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Chapter 2

Horrible Mistake?

The pain…

It was so much more horrible, no, worse than horrible, I couldn't find the right word to how bad this pain was and it got to the point where I begged for someone to kill me, in my mind, of course, because if I said it out loud, all I would do was scream. That's right, out in that field all I did for the seven hours before the paramedics arrived was scream, even after my voice became horribly hoarse! That's just how excruciating the pain was exactly, it was so bad none of us could process correctly and even with all six of us screaming our heads off, though Steph didn't scream, no one heard us. It was horrible! Seven hours with no medication to hold down the pain, but it did help to think this was possibly how the character in Twilight felt when he was possibly being changed. Yes, I knew it was silly to compare this experience with a fictional character, but it was all I had to make me focus on something other than the pain. For seven long hours I thought about twilight and did my best not to scream, even though I failed horribly, though when the paramedics came, we all started up again. They were moving our bodies, which was far more painful than someone moving someone with a broken spine, believe me, and not just any 'they' either, a big group of humans with their beautifully, alluring smelling blood! It was just as Edward had said, a bitter-sweet pleasure that we knew we could not partake in, but it was so hard not to want to, even though we were in so much pain!

There we were in such pain it was hard to do more than scream, but their scents still made us forget for a few seconds the changing pains, before it rushed back full force. Nothing we did stopped either response, and the paramedics were oblivious to both reactions as they drove the six of us to the hospital. On the ride was when we were all six injected with high doses of some kind of pain killers, well, not at first. When they noticed how we didn't react at all to normal doses, they added more and more until we passed out, I think. Well, either way, I passed out after some point, which was after all the others because I was the last to be injected until some point. That was all I could remember of that, but I did go into a sort of dark room within my mind, I believe. I stayed in that darkness for a while just staring at the wall and prayed to God that the pain wouldn't return like it had with those stupid people around me. Slowly, I began to have flashes into the waking world, but it wasn't ever a very good experience. We not only were a new species of vampires, as the guy had said, we also had to learn to control ourselves very quickly and without hurting anyone just out of fear of the idea of making some high group of vampires come after us. I mean, really, what would we do if, say, Aro came after us? We wouldn't be able to do a thing, because we have no control and he, along with a lot of his guards, have those special powers. How could we ever face a group like that? I guess, we could offer to have their kids, or not. That would be gross! Way past gross and I just couldn't handle losing my virginity to some million year old vampire! Besides, I already had someone special back home at college…Wonder how he's doing right now…

Opening my eyes, I could only wonder in silent wonder how many days it had been, but it had seemed like months to me with all the pain and restraint used so as not harm anyone. At least that's what I know I had been doing for all my waking times, but I hadn't been anywhere near the others, even when I opened my eyes. I was all alone in my hospital room, and I had no idea how any of the others were doing or even if they were alive. How was I to know? Forgetting everything for a moment, I realized just how right Bella was about how amazing the world was through the body of a vampire and couldn't help being amazed at the world around me. Everything was just so vivid and, well, beautiful, but not just beautiful, it was so much more than that! The bed felt like a royal feather bed, I could feel the metal of the needle in my arm which wasn't altogether painful since it was feeding my body the most delicious smelling blood, but my body felt absolutely gross. Then, the smells, the room smelled heavenly of blood, but horrid with medications of many kinds along with so many cleaning products that smelled more bad than good to my new nose. Most of all the lights were off within my room and I could see everything so perfectly that it took me a few moments to realize the lights were even off. No wonder my eyes didn't hurt when I first opened them, but the room was so beautiful even without my trying to look at details. How non detailed the normal human vision is to the beautiful details of the world! It's just downright amazing, really!

It was so much louder than it was supposed to be, a nurse was knocking and when she opened the door she must've seen the pained look on my face when she turned on the lights because she rushed to my side in a panic. Coming that close I felt my mind swim with her scent and the sound of her heart beating sure and strong. It was so intoxicating and hard to keep myself in check or from outwardly showing my intense hunger of her close proximity. How do vampires survive like this?!

"I'm alright," I said softly in my strange, new voice that sounded like music even with the strained edge to it, almost like a harp being played quickly and just gave her a smile as I layed back allowing my eyes to adjust to the lights. She nodded going about checking the machines, but this only left me to wonder how I looked to humans now with the change complete. Could I dazzle someone? It was still something I didn't quite understand, but wanted to test. If I smiled at a guy now would he become too dazed to speak?

"Everything is in order, Miss Dread, you are doing just fine now," the nurse said with a smile that I instantly recognized as one that was all too fake, but this Nurse-Sally-I-really-care could just go on pretending to care how I was until the end of time. It was a nice jester to, and I was thankful that she didn't openly resent me, that would be painfully rude. The only problem was, I didn't understand. Why did she seem to resent me at all? Was there something I did to her while in my little changing period?

"Thank you for all the time you've put into caring for me, I'm sure your wonderful help is what kept me alive through all that horrible pain. I don't think I'll ever be able to thank you enough," I said in a soft, thankful tone, oh so fake, and just gave her my shiest look, making it appear as if I was being truthful. She blinked surprised like, then suddenly broke into a sort of motherly smile, but I could only applaud myself for getting her to break down that rude exterior for me. Giving me an affectionate pat on the head, she turned leaving with another motherly smile, and I could only smile at this. Usually it would've taken me a while to get someone to break down their barrier, but it easily took me a few moments to get that woman to believe that I was really thankful to her, though I was, just not as much as she obviously thought. It made me wonder how Edward, from twilight once again, could have went through so much time without noticing that he dazzled people so easily and I could only giggle to my own thoughts. Letting my mind wander, I wondered how the others were doing, wondered how long it would be until I could return to my home in Ashville, North Carolina, and that's when all thoughts turned completely sourly sad. How could I forget THIS?! What was I going to tell my boyfriend? Would he even think twice about me if I didn't call him? Of course, we'd only been dating about eight months, but he was a really big part of my life. Sitting up, I looked down at my pale hands in silent horrific wonder and ignored the tears that began dripping silently from my eyes to the sheets atop me. How could I not think of all this drama being turned would cause? Giving a bitter cough of a laugh, I brought my curled fist to my left side of ribs in silent pain.

Jerking my head up, I glared harshly at the door being opened, wishing whoever was there would leave, but was quick to soften to a pitiful sad look at the sight of Echo. With a pathetic shrug, I looked back down at my lap and let the tears keep falling as I tried to think of a logical explanation for my tears. Glancing to my left, I gave Echo a smile as she climbed onto the bed with me, and layed down beside her leaning slightly on her shoulder, just letting all the tears fall. It must've been a while before I finally ran out of tears, but never once did she ask me questions, for that I would have to thank her for. It was always great to have a shoulder to cry on, though that thought hurt more because I may have just lost one of my strongest shoulders that I usually cried on. What was I going to do? I met him at my senior year of high school, he had the same classes as I did except for first hour, and I literally ran into him on my way to last hour, Algebra 2A. Being the sweet talker that he is, it didn't take him more than the class to talk me into having a drink with him at the Starbucks not far from our school and I could only shrug it off. Of course, I figured I was just some little fling type thing with him, but he was persistent, he didn't give up and he almost always wanted to be around me. Rain, shine, snow, ice, or pitch black outside, he wanted to be there for me, it didn't matter him if I was crying, smiling, or whatever and his persistent nature is what broke through to me. He talked, he listened, he laughed, and he was just always there for me, but it seemed unlikely that he would ever like me too. Within two months of just hanging out with me and being a great friend, while being understanding of how much I missed my previous best friend, Echo.

"Jan, you okay?…Don't worry, I'll always be here for you,"

"Why? Why would you wait for me? You could date anyone here, I know that,"

"No, thanks, Jan, besides, I like you. Call me, ya know, when you get back, and I'll come see you…Don't worry, Jan, really! I'm still going to be here and I'll still be yours,"

"Sorry. I don't mean to be so emotional, but…,"

"I know, Jan, don't worry. Besides, if you were always plain, you'd be a statue, and you always keep me on my toes! Besides, I love to make you smile,"

"I'll call you, I will! When I get back in two weeks, I'll call you, and don't you come after me to Indiana before two weeks time. As cute as your are, I don't want a pup like you running to find me,"

"Aww, that hurts, Jan! Whatever……I'll wait for you, like always and when you get back you are in for it for that comment,"

"Yeah, yeah, sure! Bye!,"

"Bye, Jan, I'll be seeing you,"

"Echo, what am I going to do? He'll never want to see me again when he figures out what I am, and I don't think I'll be able to handle being rejected by him," I explained rapidly as I stuffed my face into the pillow by her shoulder, and she just sighed at my dramatic nature. I'm not sure if it was what I'd said or the emotions in it that made her sigh, but she didn't seem angry when she touched my shoulder. How could I have ever lived without him? What in the hell was I going to do? With a sniffle, I pulled my head back to look up at Echo sadly and just blinked as she smiled at me.

"It's not that hard, Janine. When you get back, just don't call him and if he calls you or comes to see you, then he more than likely really cares about you. Who's really to say he has to know right now anyway? This guy can just find out later when you're sure, whatever his name is," she offered helpfully as I let my mind wrap around this idea and I let the simpleminded attempt of her to get me to spill his name drop. If I hadn't already told her, she wasn't going to learn it that easily, but then again, what was the point of keeping it from her for long. I layed back down next to her letting myself get comfortable as I tried to think over this plan, and I found the plan sounded solid. I would go back, like nothing was wrong, in a couple weeks, but not call him when I got there, I would lie and tell him I was ill if he calls me or comes to check on me. If he doesn't, well…I'd deal with that if the situation required.

Without warning to Echo, I leaned next to her ear and whispered what my boyfriend's name was and who I thought he was, and layed back where I'd been as her body remained stiffened a moment. When she relaxed, I could this all was going to get super complicated, but I just could only hope that our world's wouldn't get turned anymore upside down that they already were. With a sigh of relief, I felt the unconscious weight that had been on my shoulders with the secret vanish, and I just let my mind drift as sleep began to take it's hold on my tired body. I'm not sure if Echo slept when I did, only that I slept very well knowing that I'd told her.

Would this boyfriend really accept Janine or would he leave her for someone more into his species? How will Janine handle if she is rejected by him not calling or coming to see her? Read on next time and find out.

Next Chapter - Recovery Time

All This Written By - Darkness Angel of the Fallen

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I do apologize for this chapter being short also, but Echo isn't exactly within IMing distance and she is needed in writing this story, so bare with me until she gets home, alright?