A/N Here is the long awaited chapter 5. Thank you for all your reviews. You will have chapter 6 as soon as I have 15 reviews. Enjoy.

Upon the Horizon

Ch.5 The Lullaby

Anthony walked through the door with a huge smile on his face, he was such a happy little boy and he looked like a mini Edward, which was a wonderful and terrible thing. I love my son but it's hard sometimes to see Edwards face in Anthony's all the time.

The Cullen's showed up at three o'clock as they said they would without Edward. Anthony seemed a little over whelmed by the many strange faces staring at him.

"Mamma who are all of these people, why are they here?" Anthony asked shakily.

"Um sweetheart these are mommies friends don't worry they won't hurt you. They just want to talk to you and play with you. Ok." I said reassuringly to my son.

"Ok but mamma that one" he said pointing at Emmet. "looks really, really scary." At that the whole room started to crack up. But I quickly sobered up to reassure my son.

"Sweetie I promise you that at Emmet will not hurt you he is like on very, very big teddy bear. And I am cretin that there is not one person in this room who doesn't love you with their whole heart you are completely safe here . . . this is your family." As I said it I realized it was true they were his family.

"Oh Bella." Esme breathed.

"Yeah kid we won't hurt you we all think your pretty special and we like you a lot." Emmet said trying to make Anthony feel better. He really was a teddy bear.

"Yeah and let's be honest we all know Emmet is like five years old he just looks like he's eighteen." Rosalie added.

"Hey I'm at least ten." Emmet said in his defense. The whole room started laughing again.

"Let's all sit on the couch and talk." I said still laughing.

"Anthony what do you do for fun?" Carlisle asked like the grandfather he was in a lot of ways to Anthony or that he would be once Anthony had a chance to get to know him. I could tell they were all going to start asking questions. They were curious.



"Well I like to draw, paint, read and hang out with my family we all have so much. Every two weeks we go on hunting trips and mamma always tells me stories before I go to bed. She's the best mom ever." He said smiling up at me. If I were human I would have been blushing because of his compliments but instead I just kissed the top of his head.

"What are the stories about that she tells you?" Alice asked curiously. She must have wanted to know if any were about her.

"Mamma tells me about here old family and about this guy who tried to kill her and how her friends saved her life just in time that is my favorite." He said not knowing the people in this room were the ones who had saved my life.

"Anthony these are my friends from the story there the ones who saved me."

"Wow really that's so cool that story is awesome. Which one of you sucked out the venom stuff out because that was like the coolest part?" As Anthony asked that question I realized that one of the people who loved him most was missing. Edward may not love me but I know he loves Anthony how could he not. Even if I didn't want to admit it Edward was Anthony's father and Edward had never really met his son and yet I knew he loved Anthony. How could I stop my son from knowing his father? I couldn't. So I got up.

"Where is Edward?" I asked. I had to go and get him.

"He's out side he didn't really want to be too far away or to break the promise he made you." Jasper said speaking for the first time. Jasper must have known how what I said to Edward had hurt him and it came out in his voice.

"Ok." I said on my way out the door. There he was slouched down on the wall with his eyes closed in the hall way he looked as if it had been months since he had last hunted, which oddly I had not noticed before. He must have been deep in thought because he didn't look up when I got to him.

"I was wrong Anthony is your son you should be able to know him and love him. What I said yesterday was selfish and so was not telling you I was pregnant even if I was upset and hurt and betrayed; he is your son." I needed to shut up what I had just said was pissing me off and that was probably not a good thing. He just stared at me for a minute he looked utterly confused by what I said. Then his face went smooth (and gorgeous) and he stood up still staring at me.

"Thank you." He said following me back to my apartment.



"Anthony sweetie can you come here I want you to meet some body." Anthony was there in an instant. (He could give some full grown vampires a run for their money he was so fasted.)

"Who is it mamma?" He asked with a huge smile on his face.

"Anthony this is the one who sucked the venom out on me . . . this is your father." Those words sounded so corny coming out of my mouth and my God I had no idea how he was going to react to this.

"Mamma I thought that he left us and that he did not want us . . . why is he here?" Anthony asked clearly referring to all the times I had said Edward had left me and that we did not need him. Out of the corner if my eye I saw Edward flinch as if Anthony's words caused him physical pain. Well it served him right his leaving had caused me a lot of physical pain.

I leaned down to be at eye level with him. "Honey he left me not you and I think that you should get to know him because I know that he would never leave you ok. Just because he doesn't love me doesn't mean that he doesn't love you. I never really gave him the chance to. So be nice and forget what I said just talk to him." I needed him to understand but he is four and a half there is only so much he can. And now I'm going back on everything I've ever told him. "Now go over on the couch and play nice with him, Anthony."

I was so tense from the stress of what I had just done. Then I felt a wave of cam go through the room and I nodded my head at Jasper in hanks.

"So Anthony do you like to play sports?" Edward asked he was so nervous, so out of place and yet that is really where he should have been all along next to his son.

"Yeah Felix, Alec, Dimitri and I play sports all the time. Most of the time we wrestle and they tackle me to the ground it is so much fun. They never let me win they always say that is they let me win it would make me go soft." Anthony said he seemed to be worming up to Edward which was good.

"What do you want to be when you grow up?" Edward asked it seemed like he was trying to ask the questions to things he would have known if he had been here. . . he was making up for lost time. Or so I guessed.

"I want to be like mamma I want to be a doctor and a scientist. Mamma does the coolest stuff but she is always upset when her experiments don't work." Anthony replied.



"What's your favorite color?" Emmet asked.

"Black is my favorite color?"

"Wow just like Edward; weird." Emmet replied with a low chuckle.

"Ok for the thousandth time black is not a color." I told them all. I had been telling Anthony that black was not a color since he first decided that a year ago. When I was with Edward I would tell him the same thing. Like father like son.

"Yes it is!" Edward and Anthony both said at the same time.

"Fine whatever I give up on you two." I said smiling.

Four hours later. (Nothing really happened.)

"Anthony sweet heart its eight o'clock time to get ready for bed. Don't worry you and Edward can play again tomorrow." I said smiling at the two of them they looked good together. They looked right.

"Ok, good night I'll see you tomorrow." Anthony said to the rest of the Cullens who were still sitting on the couch.

"Go on I'll come in and tuck you in; in a minute ok. I just had to talk to Edward for a minute." He ran off into his room and I stared at Edward. God I had missed him but he didn't need to know that he just had to know his son. "So what do you think of him?"

"He is amazing not that I expected many thing less" I had to smile at that Edward seemed to really love Anthony and why shouldn't he Anthony is a great kid. "Anthony is a lot like you." And at that I just rolled my eyes.

"Mamma are you coming?" Anthony screamed from his room.



"Yes baby Edward and I are coming." I said smiling at Edward. "Come on Edward you're his dad I think you should get to do this . . . besides I think he's starting to like you."

"Yeah I think he might like me too but do you like me?" He asked with one eyebrow raised.

Yes God dam it I love you with my whole heart. And I really wanted to say it but I couldn't I could not be weak I would not be weak. So I said . . . "No but I can tolerate you for Anthony's sake. Not that it really matters to you any way." Did he honestly expect me to not be pissed that he had left did he think that he was forgiven . . . far from it he was going to have to be really, really good if he wanted me to like him much less trust him. But love him I had never stopped; not that it mattered he didn't love me any way.

"Of course it matters to me Bella." He said raising his hand up to my face but he wasn't dumb enough to put it to my face no Edward maybe many things but he was not stupid. God knows what I would have done to his hand had it come even a fraction of an inch closer.

I walked in to Anthony's room leaned over and kissed him on the forehead. "I love you. Sleep well." I saw Edward go over and sit on the rocking chair in the corner. Then he did it . . . he started to hum; hum my lullaby. I tried to be strong but that I could not handle of all the things in the world I could not survive hearing that lullaby. So I walked . . . no I ran out of the room.

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