The High School Sweetheart
Chapter Four
IPOV
I was just about to start explaining everything…when, wouldn't you know it, Sienna, of all people, barges in. Seeing both Sienna and Wanda in the same room, was one experience I never wanted. I had never told Wanda about Sienna because I never thought I would see her again. I thought when I fell in love with Wanda, my feelings for Sienna would completely disappear, and I thought they had, but seeing her now, I know I was only kidding myself. They were both staring at me, waiting for me to say something and every few seconds they would glance at each other out of the corner of their eyes. Sizing each other up.
"Well?"
Of course Sienna was the first to crack. She always was impatient, but I never minded. It's just who she was. I couldn't imagine hurting either of these gorgeous women, but I knew I would have to.
"I don't really know what to say." I said truthfully.
"Ian? Why don't you start by introducing us?" Wanda said shyly.
"I guess that's a good place to start. Wanda, this is Sienna, she was my high school sweetheart and we never officially broke up. The last time I saw her was three years ago on September 10th. The next day, my mom, dad, and sister's body's showed up to turn us is. Kyle and I had to run. I thought I would never see her again, unless she was a soul. No offense." I explained.
"None taken. I understand. You still love her. I'll go find someplace else to sleep tonight and you'll never have to see me again." Wanda said.
"WHAT?! NO! Wanda, yes I still have some feelings for her, but that doesn't mean I stopped loving you!"
"Um, excuse me. Not to interrupt this whole confession thing, but you still haven't introduced me to her." Sienna interrupted.
"Sienna, this is Wanderer or Wanda. She came here a year and three months ago in Melanie's body. Three months ago she was inserted into this body. When she was taken out of Mel's body, she was planning to die." I gave Wanda a look that told her it still hurt me to think about her leaving. She looked down, feeling guilty. "Jamie, Mel, Jared, Jeb, mainly everyone that lives here, especially me, couldn't let that happen. We fell for her. I fell in love with her." I explained.
"WHAT?! You fell in love with a soul, a parasite, a worm?!" Sienna was furious and I could tell by the look in her eyes, she was hurt.
"Don't call her that. She is a beautiful person." I emphasized. Wanda looked at me sweetly, but shyly.
"Ian! How can you say that? They took over our planet, our homes!" Sienna yelled.
"They may have, but it wasn't Wanda's fault. She didn't really have a choice. Yes, at first I wasn't fond of her," I said, ashamed, "but that was before I got to know her. Sienna, I don't want to hurt either of you, but the truth is, I love both of you."
I knew Sienna would be angry, so I looked at Wanderer. It killed me to see the hurt in her eyes. She wouldn't meet my gaze which just hurt me all the more, but I deserved it.
"So, what? You expect us to fight for your love or what?" Sienna asked.
"NO! Of course not. I…I just need time. I'm sorry. I don't even know how to explain how much this is killing me to hurt you two like this."
"Ian, I don't want you to be hurting. I just want you to be happy. So, for now I guess I'll go sleep in Lily's room or something. I'll give you your time." Wanda said. Of course it was Wanda. She was so caring and loving. But, right now, I couldn't tell her I chose her because I still love Sienna. God, this was going to be impossible to choose.
"Oh my gosh. I've gotta go find Shane." Sienna said.
"Who's Shane?" I asked, because if she had a boyfriend, she had absolutely no reason to be mad at me.
"My son. Your son. Our son."
I could feel my face drain of all color. I had a son! I didn't want to look at Wanda. I knew she was shocked like me and I knew she would be hurt. Suddenly, she jumped up and ran out the door, sobbing her eyes out. I wanted to get up and run after her. Take her in my arms. But my legs wouldn't move. They were frozen. The other half of me wanted to go find…my son. It was hard for me to think the word. Sienna took Wanda's place by my side and waited for me to say something. I finally found my voice and asked, "How…how old is he?"
"A little over three years. I found out the day you disappeared."
"Oh." I know it was a lame response, but I didn't know what else to say.
"Did you wanna come with me to find him?" she asked.
"I don't think I can move right now. I need time to process this and think everything through." I explained.
"Ok." And that was all she said. She got up and walked out the door.
How could I have a son?
Why didn't I go find him? To meet him?
How could I hurt Wanda like that?
These questions just kept floating around in my head. Over and over. I didn't know if my having a son with Sienna would effect my decision over who to choose. I mean, I had to be a good father, and didn't that mean being with his mother? But then what would happen to Wanda? Would she leave to go to another planet? Would she find someone else to love? Or worst of all, would she get Doc to help her kill herself?
No. I wouldn't let that happen. Wanda was not going to leave me like that again. But what if I left her? I would want her to be happy. I would want her to move on. Be with someone else. The thought of her in someone else's arms agonized me. But I do still love Sienna. I wouldn't want her in anyone else's arms either. My head spun with unanswered questions. My stomach growled, but I ignored it. I didn't want to see Wanda or Sienna. I didn't want to see my child. I wasn't ready for that. And I knew if I went I would feel Jared and Mel, maybe even Jamie, glaring at me. I would stay in my cave until I made a decision. No matter how long it took.
AN: Well, what did everyone think? I tried to make it longer. In my notebook it was four pages long so I hope that means something lol. I have my outline for the fifth chapter but I still have to write it but I still have a week till school(ugh) so hopefully I'll have a few more chapters up before then. Keep reading and reviewing. :)
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