Disclaimer: Not Mine, just the plot. And even that's been done so many times.

A/N- Sorry about the late updates, Im trying to wrap up my other story, My inbox was full of reviews with people threatening to bring pitchforks and fire if I didn't update w/ DNA test results of Tanyas baby.. Confused? Read my other story.

Anyways, The song in this is "Everyday is Exactly the same" by NIN. I was listening to it and it reminded me of Bella during this time. Listen to it and you will understand.

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I think I used to have a voice, Now I never make a sound .

I just do what I've been told I really don't want them to come around.

oh no .

-Nine Inch Nails "Everyday Is Exactly The Same"

I woke my daughter up once again, the same routine; a bath, getting dressed, breakfast, school, then work. Its been so easy to predict what I'm going to do next, nothing really ever changes, until they came back. Now the town has been in such an uproar and the gossip has started once again. Of course since Carlie is Edwards daughter, everyone has centered their gossip around us. And that just isn't fair.

I've built a good life here, We haven't needed them in the past so why would we now? Everyone acts like im going to go after them now that they've returned, for child support. Yeah right. If anything, that little stunt last night with Edward just proves why I need them to stay away. Every time they get close, I lose my head and I just cant afford to do that with Carlie in the picture. It was okay while I was a teenager and could only think about myself.

As I pulled into the bar's parking lot and turned off the ignition. Today was going to be hell I just knew it. Edward's little stunt I'm sure didn't go unnoticed by Alice, and once the whole family got wind of what went down, I was screwed. They would try to invite us over and expect to be in my daughters life. Didn't they understand the hell they put me through? I couldn't do this to Carlie, she was innocent and fragile. She didn't need to be hurt once they leave, I wouldn't let her turn catatonic like I was.

I walked into the bar and clocked in, Angela was already here but Jessica was nowhere in sight. I started to wipe down the bar, getting it ready for the days patrons. It wasn't the sleezy bar everyone imagines, it was actually a really nice place . Our bar patrons during the day were usually War vets and little old women who wanted something cooked from the back, or to remember the good old days. At night was when it got rowdy and out of control. That's why I refused to work the night shift.

As I was refilling Phyllis' Coke Jessica came prancing in like she was on cloud nine. "What happened to you? Someone die?" Angela teased, Jessica just scowled and responded "I ran into Edward Cullen today." I nearly knocked over the drink I was pouring, which didn't go unnoticed by Jessica. She let out a small giggle "Yep we got to talking, and he asked where I was working. I told him the bar and he asked he could swing by later." I felt as if I had been hit by a ton of bricks, He couldn't stand Jessica why would he be here to see her? Oh No. What if he read in her mind that I would be working this shift? SHIT.

Angela sensed my distress and gave me a small smile "You can go home if you'd like, I will cover for you." I went to respond but Jessica beat me to it "Why would she have to leave? Its not like he's coming here to see her. She could just hide in the back and count inventory." she scoffed and rolled her eyes. I was livid but it did seem like a good idea. I couldn't afford to miss a day of work over Edwards nonsense. "That's a good idea, I will just do that."

Angela just sighed but then went tense "Well, you better do it fast because his car just pulled up outside." Sure enough out the large tinted window I could see Edwards Volvo parking in the patrons parking lot. I took off running into the back at human speed, but fast enough not to be noticed by Edward.

A few seconds later I heard the bell ring signaling someone coming in and heard Jessica greet him. "Hi Edward! Its so great to see you again so soon! So is there anything I can get you?" Even I could hear the suggestion in her voice, he just responded with a quiet "No thank you. So only you and Angela work here?" Jessica let out a high pitch giggle that would make nails on a chalkboard sound pleasant. "Oh no, Bella's usually here, but she felt ill and had to leave." she tried to make her voice sound at least somewhat concerned. Too bad Edwards a fucking mind reader. I watched out the peephole as he messed with something on the bar, oh no.. my dishrag. It was bound to have a more potent and fresh scent since I had just used it, and no one else had touched it. He fingered the rag with tense fingers, it looked like he would fray or shred it if he didn't stop running his fingers over it.

He was angry.

I went around the back way and tried to get through the bar unnoticed so I could leave but suddenly Edwards head snapped up. His pitch black eyes met my topaz ones and suddenly my fight or flight instincts kicked in and I started moving towards the door a little bit quicker. He was over to me in a few seconds, of course it was at human speed, but god he was fast.

"Imagine seeing you here Bella." He looked down at me with pitch black eyes, why was he so angry? "Yea I work here? What are you doing here?" I asked trying to hurry the conversation up. I didn't want Angela or Jessica to witness this crap. "We need to talk." I just sighed and tried to walk around but he stood in my way again. "No, we don't. I tried to talk last night and you decided you wanted to do other things. That was your chance, no more." he let a small growl erupt from his chest and snatched my wrist "Please Bella, don't do this."

"Edward I think you should let Bella go now, you're causing a scene." Angela stated calmly, as if she was talking to a bank robber holding a gun. I looked up and everyone was staring at us like they were watching a serial killer going after a victim. I looked up into Edwards eyes and I saw clearly what everyone else was seeing. He was near breaking down at this point. His hair was in a disarray and not in his usual sexy way, it looked like he had been tugging on it over and over again. His clothes were wrinkled. His circles under his eyes were darker and a deeper blackish blue. He looked as if he was going to have a nervous breakdown right here in front of everyone

He let go of my wrist and took a step back , appearing as if he was in shock "I.I..Im so sorry Bella.." I just nodded and said "its okay, lets go get something to eat.." he took my hint that he needed to hunt and just nodded sadly.

We walked out of the bar and got into his Volvo, heading for a deep part of the forest. Once we reached a clearing he stopped and turned to look at me. I could see the sadness and anguish in his eyes "Im sorry for last night, I freaked out. I wanted to stay so bad, but hearing your ….our.. Daughter cry just reminded me that I don't belong with you. That you had Jacob in your life now." he sounded so broken , so I went up and hugged him. He seemed shocked at first and wrapped his arms around me , squeezing back.

"Edward, I'm sorry too. This morning I woke up wanting my life to be exactly the same as it was every day. I wanted Carlie to myself and no one to ever have her, especially not you." he let out a small whimper "let me finish. Edward, Im scared for our daughter. I cant have you leave her , you don't understand what its like growing up without a father but knowing hes out there."

He pushed some hair behind my ear and looked into my eyes. "Bella, I will be there for our daughter, and you. Im so sorry for doing this to you, I thought I was doing what was right. I was a complete fool, I know I ruined my chances with you and for that im sorry." I knew he was talking about Jacob, but I didn't want to correct him, I didn't want him to know I lied about a relationship, it would be pathetic.

On our hunt we caught 3 deer and a rabbit. I wasn't really hungry I just needed a quick snack. We drove home in silence, and sitting in the driveway, playing with sidewalk chalk was Jacob and Carlie. She was giggling and having fun, I knew it killed Edward to see her happy with Jacob but hes been around when Edward wasn't, so he had no right to be upset.

Jacob looked up as we approached and gave me a smile "Look bells, a modern Picasso on our hands." he motioned to Carlies drawing of squiggles and lines. I just laughed and picked her up "Hey Baby! What is that you drew?" she gave me a crooked smile like her fathers and said "Mom!" I laughed and then she pointed to a line by itself and said "Dad". She looked up at Edward and smiled, he smiled at her and said "She knows im her Dad. Shes very smart ." he reached out to hold her and she jumped into his arms.

Jake came up and wrapped his arms around my shoulder , it was a friendly gesture but could easily have bee misinterpreted as more. He leaned down and whispered "I'll get the truck for you later, Are you coming with me to the bonfire tonight?" Edward looked up and growled "What bonfire? In La Push? Are you insane?? The wolves could snap at any second!!! Bella, you and my daughter could be injured or worse"

Jacob apparently didn't like where this conversation was heading and let a small growl escape "Edward, Bella and Carlie have never been harmed or in any danger with me and the pack, Please stop degrading us. I understand your concern for their safety but I would NEVER let anything harm them." Edward looked at me and then to the little girl in his arms. I just groaned and said "Edward, the bonfire isn't really a place Carlie goes to anyways, she usually will go to Sues with Charlie for the night. If you want I can drop her off at your house while I head down to see friends and family." Edward flinched at the family line and just nodded. He kissed our daughter on her head and reluctantly handed her over to me.

"I'll see you at 7 then… does she have a place to sleep?" Edward just nodded and said "Alice bought everything and decorated her room at our house, I guess she saw this happening." He leaned over and kissed Carlie on the head, and looked at me, debating whether to kiss me on the head too, but looked over at Jacob and sighed, putting his head down, defeated. "I'll talk to you soon" with that he climbed into the Volvo and sped off.