Well, I really was a surprised by the last chapter, but what I write always surprises me.

Sorry for the late update, my wrist have been killing me and I might have carpal tunnel so I have to be extra careful when I type up stuff for now on.

This chapter is more of a narrative of the past so; it's all through Yami's POV. But near the end will be through regular POV, this is going to be a long chapter so just sit back and relax while Ri-chan ruins your brain.

The title is of one of my favorite MCR songs, so I don't own that.

On with the fic.

Bottled Up Gods

Chapter Eight: Mama

There's a song that I like, it's kinda dark and Jou always thought that is sounds like a song you would listen to while on a dirt road in France during World War I. Well, to me, it's more of a promise threat.

Heh, what a weird thing to say, but it is true. I don't blame my mother for what happened but there are times that I have to blame her. If she had not left, then I wouldn't be stuck in this hell, and I wouldn't be having mental issues with myself.

I wouldn't have to lie to my friends and family and really, this is just serious bull shit! If you hadn't left, I would be a happy teenager again with big dreams of the future, but that is a fucking lie! I don't have dreams anymore! Just nightmares that turn out to be real!

This war with my mind and body has caused me to have this tongue that speaks these words and helps add more pain! Hiro has broken me to the point where not even the greatest gamer could put my shattered puzzle together!

But…

It's not really your fault for the shit that I've done with this fuck of a gun… heh, another mention from the song. How lovely and utterly pathetic of me to do such a thing, mum, do you know that I have cut my self and that I smoke?

Did you know I take pain meds to try and get through school?

Did you know that I've tried to drown myself three times this year?

Did you know that I tried to overdose?

Did you know that I tried to slit my throat?

Did you know that I have placed a gun into my mouth five times with one bullet in it, and after five shots I was still alive?

Did you know that I hate my very being and I wish that I was never born?

Well… I guess you didn't know since you are dead and your soul has long since left this world.

Do you remember that day? The day that changed me into this shadow of my former self?

I do.

…

"Were Mom and Hiro fighting again Nii-san?"

Looking up from my book, I noticed that Yugi was look at me from his desk. I nodded. "It was nothing important, just fighting over something stupid again I bet. I know that one day; those two will stop fighting for good."

Yugi smiled at me and nodded. "I really hope so, I don't like waking up and hearing them bickering back and forth like that."

"Me either."

The bell soon rang and me and Yugi left school, I went to go and walk home alone since Yugi had plans with Jou and the gang at the arcade. I walked home listening to my music and as the house came into view, I saw my mother outside. She was home earlier then expected, but that made me smile.

The light to cross the street changed so I could go, but I didn't expect what happened next.

"Yami!"

ERCHHH!

THUMP!

"AHHHHHH!"

A car had not seen the light change and was drive right toward me. I was frozen in fear before I came to a few feet away from where I was standing a second ago and I saw that my mum was on the ground bleeding and the car was gone.

The sounds I heard had images to them and the scream was my own as I ran over to her and started shaking her, trying to wake her up. "Mum! Please wake up! Don't die! Hiro!" I ran toward the house and saw that Hiro wasn't home do I dialed the emergency number.

The next three hours were a daze. All I know was that after I called the paramedics I called Yugi and he was now sitting next to me crying and holding our mother's hand along with my own.

I just sat there, probably with dazed eyes as the heart monitor started getting slower and slower on the beeps until we heard the dial tone of a stopped heart.

Her death was internal bleeding and a punctured lung.

I stopped crying the next evening after I passed out from dehydration.

Yugi was very quiet and wouldn't leave my side. I went to the coroner and asked for a vial of my mother's blood which he let me have. I still have it in my room on my dresser.

The funeral seemed like it was just a daze, I can't remember much of that but I remember sitting at the fresh grave with Yugi crying next to me.

I remember crying.

But I always remember when I cried after that day.

I remember Grandpa and Hiro fighting about the unfinished will. This ended up with a court case and with that simple act of misjudgment from the jury; my life had turned from bad to worse.

"We the juries agree that Mouto Yugi will be in the hands of Mouto Sugoroku. Mouto Yami will go on to live with Oni Hiro."

That was it, everything changed that day. Hiro sold my old house once Yugi moved out the next day and sent me the horrible place that I live in now. He made me set up my room while he got drunk. After I finished, he came in and started hitting me, blaming me for my mother's death and then…

He raped me.

Called me horrid names.

Punched and kicked me.

I ran out of the house after he had passed out. I ran straight for Yusei's and when he opened the door, I broke down and told him everything, everything that had happened. I soon fell asleep but the next morning Hiro came and forcefully took me from Yusei's and brought me back to the awful place where I had been violated.

He then threw me in a small and cramped closet and wouldn't let me out no matter how much I screamed and begged him not to do that, I kept saying I was sorry over and over.

He padlocked the door and I was scared. It was so dark and cold inside; it made me become claustrophobic and gave me a fear of being alone in the dark after a few months. The closet is always musky and it feels cold and wet inside.

Hiro locked me in for two days and when he opened the door I fell out and was so exhausted from lack of water, food, and clean air. But he didn't care.

He just handed me my backpack and sent me to school.

But he told me that if I ever told anyone about what he did and was going to do to me, he would shoot Yugi right in front of me.

I was scared, and I promised.

I remember the looks I was given, everyone was so worried. I could barely move without something in my body hurting or feeling really heavy. And then I began to pass out from dehydration and I remember seeing Yugi crying before it went dark.

I woke up later in the hospital, and Yugi asked me what happened. I told him that I was super tired and was wearing myself out with all that had happened.

He believed me.

That was the first of many lies that I had to tell just to keep my sweet Aibou alive.

And it wasn't the last.

Yami sat at a lunch table with Yusei and Kaiba sitting next to him, keeping an eye on the boy as he slowly ate his small lunch. After a few days from when he passed out in front of Kaiba, the taller boy had been trying to help Yami. First he got him to give up smoking, which was a littler hard but he knew it was for his own good.

Kaiba wanted Yami to stop with the pain medication, but he really needed to take those since he was still in pain. Yusei told him that Yami's doctor wasn't aware of the real reason that Yami needed them; he just knew that Yami had a lot of headaches that bothered him.

So far the stop smoking thing was doing okay, Yami was a little on edge because of that, but Kaiba said he would stop just to help Yami and the CEO was taking it fine, though his real addiction was Yami and coffee.

Hiro was still a problem, he wasn't aware of what Yami and Kaiba were doing along with Yusei and Jack, but he would find out one day when Yami actually starts to look better then he did now.

The red-eyed boy was still very then and Jack informed them that he was almost seventy-five pounds; a lot less then what he weighed a year ago and much less then what it was three years ago.

Jack placed Yami a special diet to at least get him to gain a few pounds until he was in the eighties. That would just be an easy start for Yami since they didn't want to make him sick.

Yusei was going to get him to eat at lunch and maybe get him to munch on something before school to help him. Right now he was working on some wheat bread and thin turkey lunch meat.

"Can you keep it down Yami?" Yusei asked softly, watching Yami chew slowly. They weren't going to force him to eat the whole thing but at least get past a third of it. Kaiba watched as well, taking in Yami's looks and keeping an eye on him in case if he got sick.

Swallowing, Yami looked at them. "I think so; it's still hard to eat like this since I haven't eaten much in the past few months. Hiro would barely feed me as it was so my stomach is still getting use to this again."

"Alright, don't eat too much if you know you can't love." Kaiba spoke softly, noticing that Yami blushed lightly under the nickname. Lately, Kaiba made it a habit to call Yami that since they were somewhat becoming lovers.

It was all new to Yami since this whole relationship-love was something he had never experienced personally; he had seen others in relationships, just not himself. And the only form of touchy-feely relationships he had experienced was violent and filled with rape.

And it happened many times a week, which was something he was hoping would end.

Yami placed the sandwich down on the table and looked at his friends and gave them a light smile. "You know guys, I'm really glad you care about me. But I'm not really worth your time and effort…" His smile was now a sad one.

"Yami, you mean a lot to the both of us! That's why we are doing this because you really are worth our time and effort! We don't want you to be sick all the time." Kaiba spoke as he took one of Yami's hands into his own, bringing it up to kiss it lightly. "You mean so much."

A small blush formed on Yami's face. "Seto…"

"Nii-san?"

Yami, Yusei, and Kaiba turned to see Yugi looking at them with a confused look on his face. "Is something wrong? Are you okay?" Yugi asked, worry was in his voice. He knew that things were going on in his twin brother's life and it was stuff Yami wasn't telling him.

The red-eyed brother frowned. "I'm okay Yugi, its nothing to worry about." He lied, hating himself for doing that. But instead of seeing Yugi nod as a reply, he saw that the boy was frowning and looking disappointed.

"You're lying again Yami. You've been lying to me for years. Why won't you tell me what's going on?! I want to help you! You look so sick and it's scaring me! I don't want you passing out in class again, it was bad enough the first time, but you've done it a few more time as well. I know Mom's death was hard to get over but you can't be killing you self over that!"

SLAM!

Everyone turned to look at Kaiba who had stood up from the lunch table and looked at Yugi, a dark look in his eyes.

"Yugi, he can't tell you. It's something that is bothering him that he has to fix on his own, and it's not just about what happened your mother, this is something more."

"You know about this too Kaiba? Why won't you tell me Yami? Please…" Tears came to his eyes as he looked his brother, whose head was in downcast position, not even looking at Yugi.

"Tell me when you think you can Yami… I know that something is wrong, I can see it in your eyes, please don't lie anymore okay? When you're ready to tell me the truth, I'll be waiting okay." He turned and was about to walk away…

"Aibou…"

Yugi turned to look at Yami who was looking at him. "I'll tell you soon, I promise."

TBC

Yes, Yami was very suicidal over the years, hence the mentions of the scars on his arms back in chapter two and three, but some of that was done by Hiro.

BTW, I never mentioned this but Yami and Yugi's really father is named Atemu. XD

Well… Yugi is now getting involved and we are going to be getting into the big climax of the story in just the next chapter, and I have been dying to put it in.

FINALLY!

I get to do the scene I've had in mind since the start of the story! YAY! But, I still have to get it prepared so next chapter will lead up to it! Be ready, Yami's going to be in horrible pain and torture over the next few chapters! (Wink)

Oh… poor Yami, don't worry, Kaiba and Yusei will be there for you… I hope.

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