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"Speaking"
'Thinking'
flash back
"Demon Speaking"
'Demon Thinking"
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Gaara was the first to speak, "You should go take a shower." he said as more of an order than a suggestion.
"Yes, Thank you" she replied bowing
"Stop bowing," Gaara ordered.
"Y-Yes, I'm sorry Gaara-sama" She said almost bowing again
She walked over to the stairs and began to walk up them slowly and painfully. Hotaru soon began to let tears of frustration and agony flow from her soft brown eyes and as Gaara watched her he could have sworn that the temperature in the house began to rise but he brushed it off as just the desert heat.
Suddenly Hotaru collapsed and closed her eyes putting her arms out to try to catch herself as she fell while almost at the top of the stairs.
'This is going to hurt!' she thought as she fell waiting for the sharp impact with the ground
"She could help herself if she wanted to Gaara" Shukaku purred knowingly in Gaara's head "She's deceiving you Gaara let me kill her."
'Shut up Raccoon!' Gaara yelled in his head
"She'll betray you, just you watch," Shukaku continued as Gaara extended the sand to catch Hotaru
"You'll regret helping her, Gaara, you'll wish you let me kill her if you get any closer to her" it cooed trying to convince Gaara to let it have it's way.
The sand wrapped around Hotaru's waist catching her, she smiled weakly at Gaara then her face fell
"I'm sorry" she said quietly "I'm sorry for being such a burden."
"Shut up and take your shower!" he growled as he set her down at the top of the stairs and gripping his head with one hand as the other reaching in her direction as if to push her away.
"Y-Yes, Gaara-sama." she said scurrying towards the bathroom, which was easy to spot as the door was opened revealing the shower and toilet.
--With Gaara--
"Why don't you let me kill her Gaara?" Shukaka cooed mockingly in Gaara's head
"Do you care about that girl? Hmm?" it pried "Then I'll kill her, you know I will gain control. When I do I'll make her scream in pain. I'll make her suffer with your hands. I'll make her beg for you to stop, then I'll make her beg you to kill her. Sounds like fun doesn't it Gaara?" It smiled cruelly in his head
"Shut Up!!" Gaara yelled gripping his head and falling to his knees as shukaku filled his head with imaginary images.
It laughed evilly at Gaara's suffering
"You're already attached to her aren't you!!" It roared "How pathetic! How weak!"
Shukaku then started to fill Gaara's head with more images of Hotaru dying and suffering.
With Hotaru
Hotaru could hear a deep unfamiliar voice coming from downstairs and quickly finished her shower, shuddering at the things the voice said, mentioning Gaara's name for the second time as she got out wrapping a towel around herself.
"Shut Up!!" She heard gaara yell then she head him hit the floor and the voice laughing evilly
She looked around for her dress but spotted a pile of Gaara's old clothes on the toilet with "girl" scribbled down on a piece of paper. She heard the voice speak again and hurried faster. She threw the baggy t-shirt and pants on over a pair of clean under garments that she had managed to keep in a plastic baggy in case hers were lost or ruined and ran down stairs.
When she got down stairs she saw Gaara collapsed on the floor next to the table, tears streaming down his face, eyes clenched tightly shut.
"Gaara-san!!" she yelled running towards him
"No!!" he yelled fearfully as his eyes snapped open and he scooted away from her "Don't come any closer to me!!"
"Gaara..." she said softly but obeying and stopping
"No!!" He yelled standing up and backing into the table causing the nearby chairs to topple over "I'm a monster you should be afraid of me!! What's wrong with you!! Why aren't you afraid!! I could hurt you, I could kill you!!"
Suddenly her usually passive and gentle nature disappeared and the unnoticeable ring of dark stormy green around her pupils expanded over powering the soft gentle brown. She stomped her foot and spread her arms wide open and started to yell
"You are no more a monster than I am!!" She yelled. Gaara felt the temperature increase for the second time that day.
"You're not the only one who's suffering because of something that they can't control!!" she screamed
"How would you know!!" Gaara yelled back as the sand around the room stirred whipping around him.
"Because!!" she yelled as fire filled the space around her whipping her hair around wildly as it moved with a life of it's own "I've been through things you can't even imagine!! I've screamed for death at the hands of my own father, MY FATHER!! He never cared about me!! He sold me for a hundred dollars, A HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS, GAARA!!"
"My father ordered my uncle to kill me when I was seven years old!! The only person who ever "Loved" me! They ripped me to shreds!! I'm only a tool to them!!" He roared pouring out his heart
"At least you're still human!! I'm not even completely human anymore!!" she screamed tears pouring from her eyes as sand met fire and tiny crystals of glass fell where they touched. The fabric on her back began to stretch then ripped as black wings tore through the shirt in a burst of feathers.
"Look at me, Gaara!!" she yelled "Look at what my father did to me!! He sealed a demon in me then experimented on me!! I was his guinea pig for eight years!! His own daughter!! Then when I no longer cooperated with him and killed anyone who came into my room HE SOLD ME!! He sold me to that man on my tenth birthday!! ON MY BIRTHDAY!!" The fire around her died down as she sobbed uncontrollably into her hands, her wings drooped partially covering her.
"I," Gaara started letting the sand go limp on the floor "I'm sorry" He said not knowing what else to do
"Gaara, you didn't forget about me now did you?" shukaku smirked in Gaara's head as he created a new image in Gaara's head. This time Hotaru could not only hear shukaku but she could also see what Gaara was being forced to see.
In Shukaku's Night Mare
Gaara struggled to keep control over Shukaku but was failing miserably, just as Gaara slipped out of control Hotaru came into sight.
"Gaara-kun" she called out to him happily
Gaara's body smirked as she ran towards him smiling only to be slapped across the face by the sand.
"Gaara-kun?" she said hurt and confusion dripping from her voice like the tears rolling down her bloodied cheek.
Gaara's body walked over to her and stopped in front of her smirking as he punched her ruthlessly in the stomach. She doubled over in pain crying profusely.
"Gaara-kun why? What are you doing?" she asked looking pleadingly up at him
His body then kicked her roughly in the side causing her to fall over onto her other side and curl up to try to protect herself. "Gaara-kun, Please stop!" she begged through tears.
"Get up," shukaku ordered through Gaara's body, "and fight me."
She obediently stood up "I don't want to fight you Gaara-kun" she said sadly while staring at the ground.
"Open up your ugly little wings and fight me, you dirty little freak!" He yelled smacking her with his bare hand covering it in her blood.
She obediently spread her wings then let them rest closed behind her, still refusing to fight him.
Shukaku glared at her and whipped her arms with sand cutting into them and making her cry out in pain.
"Gaara-kun, please! Stop!" she begged but her pleas fell onto Shukaku's deaf ears.
The sand continued to beat her over and over again, soaking her clothes in her own blood as she cried out for Gaara to stop. Soon enough she was fighting with her own demon for control. After a few more bloody blows Hotaru collapsed her demon no longer trying to take control because it knew it was too late, she had lost too much blood. Shukaku let Gaara have control once more as Hotaru began to slip into death.
"Hotaru!!" He yelled rushing to her side and gathering her in his arms.
"D-Don't leave me a-all alone here!! If-If you die I-I'll die!!" Gaara yelled through tears "don't surrender to death!! You can't die!! I never said you were allowed to die!!"
"Kill me Gaara-kun" she whispered "Please?!" she tried to yell but it only resulted in her coughing up more blood. Gaara could see all the damage shukaku had done to her, deep cuts ran all along her fragile body, her clothes ripped and covered in blood, her hair had become matted with her own blood, and one of her wings lay severed on the ground a few feet away.
"No!!" Gaara protested "I'll help you survive, you'll be ok!!"
"Why!?" She asked blood trickling from the corner of her mouth, "Why did you do this to me!! Finish it, kill me!! I don't want to live anymore!!"
"Gaara!!" he heard some one yell from some where far away
"GAARA!! SNAP OUT OF IT!!" the voice yelled getting closer
"GAARA!!" He recognized the voice it was Hotaru's
"Hotaru!" he yelled out to it breaking out of the illusions and returning to reality
"Gaara," Hotaru said gently moving closer to him and touching his hand, "I won't leave you alone, ever, I promise."
He gripped her hand and looked her in the eyes harshly "You're not lying are you?"
"No, I promise, I'll be by your side forever," she said smiling reassuringly, "I owe you my life, and Gaara-kun... you're my first ever friend."
"Hn." he replied emotionless once again but on the inside he was very happy, and Hotaru knew.
Hotaru stood up and went to get a broom to clean up all of the shards of glass on the floor.
"You're my first friend too, Hotaru." He said quietly thinking that nobody would hear but shukaku and himself but Hotaru heard and smiled to herself.
"Hotaru," Gaara said, "what's your demon?"
"Nibi, Nibi no nekomata, the two tailed fire-cat demon." Hotaru informed him still smiling.
"Hn." he grunted watching as she began to sweep up the glass.
Hope you liked it... wait a minute, I ended the last chapter almost exactly the same!! Sorry!! I'll try to be more original next time with the ending, thank you for reviewing! Please Read and Review! Thank you!!