Ch.6 Why is he avoiding me?

Bella's Pov

1 month. It's been exactly 1 month, 3 hours, 15 minutes, and 30 seconds since I have seen Edward. He hasn't visited, he hasn't called, he hasn't even acknowledged my presence. I wonder if it was all a dream. Me telling him I love him. Funny enough, even though he's not around, I think I love him more.

Carlisle tests my blood daily now, and he's even inserted blood into me to keep my heart beating. He says I'm improving, but there's still a chance that I might die.

Alice brought my lap top in so I could write, but I haven't touched it. I was too depressed.

"Bella?" There was a soft knock on the door and Alice's pixi like voice rang through the air. I turned to look at her.

Alice's Pov

Bella turned to look at me. Her eyes were so sullen, and depressed. Her skin was so pale you could actually see the veins. Her cheek bones were sticking out, and she looked skinnier then I've ever seen her.

"How you doing Bell?" I asked carefully sitting at the edge of her bed.

"Better. Carlisle says my blood is improving." She mumbled back, before turning to look out the window.

"Bella what's wrong?"

"He's not going to come is he?" When she looked back at me her eyes were filled with tears. "I told him I loved him Alice, and I still do."

I wrapped my arms around Bella comfortingly as she cried. "Bella, he asks every day if you're alright. I can see the hope in his eyes everytime Carlisle says you're getting better. He hasn't touched his lap top in a month, because it reminds him too much of you. The problem is not that he doesn't love you, it's that he's afraid."

"Afraid of what?"

"He's afraid your going to die, and he's afraid that you won't want to see him in this state."

"Please tell him to come and talk to me. Or at least acknowledge me." She sobbed again once before, she hesitantly reached up and took off her favorite necklace. I was shocked that never came off. Ever. "Give him this."

I took it carefully, almost expecting her to pull it right back but she just turned to look out the window. I knew she didin't want to talk anymore so I left shutting the door behind me. As soon as I climbed into my porsche, I was holding back tears. I have these feelings, and I knew that if Bella didn't get out this state she was going to stop fighting. She was going to die.

I pulled into Emmett's driveway minutes later. The whole gang had been staying there so we could sulk together. Edward was the worst. He would lock himself in his room, and do absolutly nothing at all, just staring either at the ceiling or out the window. But he always bounded down the stairs when someone came back from visiting Bella. The first thing I saw when I opened the door was the whole gang, minus Edward, moping in the living room.

As soon as the door slammed shut Edward was there. "How is she?"

Just seeing him caused the tears to pour. Of course that caused the whole gang to panic. But I ignored them cornering Edward between myself and the wall. I glared at him through my tears and saw the panic in his eyes. "How dare you do that to her! She's in love with you and you're completely avoiding her!"

"Alice how is she!?" Rose snapped as tears started pouring as well. She knew something was wrong. I continued to glare at Edward as I answered.

"Her cheek bones are sticking out, you can see her vens through her skin, and her eyes are so sullen you'd think she was dead!" I hissed. Edward hung his head, and I imediatly felt bad for him. Sighing I pulled out the necklace. "Here, she told me to give you this."

The look of hope in his eyes when he saw the necklace was heart breaking. It was just a simple silver chain with a sliver heart on the end but I could tell he thought it was worth so much more. Without speaking he took the necklace carefully and slowly walked back up to his room.

"Was that the necklace her mom gave her before she died?" Jasper whispered breaking the silence. I nodded and turned to look at him.

"It's worse than that. I think she'll stop fighting if she doesn't hear from Edward soon." I sighed. "I'm gonna go see what's bothering him."

I walked p stairs quietly and knocked sofly on his door. No one answered so I opened the door. Edward was lying on his bed, actually wearing the necklace, and playing with it, while staring out the window. I also noticed the single tear that was half way down his cheek.

"Spill it." I ordered. "Why are you avoiding her?"

"I'm in love with her Alice." He looked up at me and another tear escaped. Gotta love a man who's not afraid to cry. "But I'm scared. For one thing, she might not even be here for much longer, and for another the last time I fell in love it didn't end well."

"What happened?"

"I fell for this girl. Her name was Tanya Danali. She was very sweet and, some what smart. Smart enough to talk to at least. I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with her, but she didn't. She wanted me to sleep with her, but I refused. I wanted to save that moment. I ended up finding her making out with a bar tender. She ripped out my heart. That's when I became pale in the moon light." He admitted turning to look back out the window.

"WHAT!? You're pale in the mon light!" I screeched wondering why Bella hadn't told me this sooner.

"Bella didn't tell you?"

I shook my head no. "I just thought you were writing papers for work or something so I never asked."

He nodded. "I became pale in the moon light because it was a way for me to escape. I write when I need to get away from this world."

"You are Bella's perfect match. She writes everytime she needs cheering up or if she reads if she needs to have a good cry."

"She hasn't touched her lap top though."

"How did you know that?"

"I've been on a few times. I was hoping to see another piece of her writing, but when nothing was there I wrote something instead." He suddenly grabbed a piece of paper and scribbled something down. "Give her this. I'm not ready to see her yet, but I think she'll like it."

I nodded and turned towards the door. "Oh and Alice?"

"Yeah?"

"Thanks."

I grinned, before shutting the door behind me and heading to the kitchen to make dinner. I just hoped Bella would keep fighting untill I see her tommorro.