Fragments of You and Me
Chapter 3: A Blank Canvas
This fanfic contains Yaoi, Shonen Ai, BOYxBOY so leave if you dun like.
(DeiTobi and KakaTobi)
Kakashi stood there, eyes met with Obito's, he stood there, disbelieving. Obito was dead, he was sure of it. He reached a hand out and Tobi flinched as it landed on his cheek. Tobi jumped back, confused and looked at Kakashi. "Nanidayo!?" He yelled at the silver-haired Nin, backed up against a tree looking less and less fierce. Kakashi touched his face again, stroking it as if to make sure it was really there. He grasped the raven haired hands and asked eyes prickling, "Is it really you?" Tobi I pushed out of the embrace. "What are you talking about!?" He growled angrily, for only Senpai could hold him like that. Kakashi felt the happiness in his heart evaporate as he saw the blank gaze he received from the other ninja. "Don't you remember me?" Kakashi said bewildered, voice desperate. Tobi looked at him and a repeated echo sounded in his head. Do you remember me? Tobi felt something nudge him inside, like, he knew it was this person, but didn't know him.
Kakashi stepped closer, eyes desperately searching for some sign of recognition from Tobi, but receiving none. Only a look of blank confusion that had their own story. One that didn't include him. Tobi stepped back. He hated the look in Kakashi's eyes. The look of hurt disappointment. He wanted to know, but something held back the words that danced teasingly on the tip of his tongue. Kakashi longed to run to him, but he knew he wasn't going to be hugging Obito. He would be embracing a complete stranger. "Don't look at me like that!" Tobi said, taking his katana in his hand. He struck out blindly at Kakashi, but all he did was graze the front of his jacket. "So… you really don't know who I am, huh?" Kakashi mourned, voice yearning for a no.
Tobi turned away. "I… I don't… I can't… even really remember who I am…" his voice began to crack towards the end. It didn't matter how high pitched or squeaky he made his voice, you could tell that he was repressing his feelings all the time. It was like his heart was whispering it's ach to you, for your help. Hot tears leaked down his face and he wiped them stubbornly away, but they kept coming, refusing to stop cascading down his pale skin. Kakashi made a move to comfort him, but Tobi spat at him. "I don't need your sympathy!!" And he turned and ran. He needed to get away from those eyes… Hungry eyes… Eyes too much like his own…
Tobi ran until he was out of breath and kneeled down and sobbed in his hands. Why couldn't he remember? Why did it have to be him? Usually Deidara was there to help him during his times of break downs, but Senpai wasn't there this time. Tobi knew Senpai would be cross with him. He wiped away the rest of the lingering tears away with his sleeve and felt warm arms wrap around him from behind. It was a familiar feeling… Like something from a faded photograph. "O… Obito…" Kakashi murmured again, hugging Tobi tight. The raven haired nin broke down again. "I'm NOT OBITO DAMN IT! I'm Tobi, TOBI!!" and he shoved Kakashi away, fuming. Tears spider-webbed down his face, leaving damp trails in their wake. Kakashi ignored the shove and grasp Tobi in his arms tighter, then did something Tobi could NEVER forgive.
Kakashi kissed him.
Full on the lips.
It was like an adrenaline rush for Kakashi. And another metal collapse for Tobi! The raven haired nin collapsed in tears while Kakashi pressed their lips tighter together. "DON'T TOUCH ME!" Tobi screeched when they broke away, but Kakashi held him tighter. No one, ever, EVER did that to him. Other than Senpai. Kakashi lifted his face up and bent down to kiss him again. As much as Tobi physically resisted, his mentality gave in. It… feels good to be needed… he thought as the tears came and caught on his long lashes. "Why… Didn't you… pull away that time?" Kakashi smiled when they broke apart again for air. Tobi pondered that question too. Yes, why… Why didn't he resist this perverted creep? Tobi turned his face away from Kakashi. "Y-you just caught me b-by surprised… I didn't think you'd kiss me twice…" and he felt a faint blush drift across his cheeks. Kakashi held his shoulders and looked at his face again. "If it's not me who has your heart now, who is it?" Tobi looked to the side. "Y-you don't even know me, so why should you care?" His emotions began to crash together making an emotional torrent inside of Tobi's heart. Anger because he didn't remember anything, and sorrow because he couldn't. He felt so hallow and empty, like a blank canvas. Kakashi tried once again to kiss Tobi, but he covered his mouth with his hands. "Don't touch me. I don't even know you… Please… Stop doing this to me…" and tears dripped down his face. "Please stop… because… my heart hurts… because… I don't know why I love you!" Kakashi kissed his lips softly. "It's… okay… I'm here now…"
Why did he feel so happy inside? And he felt so… Terrible at the same time… He looked down at the raven haired's head. Tobi was so pure, so innocent yet… To unstained, too pure… Like shadows playing with the light. Teasing him. He didn't deserve this new Obito, but this new one needed him…. Needed him to fill in the spaces… But part of him still resisted. This one already loved someone… Already loved another… Heart always belonging to… Deidara… But then he stopped him self. When did he become so self fish? When had he fallen in love with Obito? And… Why did he still love him? After the death… No, it was… the festival…
Tobi sniffled as he allowed himself to be held by Kakashi. He had his forehead against his sturdy chest. He loved being held like that… But… He… He wanted Senpai to save him… Oh, what he wouldn't give to have Senpai with him now, not this psycho pervert.