Chapter 5- Love's Sweet Air

Gibbs

She left her journal with him, he couldn't believe it; he knew he would finally get to the bottom of what was bothering her besides the obvious. So he made himself comfortable in the only place it seemed right to read something so private, in his basement with his boat. He slowly opened the journal a little excited but scared at the same time. He turned to the first page, just staring at the words Abby had written, he knew if he didnt start reading soon he would never do it. So he just read, letting her thoughts overtake his own.

April,23 2008- Your name is Earl :)

This had got to be the stupidest thing I've ever done. Writing in a journal, who would of thought that little old me would need a journal. But this is the only way I can be myself. I very well cant spend all my time talking to Bert can I? Now that would make me silly, you don't even know who Bert is do you? Well, how do I explain him? He is my best friend; and he is a farting hippo and I love him so much. I guess that really is my problem, I can love something so simple as Bert but I cant bring myself to tell the person I really love, how I feel. Alot has happened to me in these past 3 weeks, for starters I was kidnapped. Yeah, go on and say it, you dummy. Believe me I say it to myself everyday. Alot happened to me while I was kidnapped alot I cant remember and alot I can. It scared me more than anything being away from the people I love, but I would have traded it all just for one person to grab me up in a hug and tell me they love me. That person is... well I guess I can tell you

He felt his heart jump in his chest.... Please God let it be me...

its not like you can run and tell him. His name is Leroy Jethro Gibbs, and he is

He felt a smile come across his face.. so she did feel the same way.

My boss and my best friend (that is alive), he means so much to me but I let him down in the worst possible way. I let my fear play against me, and I thought bad things about him. I cant even face him without remembering what I thought. I was so mad at him for letting this happen to me, but I didnt mean it honest Earl. I love him with every beat of my heart. I was so scared I was gonna die and even know I can't believe I was mad at him. After all he did find me, but I was so scared if he ever found out that he would hate me. I just cant live without him Earl, you understand don't you? My whole life I ve had to fight for everything I've ever wanted and I just dont want to fight anymore, with Gibbs I don't have to do that. He is my guardian angel, Ive never had anyone care for me like he does. I just hope he doesn't hate me. Yeah I know I was raped, and it is still sensitive for me, but you know what? I think I'll be okay on that front, I know itll take time but I dont even want to try without Gibbs. I hope he understands that I'll never be the same, I need him to tell me he doesn't hate me. I can deal with the rape, and the kidnap, but i certainly can't live without Gibbs; I refuse to. My life would have no meaning without him. I just hope he realizes this and soon. So long for now love Abs

He let the journal (Earl) slip out of his hands, flabbergasted by what he just read. He couldn't believe Abby thought he hated her. He loved Abby and he would have to prove it to her. He knew there was more in her journal but he had read enough to get the bottom of her pain. He had an idea, but he had some shopping to do. He grabbed his keys and Earl, and left the house; getting into his car, putting Earl on the front seat. He was pretty sure this would work he just hoped she could forgive him for being so naive.

Abby

It had been at least 4 hours since she had left Earl with him. LOL she couldn't believe she named her journal. But it was her after all, she would be suprised if she didn't. Bert was sitting on the couch, she picked him up giving him a squeeze, he could always make her feel better, even when all she wanted to do was get in her coffin and forget everything that had happened. Today was actually one of her better days, she hadnt had a dream and a while, and she was giving people hugs again. She thought she was finally coming back into her own. She knew he was reading her journal, and she couldn't help but feel guilty. Her thoughts and feelings were out in the open, were she couldn't get them back and hide them from him. There was nothing like telling someone your feelings and waiting for an answer. (In her case reading feelings). It was kinda like the pit og her stomach was going to fall out. She felt fine physically, but emotionally she was a wreck, and not because of everything that had happened. It was because she needed to know. God it was driving her crazy, it was like waiting for Christmas she needed to know now! But then again she didn't want to know. What if he told her he didn't love her? She didn't know if she could handle it. She had lost so much already, she couldn't loose him too. Then she heard a soft-knock on the door, she went to get it and there was Gibbs holding a big square box with a red bow. She couldn't hide the giant smile on her face. As he walked in she closed the door behind him.

Does anyone what to know what Gibbs got Abby to make her feel better? hahaha you'll have to wait... i promise it wont be long. :) reviews!! now I command you!! lol j/p only if you want but they will be appreciated