And
all I see,
is a mass of confusion,
Who
I am and what I gotta be,
yeah.
I can hear them shouting now.
On and on.
Will they ever stop?
I winced as I heard daddy slam Jake up against the wall, shouting in his face.
I wish he would stop; Jake's pain is my pain.
Even if he doesn't love me anymore.
I try to block them out, but it is this mass of craziness is too large, too vast to control.
Mummy is taking him off now, speaking quietly. I can hear the pain in her voice, cracked and brittle.
'How could you, Jacob? You're supposed to make her happy. I thought that's what you wanted?'
'I do, but-'
'But WHAT?!' Her voice was rising now, the anger seeping through.
'I do love her, Bells. I'm just not in love with her. Like you told me.'
'Oh, yes? And you love her so much that you go around behind her back with that… with that…canine?!'
'Bella, I-'
'Do not even start, Jacob Black. Go away.'
I whimpered.
'Go away. And never come back.'
I started to sob, and Alice held me close.
'It's okay, Nessie. He's gone now.'
And for some reason, that made me sob even harder.