title: Give Me My Dignity
pairing: AnzuxYYuugi (slight ShizukaAnzu)
summary: "Its too have a sensation so complete, that its better and so destroying. It destroys you... beautifully."
rating: M
notes: Written for Computerfreak101's Yu-Gi-Oh! Crack Pairing Competition. Written listening too "Give Me Sympathy/The Hooks" by Metric.
standard disclaimer applies.
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Twist, twist, spin, fall, fell, going down...
down
down
down
it was all sorta,
...falling apart.
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She looked up with those eyes, (wideeyes - seeingeyes - forgettingeyes) just take a glimpse, a moment, to remember, to hope and to breath.
She was a girl in love and love was warm and sweet (ohsopainful), oh so sweet.
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Sweet, kinda like blood on her lips.
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She clung to his shoulders, he was stiff against her when she pulled him to her. She took his hand, putting it to her thigh, the tips of his (softpliablequickoutofreach) fingers just under her skirt.
"I-is this what you want?" She pushed his hand in harder. "C-cause I read, I read that - "
She felt his head drop against her shoulder, his spikey (sosososoft) hair brush her face, a breath down her neck and chest, the fingers pressed harder of their own accord. She made some noise, quiet noise, that showed that she (didn'tdidn'tdidn't) wanted this.
"I read that women in Ancient Egypt, they," the fingers, involuntarily maybe, moved just a inch higher, "they didn't put a-any importance on th-this kind of thing."
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She kept staring, up he had a halo around his head, gold black and dark dark red.
"Beware of the ones that have dreams Anzu,"
"Why mama?"
"They'll love their dreams, not you."
She could only stare and know she wasn't good enough.
It didn't matter if that halo fell around his feet, she'd wait, always wait and watch (andhopeandprey) and help (andpickupthathalocausethenhewouldnotice).
He could be her redemption.
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The fingers dug hard and his breath was fast on her neck, she tried desperately for any reaction from him. (pleasepleaseplease)
"Anzu,"
it was her turn to go stiff, because it was it was it was -
(wrongohsowrong)
- he acknowledged her.
It would have to do. Her fingers gripped his shirt, she pushed her lips against his.
Whatever she felt it wasn't what the books said, it was not this.
This was not hot, there was no fire works, no sparks, nothing like that. It was just sensations.
That was more than what she needed, his lips moved against hers once, twice and she moved back. She sighed, "I'm so, so, so close."
"Why do you want this Anzu?"
She took a step back from him.
"I just want... I – I..." she turned around and crossed her arms to her elbows. "I just wanted to want. I wanted you to want me and – is that so bad?"
"...No, but in a way yes. To give into those selfish wants. "
Anzu's head dipped. "Give me my dignity." she muttered.
"I'm human, pharaoh, and I want you, and I – I'd do it again, because I care for you and I dont know another way to show you. Maybe friendship is enough for you, but I dream about you, I hope for you and I pray for you, I'd die for you and yet, and yet... Aren't we just as selfish for each other? Please can't we be a little selfish, just this once, we aren't so different you and I. I'm... I'm in love with you and you are in love with your dream and I can't be your dream, but I'm just as real aren't I? Why aren't I enough?"
"Anzu" he took a step closer and she grabbed his shirt, pulling him close, she tripped on her feet taking the step backwards, they both hit the ground. His arms braced awkwardly near her head, legs caught. Anzu cringed, it was so cliché so she turned her head away.
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"Anzu?"
"Yes Shizuka?"
"What's it like, to um, kiss?"
Anzu smiled. "Its to have a sensation so complete, that its better and so destroying. It destroys you... beautifully."
Shizuka blinked. "Beautifully destroyed?"
Anzu nodded, patting the seat beside her. Shizuka moved closer, Anzu leant over and braced a hand on her thigh (letherfeelfeelfeel).
"Its like him, he hurt to make things better." she murmured to the younger girl, who seemed affected by Anzu's closeness.
She turned her face away, up there was Kaiba and Yuugi dueling. Anzu sighed, her fingers tightening on Shizuka's leg just a little.
"Don't fall in love with men who have dreams Shizuka, they love their dreams and not you, and you'll get destroyed with them." She whispered into her hair above her hair, feeling the girl shiver against her. "It'll be beautiful, till it ends." Anzu pressed her lips to the side of the other girls lips. "Give ourself you dignity."
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