out. God she looked beautiful. I missed her so much it made me feel sick.

"Jeez Frank you can't even wait until were in the bus." Gerard laughed

"Sorry man, hey pass me a beer."

"I am guessing she's gone."

"Yeah she had to go to bed early."

"Sucks man."

"Well our tour is almost over."

"What are you two going to do? I mean she lives in California while you're all the way across the nation in New Jersey."

"I've been avoiding that subject."

"Frank she is gonna bring that up."

"I know."

"Do you have any ideas?"

"Well I could visit her as much as possible."

"You know as well as I do that's not going to work."

"I know its just I cant have her move she has so much on San Fran but I cant leave New jersey either."

"Well man your going to need to figure your shit out."

This was an issue I really knew was going to come up one day but I had been putting it off. I'm not happy not seeing her and being able to touch her but I couldn't make her move. I knew long distance was difficult but I never thought it would be this hard. I took a swig of my beer and set down my laptop. Just because she was going to bed early doesn't mean I would have to. I'm a rock star my whole career is a party. Most of the time the guys and I would have a little fun backstage then be jetted off to our next venue. Luckily it was only two more venues until I would go back and visit Nicki. She was always in my dreams. We would have long lengthy conversations and I would be able to feel her soft angelic skin and kiss her sweet lips till god knows when. Am I in love?

Her face was the only one I wanted to see. Her voice sounded like a choir of angels to me. Her touch sent tingles up my spine. When I thought of the rest of my life she was there. God I am a foolish man in love.

We had a show two shows in Seattle then I would be back to her.

The shows were like normal except Nicki hadn't logged on since that last time. I was a little worried. But I can calm down when I see her face, the guys had gone back to New Jersey but I was heading down to San Fran. I would be at her door in less than twenty minutes. I had told her roommate Zoey about my visit and she was going to keep it a secret from Nicki.

I knocked on the door.

Zoey seemed a bit odd to me. I has talked to her a couple times on the phone to plan my visit but seeing her peek one eye of the crack of the door and look me up and down for some reason made her seem stranger.

"Where's Nicki?"

"In her room."

"That works. Can I come in?"

"OH yeah sorry." She let me in.

"You wait here." She pointed to the spot right in front of Nicki's door and knocked.

"What Zoey?"

"I need help."

"With what?"

"Stuff."

The door opened.

"Frank!" she screamed and jumped on me attacking my face with kisses.

Then moved her lips to mine and kissed me like she had never kissed me before.

"I'm going to go to bed." Zoey said seeming a little grossed out.

"Well hello." Oh god don't tell me that's who I think it is.

Nicki stopped kissing me and looked down at her feet.

"Frank, Francis moved in."

"I can see that."

"Well I wasn't expecting you." he always sounded like he knew something I didn't. It crept me out.

"Our tour ended and I decided to come visit Nicki."

"I can see that. Well I will leave you to be."

"Where is he staying?"

"On the coach come on."

She pulled me into her room.

"Did you bring stuff?"

"Yeah I left it out there."

"How long are you staying?"

"The whole week."

"Why did you come here?"

"I wanted to see you. Boy aren't you full of questions."

"Sorry I have been so stressed lately."

She looked upset.

I cradled her jaw in my hand and kissed her. God I missed her tongue slipping into my mouth. I lean over her and he stops me.

"We cant."

"Oh, why?"

"Its that time of the month." I immediately catch her drift and sit up.

I sat next to her for what seemed and hour in awkward silence.

"We cant kiss?"

"I just feel bad I didn't mean to push something." She giggled

"You didn't push anything Frankie."

"Sorry I just feel-"she placed her finger in front of my mouth.

"I'm beat, so why don't you go get your stuff and I will get changed into something more comfortable."

Why couldn't I just sit here and watch her?

Well if I rush I might catch something. I practically ran out into the living room to grab my bag. Thank god Francis didn't catch me.

I threw my bag into her room and sat on her bed undressing myself into my boxers.

I needed to get comfortable too.

I threw my clothes over to were my bag ended up and pulled the sheets over me.

She was down to her bra and panties.

Watching her change was probably not a good idea since I wasn't getting any but it was too late.

Shit way too late.

She pulled on a tank top and a pair of sweat pants then climbed into bed with me.

Cuddling close to me.

Shit.

I moved away I didn't want her to notice how much of a perv I am.

"Frank what's wrong?"

"I uh-. I shouldn't have uh, well I shouldn't have been,." I couldn't put out a full sentence.

But I think she got my drift from the evil smile spread across her face.

"I can fix that." I got off the bed and headed towards the bathroom.

But she pulled me onto her lap and started kissing my neck.

"Its my fault let me fix it."

She pulled my head back to reach my lips and started kissing my and massaging my crotch through my boxers.

She was even more perfect than I thought. I was so confused with all of the pleasure I couldn't choose which to focus on until she pulled me out of my boxers and started to stroke gently.

"You have to try to be quite, Francis is a light sleeper and right outside that door."

He lips traveled back onto my neck. I couldn't help but moan a little. She moved her mouth back to mine to stop me. Her fingers gliding up and down my member drove me crazy. I don't know what she did but it sent shivers up my whole body. She kept going until I came all over her hand. She gently kissed my check and started to get up from under me but something came over me and I grabbed her hand licking every finger clean.

She crawled out from under me and just ran to the bathroom.

"Babe, are you okay?"

"Go away!" she sounded like she was crying

"Nicki did I do something wrong?"

"Yeah you didn't go away. Just go to sleep."

"No, not until you tell me what's wrong!"

"Why do you care?"

"Because I love you!" this isn't the way I wanted to tell her but it slipped out.

"No you don't!"

"Hey is everything okay in there?" I heard Francis at the door.

Maybe he could help.

"Francis we need help."

He opened the door.

"Where's Nicki?"

I pointed towards the closed door I was kneeling in front of.

"we were…Talking and she started crying and ran into the bathroom."

"Bull shit you were talking."

"We were."

"You need to tell me what you were actually doing with my sister so I can help."

"She was… giving me….a…. a um."

"Alright I think I get the jest of it."

He pulled open the door. Why didn't I think of that?

"Frank this might be awhile why don't you go watch TV."

I wanted to stay but I knew her brother could help her.

I sat in the living room waiting for Francis to say she was better.

God what did I do?

Was I to pushy?

God I never wanted to hurt her. I couldn't wait and tell her about my trip before I got horny.

I heard her door close.

"Frank?"

"Yeah."

"She went to sleep sorry about that."

"What happened?"

"You don't know?"

"Well I know she had a break down but why?"

"She has never talked about our family?"

"No."

"We grew up with a lot of hard ships out father died so our mom moved here to from Detroit. We had it good for awhile but then our mom went crazy and would beat Nicki saying she was too pretty. She would hit her face and starve her because she thought that Nicki was the reason she couldn't hold on to a boyfriend. When I turned 18 I took Nicki out of that house with me. We had to move into this house with ten other people and share a room. I had to get two jobs to pay for rent and her school so I was never there. She started dating one of the guys that lived there and sleeping in his room. So I was stoked that I had a room to myself not thinking what he was doing to her."

Francis started to tear up a little.

"What did he do?"

"He would force her to do things to him and if she said no he would beat her. This went on for a year until he broke her arm and I had to take her to the hospital. The doctors found her scars and bruises and connected the dots. I had to hear everything behind a two way mirror."

I started to tear up. God I couldn't stand hearing all of the horrors she has gone through.

"Hey man did you really say you love her?"

I felt my face turn a little pink.

"Yeah."

"So you're in love with my little sister?" he laughed

"Yep, I love Nicki."

"Well I approve."

Wow, I love Nicki.

I am in love with Nicki.

God it felt so good to say that.