Ch.5 The news

Bella's Pov

My heart was feeling worse than usual today. I wonder why that is? It had been a few days since Edward had kissed me, but he still comes to visit with everyone else and even a few times on his own. I was very glad that he still talked to me, even after Emmett confronted him.

Carlisle has been acting weird lately. I hope he hasn't finally found out my secret.

You see there is a reaon I'm so clumsy. My blood is very, very, very weak. I had known this for years but never told a soul. See, it's so weak that it hardly supports me. There are even certain days, like today, when my heart starts to hurt badly, because it's not getting enough blood. I don't know if it's fatal but it's painfull. If Edward became a part of my life I'd have to tell him.

Woah, where did that come from? I don't like Edward that way do I? No of course I don't. I mean I have only known him for a few days. Even if he is, sweet, charming, funny, geltmanly, and insanely gorgeous..... STOP THAT! Just get him out of your head. It can't be too hard right?

Ok, so everyone's supposed to visit me today. Edward will probably be with them........ NO!

The weather is nice today. I wonder if Edward noticed? ARGH!

The ceiling is very white today. Except for that small green stain, that sort of reminds me of Edward's eyes. CRAP! God I'm pathetic. I can't even get one boy out of my head for more than a few seconds. I mean the randomest subjects change to him right away. Suddenly my heart gave a little jerk and I groaned in pain, at that exact moment the door burst open and the whole gang ran in. Surprisingly they looked extremely worried.

"What's up guys?" I grinned, but then winced in pain as my heart jerked again, clearly searching for more blood.

"Don't bother acting all fine Bella. Carlisle called." Alice sobbed tears streaming down her cheeks.

"I'm sorry that I waited so long to tell you Bella." Carlisle stated entering the room. I only just then noticed that Edward wasn't with them. There I go again.

"Where's Edward?" I asked leaning forward to see if he was out on the hall or something. No such luck.

"He refused to come once he heard the news." Carlisle sighed and then sat on the end of the bed. "Bella, you're dying. I'm not even sure how long you have left."

"I'm....... what?"

"Your dying. How long have you known about your blood?"

I bit my lip in shame. "A couple years."

"Bella, you should have told me as soon as you found out. We might have been able to help you."

"So there's no hope then?"

"No! Of course there's hope! You just have to keep fighting as long as you can. I'll try everything I can."

I nodded and closed my eyes. "Could you ask Edward to come and see me? I need to tell him something.'

'Of course. Everyone leave Bella alone for a few minutes." Carlisle ordered ushering them all out. About a half hour later Edward entered the room looking grim.

"You wanted to see me?" He mummbled staring at the floor.

"Yeah. Can you sit down?"

He nodded and sat in the arm chair next to the bed. I sighed and pulled him over to me. He sat hesitantly. "Is there someting you need?"

"I need to tell you something incase this turns out bad." I heard him gulp but ignored it so I could continue. "For the last few days, I've been considering something. I know it's gonna sound impossible but as soon as I found out I might be dying, I knew. Edward, I love you. I think I've actually been in love with you since that first kiss, it might have even been when we talked on line. I'm not sure, but I'm positive that I'm in love with you."

I looked away hiding my tears from him. I had held them in too long already.

"Bella..... I love you too. That's why this is so hard for me. I just figured out that I loved you and then my own father shows up and tells me that you're dying. It's a lot to deal with, and I don't think I can. Have you ever heard of love at first sight? Well, that's what it was for me. I fell in love with you as soon as I walked in this room a few days ago."

"I'm so sorry." I whispered turning so I could kiss him. He responded quickly, but it was just a soft kiss. "I should have told him about this earlier. Then I wouldn't be in this mess. We wouldn't be in this mess."

I kissed him again, but this time it was urgent, like we were having our last kiss ever. When we parted he leaned his forehead against mine. "Please don't leave me Bella. I don't think I can live without you." The pain in his eyes was almost enough to kill me but I couldn't promise him anything. I already knew I was going to die.

I realize that this is very short but I just had to cut it off here! Sorry! Happy new year everyone! I actually updated this at 12:30! I can't promise the next chapter will be longer but I'll try my best! I'll update sometime tommorro 'cause I'm tired now. Nighty night.

~Emerald.