DISCLAIMER: I do not own GA.

CHAPTER 10: What the heck does she mean?

"Hey."

"What are you doing here?" Mikan asked coldly.

"I was supposed to ask you the same question. Shouldn't you be asleep by now?" Natsume replied as he sat down beside her while Mikan just stayed in silence not even bothering to answer his question. "Tch. Oh great. She's mad."

"I was already enjoying the peace of this place and now he has to come into the picture. Sheesh! And I thought I was the only one who comes to the roof at night." Mikan thought as he heard Natsume speak.

"Oi Polka Dots, I know that you're mad at me. I was supposed to talk to you tomorrow since I thought you were already sleeping but since you're here and all, I just wanna say I'm sorry." He stated and this made Mikan's eyes widen in shock.

"Whoa. Now that's something we don't see every day. A Natsume Hyuuga never apologizes to anyone other than okaa-san."Mikan thought as she listened further to what Natsume has to say.

"I guess I just over reacted that time. What the heck do you expect? I was worried about you. I didn't know what to do when I realized that you were missing. And to think that okaa-san would probably kill me if ever something bad happened to you. So please never do that again." Natsume said as he stared at her expressionless face.

"Oh. And I thought he was really worried for me. I guess I was wrong. All he ever thought was what okaa-san might do to him if something bad happens to me. sheesh! What the heck was I thinking! So all of those scolding sessions earlier were all because he's afraid to get scolded by mother." Mikan thought disappointedly. "I just don't know. But somehow, I want him to treat me more than a sister. Huh? Where the heck did that thought come from!?! I guess I'm tired and I'm already thinking weird things."

"Oi Polka Dots. Could you at least say something? I'm already apologizing here. You should be lucky that I even apologize since I never do that."

"Huh? You don't have to apologize if it's against your will in the first place, Natsume." She replied. "If all you even bother thinking of was what okaa-san would do or say to you, then you don't have to worry about a thing since I won't say I word about it." She continued in a low voice while staring at the stars.

"Natsume? Geeeez! She's mad alright! She even removed the darn onii-chan from my name!" Natsume thought as he gave out a small sigh. "It's not like that, you got it all wrong. My point was that I never should have yelled at you like that since mom doesn't even do that. So would you please stop giving me the silent treatment? It really irritates me."

"Well, what do you expect me to say? It already happened so there's nothing to make a fuss about." She replied. "And one more thing, you don't have worry about me doing that again since I might not do it ever again the following days or even maybe years to come. And you don't have to worry over something like someone like me as well. Then you'll be free to do whatever you want just like you used to live when I was still not around."

"What do you mean?" asked a baffled Natsume.

"Betsuni. Never mind what I've said." She replied. "Well, since my next birthday is getting nearer, I guess I have to make my choice whether I should remain as a Hyuuga or be back into a Sakura." She thought.

"So, are you still mad at me?" Natsume asked again while Mikan shook her head.

"Iie. I was never mad at you. I was just disappointed, that's all." Mikan explained as a cold breeze blew and this made her cold since she was only wearing her pajamas and these pajamas were not that thick in cloth. She shivered for a bit until she felt something warm around her.

She then turned around only to notice that Natsume was actually hugging her. His strong arms were wrapped around her petite waist. "Don't argue. You might get a cold. Just… let us stay like this for a while." Natsume whispered.

Mikan's heart was beating really fast once she felt Natsume's hug. This hug was way different from the other hugs that she received from him when they were young. This gave her a tingling feeling that she has never felt before. But somehow, she enjoyed that moment they shared together.

"A-ano, Natsume-nii? What would you do if ever you suddenly knew that I was gone?" she asked.

"Huh? Why'd you ask something like that all of a sudden?"

"Betsuni. Just answer it please."

"I… dunno."

"What do you mean you don't know? You and I both know that that is not a very reasonable and sensible answer so please answer it properly and honestly." Mikan replied seriously.

"Well, if ever that would happen I will be sad." Natsume replied.

"Really?" Mikan asked while he nodded.

"I already got used to you pestering me around ever since I was 10. It will surely be lonely without hearing you annoying little voice around the house. But that's not the only reason. I'll be sad because I will someone who has already been an important part of my life."

"Oh. Okay. At least I was one of the important people in his life. But I still don't know which to choose. I wanna stay as a Hyuuga so that I will not be separated from okaa-san, Reika-san and especially Natsume-nii. But somehow, I wanna be back to a Sakura since I am hoping that Natsume-nii and I would be more than friends. Huh? Oh great. My stupids thoughts are at it again."

After answering, they were enveloped in silence once again until they have finally broken from the hug as Natsume was the first to stand up. He then lends his hand to Mikan so that she'll not have a hard time on standing up.

"It's really late. We should get to bed." He said as he assisted Mikan back into her room. He then tucked her in and went to his own room.

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Natsume was lying on his king sized med while he was so deep in his own thoughts.

"What the heck does Polka mean a while ago? Is she going to leave me someday?" He thought as his mini self appeared right in front of him. "What are you thinking about this time?" Nate asked.

"Polka. Do you know what she meant by what she said a while ago on the roof?" Natsume asked while Nate just nodded simply. "What?" Natsume continued.

"It's something you should find for yourself, Natsume. Some things are better left unsaid. And don't think about it too much. You'll find about it soon and that's a fact. Now it's already very late and you should go and get some sleep. You still have morning practice tomorrow and Mikan might go with you guys since she has cheerleading practice."

And in an instant, Nate disappeared while Natsume was still thinking of the same thing. 'And you don't have to worry something like someone like me as well'. This statement kept on ringing on his mind until he dozed off to sleep.