Ch.8 What happens when you die?

Bella's Pov

It was dark. That must be a good sign. I couldn't move. Bad or good? I wasn't so sure. It was like I was no where, and yet some where all at the same time.

"Bella. Open your eyes." The voice was deep, rough, but kind. It was very unfamiliar to me. I grimaced but opened my eyes. Only to snap them back shut. Everything was white, and oh so bright. It hurt my eyes. "Bella." The voice sighed.

I finally opened my eyes again, blinking a few times so it wouldn't seem to bright and looked up to see a man. He looked young, in his thirties maybe, and he was wearing a simple wite robe with a golden belt like think that looked like it came from a curtain. Above his head was a golden ring.

"Where am I?" I asked surprise by how clear my voice sounded even to my ears. I looked down at myself only to see a flowing white dress, that touched the golden floor beneath me. I gasped and checked around. Finding a mirror I noticed that my hair was silky, shiney, and above my head was that small golden ring. I was in heaven. "I-I'm dead?"

The man that must be god himself looked at me with a raised eye brow. "Isn't that what you wanted?"

"Yes. It was but I didn't know what would happen after it happened. It's beautifull here." I sighed. "Where are we anyway?"

"I was waiting for you to tell me. Where do you think we are?" (If you've ever read Harry Potter and the deathly Hallows you'll understand this)

I thought this was an odd question but I looked around anyway, and suddenly I knew where we were. I was almsot like I should have known all along. "We're in the library. St. Pauls to be exact. The place I met Alice."

"Ahhh. Yes that does seem to be correct. Very Bella-ish." God laughed. I grinned and went to take down one of the books. Once I saw the title I nearly droopped it. In curvy gold writing was the name Edward Anthony Mason Cullen.

"What on earth is this?" I gasped pulling out another book entitled Mary Alice Brandon.

"These books are about your life. Those ones in particular are about the people in your life. There's actually an entire row of that Edward Fellow. You seemed to be really interested in him. Dedicating every second you spent together. Even the ones where yu were only thinking about him."

"Why are these here?"

"Because this is where we've been placed. I needed to talk to you before you fully die."

"Wait, so I'm not dead yet?"

"Not yet no. Come sit."

God lead me to two single chairs. We sat facing each other in silence for a moment before he spoke.

"Do ou really want to die Isabella? What about all your friends?"

"They'll manage without me." I mummble staring at my lap instead of his frighteningly calm face.

"You're right. They will manage. But not willingly. Exspecially one of them." He stated. And then before I knew it, a desk had appeared in front of me with a lap top on it. I hesitated before turning it on only to reveal what looked like my hospital room. The whole gang was there, including Carlisle and Esme, but the thing that caught my attention most off all was that Edward was there.

"Bella No!" He screamed lunging toward me but Carlisle grabbed his wrist holding him back.

"She's gone Edward. There's nothing you can do" Carlisle said firmly. but I could see the tears that threatened to escape. Alice and Rose were already in sobbing fits, clutching on to Emmett, and Jasper like their lifes depended on it. Esme was the same. Her shoulders were shaking with her slient sobbs and her face was hidden in Carlisle's chest as she cried. Edward yanked his arm away.

"No! She can't be gone. She just can't!" He yelled running oveer to kneel next to the bed. His face was burried in my stomache and his shoulders shook the same way his mother's were. He was crying. My eyes filled with tears at the sight and I touched the screen with out thinking. Imediatly the scene changed. It looked like an older Edward by a few years at least. Alice was patting his back soothingly while tears slipped. I didn't fail to notice that Alice looked a little big, and she was wearing a wedding band, and in Edward's hand was my necklace.

"Jasper wanted me to invite you to dinner. You never come out with us anymore. Or anyone really." Alice whispered. Edward just shook his head. Alice sighed and left, shutting his door softly. When she was gone Edward actually put on the necklace and got on his lap top. I realized he was on Fanfiction, reading a very sort story.

"If only she had fought long enough to read this." He whispered before shutting off the computer and lying in his bed.

"Read what?" I whispered turning to look at god. He handed me a small piece of paper that looked like it had Edward's writing on it. All it said was Pale in the Moon light. Something clicked and I quickly went to Fanfiction. His number one story practically called out to me. It was called sunlight. I opened it and began to read.

Some say that the night is ment to be dark, others say that every darkness can be cured with a simple flame. I disagree with both. For how could an elegant flame help you escape from the expanding darkness? But there is another therory.

Soul mates are said to be made for their one special person. They're supposed to bring love and joy with in the first sight. I have expeirenced this.

Unfortunatly there had been one before that had caused the darkess to happen. She ripped out my heart leaving me cold, and dead in the darkness to hunt for life. I never thought I would survive. Untill I met her.

The brown hair framed her face perfectly, the pink blush causing me to think things I repulsed all together, and her wide brown eyes brought that same pink to me. Her laughter was magical and lit up my whole world. Her personality was perfect and intreeging the way she sought to help others by weakening her self. I would do anything for this girl, she was my sunlight.

Yet, I'm a coward. As our time slipps away I worry if she feels the same. That worry causes me to hide from her all together. But that's just making it worse. The light is fading. The once huge yellow flame that warmed my heart, is now weak, but somehow still lighting my entire life. Her life is slipping away before my very eyes and still I do nothing. Fear is not something I should have befriended.

I can tell her days are numbered, but what can I do? I have told her I loved her, but I want to say more. I want to stand upon the roof tops and declare my love to the world. I want to scoop her into my arms and kiss her with as much love as I have. But most of all, I want to make this girl my wife.

So you see, every darkness has a light. Sometimes you just have to search for it. Just remember to hold on to that light with all your strenght and don't let go. Don't make the same mistake as me, for I have already lost my sunlight.

Tears stained my cheeks as I finished reading. That was the most beautifull thing I had ever read.

"You can still go back to him you know. You won't remember any of this, so it may be hard to give him a second chance, but I can help with your blood problem." God whispered. The screen suddenly went black and then it showed a small blue house. You could hear laughter coming from inside. It was like a scene from an old movie. Finally it showed the inside. But all I could see was a young girl with golden hair jumping up and down as she pointed to the Tv.

"Look mommy! I bet Uncle Edward all by myself!" She cried running over to what looked like an older Rosalie who had a baby in her arms as she laughed at what seemed to be her oldest daughter.

"I'll get ya next time." Edward laughed getting up and sitting down on the arm chair closest to Emmett. I noticed he had a wedding band on this time. Alice was there, sitting in Jasper's arms while scolding a 4 year old boy for pulling Lilly's hair. Lilly must be Rose's daughter I thought.

"Ouch!" A very familiar voice cried and suddenly Edward was out of his chair helping someone down the stairs. "He's kicking harder everyday." She laughed, her brown har falling into her eyes. I gasped as I realized it was me. It had taken a minute because my stomach was huge, my hair longer and there was a wedding band on my left finger.

"And how is my beautifull wife today?" Edward grinned kissing my head.

"Better than this morning. I'm really not a fan of morning sickness."

Everyone laughed as Edward helped me sit in what had been his chair and he knelt down next to me pressing his hand to my overly large belly. "He likes you. He kicks harder everytime you do that." I laughed as his eyes brightened.

"And of course he's going to love you. The girl that had stolen my heart with one look." He laughed kissing me full on the lips this time. Then it all blacked out again. I was dissapointed. I really wanted to see more of that. I wanted to know if our baby turned out okay, and if that was really our house.

"What happened after that? Was our baby okay?" I asked turning to god again. He raised an eye brow.

"You can't have a baby if you're dead." My heart sunk. "But you could always go back. Edward will be arriving in your room right about now. You really scared him."

"Oh yes please! Send me back. I can't stand to think that he will be so sad." I cried jumping to my feet.

"Very well. You made a good choice. When you return you won't remember any of this, but I will cure your blood completely so you can't just decide to give up again. I'll see you again some day." And suddenly he was shooting away as if the hall way had suddenly expanded and then I was falling through darkness again.