So Cold
By: Chaosticsoul
Genre: Angst
Paring: undecided. Still. Possible Akito/Hatori. Possible Akito/OFC the maid.
Summary: "Who is sad? Everyone owes me their lives. They want me to go as soon as possible."
Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket. If I did Akito would stay a guy, Haru, Ayame and Ritsu would not even be considered straight and the ending would not have been cliché.
Warnings: Insanity, angst, mutilation, self mutilation, death, twisted relationships
Part: 2/?
Staring into the mirror he hated what he saw. So pale and weak. Darkness under his eyes from lack of sleep. Bruises on his form from 'accidents.' A bruise from dripping there, one form banging into the sink there. It was not a conscious decision, his pride would not allow himself to be so frail and bruised on purpose, but subconsciously he needed the pain. It gave him another focus besides what was caused by the curse.
He had removed his kimono, the fabric pooled around his feet, and so he continued to inspect his body as the tub filled with hot water, almost scalding. A finger ran over his arms, inspecting the smoothness. There were no scars. Of course not. His legs, his thighs, they were where he would vent his anger. Arms could be seen easily, and to show he was so weak as to slice into his own skin . . . it was a humiliation he would not abide by.
So instead he would slice into the flesh on his legs. They were covered by the kimono, so the red lines and white scars weren't noticed.
Control.
It was all about control.
Control the curse robbed him of. Control he desperately clung to in any way he could get it. He had the power to harm himself, bring himself almost to the point of death and then, with his own will, save himself from it.
And he could control the lives of those around him. Like the servant boy. Akito had the power, the control, the will. He could bring someone seconds from death and then either save them or push them over the edge. They were helpless against him.
Finally he turned from the mirror and walked to the tub, slipping under the water ad then turning it off. Pale skin soon was flushed red from the heat but he simply relaxed in it. His muscles, tense with pain and stress, began to relax slowly as he closed his eyes and breathed deeply.
Resting in the tub he didn't leave it until the water had turned icy. Only then did he clean himself and step out, trying to ignore the pain of his body as he dried off and then dressed in a fresh kimono. Running a hand though his hair he sighed softly. Looking in the mirror he sneered before slamming his hand into it, not caring as shards of glass embedded in his hand or scattered the floor.
Akito wanted to break the reflection but all he had done was distort it more. Twenty pairs of eyes looked at him from the shards still stuck in the mirror, each one seeming to show how pathetic and weak he was.
You're no god they taunted.
You're just a weak little fool. Soon you'll be dead. Soon everyone will be happy. Poor weak little Akito.
"Shut up" he whispered.
Now now, you know it's true. Poor weak miserable Akito, can't even manage his family or his pain, you would be—
"SHUT UP!" he screamed, hurling a brush at the mirror and shattering what was left of the glass.
-TBC-
To yaoisux . . . nevermind: xD it's fine. He's going to be bi and my story, most likely having lovely twisted relations with a female maid as well as some members of the zodiac. Not all of these relationships will be sexual though. And I suppose there are if they cross dress x3
To Amethyst: I'm going to be taking a look at your stories later! And a maid brought him his meal, though whether the OFC maid or not I'm not sure. She'll probably be showing up chapter 3 or 4. And I make my chapters short so I can update everyday I can make long chapters but then it takes weeks to update x.X And he's 19 in here. Don't yet know if I'm going to have Tohru.
To Koway: Yes. Quite insane. That's what makes Akito awesome.
To Shig-Shig: Aww, your so sweet Yea, Akito's mind is like a bit twisted and dark, ne?
To Snipergrrl: Short chapter frequent updates. Glad you liked
-.- god this is too much work to answer replies.But I love you all for them!