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Ichigo woke up the feeling sore. She sat up in her bed and stretched, trying to loosen her aching muscles. It was while she was stretching that she opened her eyes. Sitting across the room was Kish, who's golden eyes never seemed to weaver as she let out a startled cry. Ichigo jumped out of bed and tried to jump through the open window, but Kish suddenly grabbed her by the waist and flung her back on the bed.
"Sorry about this kitten, but you can't be trusted right now." Kish said, pulling out some rope. Before she could protest, he wrapped up one of Ichigo's ankles and then tied the other side of the rope to the bed. "That should hold you...for a little while anyway." Kish said wearily as Ichigo started to try and untie the knot.
Ichigo stopped fumbling with the tight knot around her ankle and turned her attention towards Kish. "Why Kish?" she demanded, tears forming in her eyes.
"Why what kitten?" Kish asked, knowing full well what she was talking about.
"Why did you save me? Why didn't you just let me die?" Ichigo cried out, the tears flowing unhindered down her face.
"I didn't save you Ichigo." Kish said very quietly, so quiet that Ichigo had to strain to catch his words. "I didn't save you. By the time I got here, you were already dead. The blue knight saved your life."
"But...that's impossible..." Ichigo said softly, not looking at Kish. Kish sighed and walked over to the window and placed his hands on the window seal. Looking outside, Kish thought about the previous night.
"Ichigo, I still don't know what happened that made you think you needed to kill yourself, but I think it would be better if you gave me the details now." Kish said, watching some birds fly around a tree.
"Kish, please don't make me relive the pain..." Ichigo began but was cut off by Kish.
"No damn it, your going to tell me what happened. Otherwise, you will never heal." Kish said, turning around and taking a seat by the door. "No one enters or leaves this room until I know exactly, in full detail, what happened and what went through your mind."
Ichigo's tears stopped as she got angry. "Who are you to tell me what I have to do?"
"I am the guy who loves you!" Kish yelled at Ichigo, causing her to flinch. "I love you, but you still think it's a joke or something. I didn't kiss you yesterday for other reasons then you believed. Now shut up, sit back, and tell your story of pain. I don't care how long it takes, because I will be feeling your pain along with you."
Ichigo's eyes began to tear up as she began to recount her story. "It was yesterday, about noon time. I was in the park, talking with Ryou. He wouldn't give me a raise, no matter how hard I tried. I finally gave up and went for a walk to clear my head. That's when I saw Masaya. I ran over to him, needing some escape from my anger. We talked for a little while, just idle chitchat." Ichigo paused as she let out a gasp of pain. Kish didn't move, intent on getting the entire story.
Ichigo continued her story, "I don't know when we stumbled on the subject, but I regret it. I asked him which he loved more, me or the earth." Kish felt his insides go cold as he remembered what she had said yesterday.
Ichigo sobbed as she said, "He said that he loved me more, but his first priority is to the earth." Kish waited in silence as Ichigo cried out her pain. Kish felt a sort of heat flow from his chest to go throughout the rest of his body.
Kish got up and walked over to Ichigo. He placed his hand on Ichigo's chin and tilted her head up slightly so she was looking into Kish's eyes. "I know this is hard, but you must continue the story."
Ichigo didn't stop crying until Kish suddenly hugged her. Ichigo buried her face into Kish's shoulder, and started quiet down. "I know it's not a good reason, but the words he said really caused me pain. Masaya looked sad and tried to explain something to me, but I didn't want to listen. I can't explain why, but I felt betrayed somehow..." Ichigo said, looking up from Kish's shoulder as he stopped breathing.
"When did you feel this betrayal?" Kish asked, the fear he was feeling reflecting from his eyes. He started to breath again, but it came out as short, rapid breaths.
"I don't know...I guess about ten minutes after I talked to Ryou..." Ichigo started to say before gasping in surprise as Kish let go and backed away over to the opposite side of the room.
"No," Kish said softly, fear going throughout his entire body. "No, it can't be..." Kish stumbled and fell on his backside but used his elbows to continue to back away from Ichigo.
"What's wrong Kish?" Ichigo asked, obviously feeling a renewed pain by Kish going away from her.
When Kish was finally was able to calm his rapidly increasing pulse, he said, "It's all my fault..."
"What?" Ichigo asked, looking confused.
Kish pulled his knees up to his chin and hugged his legs while rocking slightly. "I...I think I caused the pain..." Kish said softly, not daring to look into Ichigo's eyes.
"What?" Ichigo asked, a tone of unbelieving in her voice.
Kish didn't respond. He looked up at Ichigo's eyes. "Continue the story." Kish said, thinking rapidly about possible explanations.
Ichigo looked sad and confused, but she continued the story. "I ran away from Masaya and somehow ended up next to a tree where you were. I thought about just going away and thinking about what happened, but I felt like I should wait for you to wake up. So, I did."
Kish nodded and waved his trembling hand for her to continue. "Well, when you woke up, I suddenly felt the desire to be held and kissed. I knew of all people, you would be more then happy to comply. I leaned in to kiss you, and felt you start to accept my need. Suddenly, you backed away from me and started to act weird. I tried to ask you what was wrong, but you simply said you couldn't take advantage of me. I had no idea what that meant, but it hurt my more deeply then when Masaya told me about the earth." Ichigo said, watching Kish as he started to try and control his rapid breathing without success.
"What happened after I left?" Kish asked, closing his eyes.
Ichigo let out a sigh and said in an emotionless tone, "I went home, my heart tearing itself into pieces. I can't explain why, but when I went through the kitchen, I saw the knife and grabbed it. I went upstairs and stared at it for a few minutes. I took a deep breath, and then tried to cut myself. The blue knight suddenly appeared and grabbed my arm. I don't know how I did it, but I switched hands and slashed my arm. As the blood flowed from my cut, the blue knight suddenly stumbled like he was in terrible pain and jumped out the window. I felt a pulsing in the air, but I my vision was going dark. I don't remember what happened next, but suddenly I felt enormous pain and started to scream."
Ichigo breathed in and then said, "The rest you know better then me."
Kish's ears slumped slightly downward as he thought about the story. "Kitten, I know this inappropriate of me to ask, but right now..." Kish said, getting up. He open his eyes and fixed them on Ichigo. She gasped as Kish ran over and hugged her. "I'm so sorry. I should have told you from the beginning. I'm so sorry..." Kish cried, hugging Ichigo tighter.
"Tell me what?" Ichigo asked.
Well, I think that's about wraps it up for this chapter. Yes, I know...what the hell power-of-all? You didn't finish the story! Well, I felt the need to end with a slight cliffhanger. Please review!