Searching

Chapter7:dreams and explanations

Bpov

I was falling the sky was rushing past me, i was falling though the clouds, yet whenever i came within a meter of the solid ground that lay beneth, it was like everything went into reverse, the clouds started to stalk me comeing closer and closer, as i was dragged back into the heavens, it was strange like i was stuck in limbo always falling but never landing, neither dead or alive, the skies started to darken and i drifted everything around me changed, the terifieing yet beautiful scene that i was falling through suddenly mergeing into something else, the blue changed to white forming the walls that now surrounded me, i was in a room sitting crossed legged on the soft flush rug that lag on the beach woodern floor, i was young and i wasn't alone, across from me sat a young women, she looked no older than twenty, she looked quite like me, her long brown ringlets that reached beneath her waist, her pale granite skin that made her beautiful chocolate brown eyes so full of love joy and happiness stand out from the rest, she had a book in her hand, she was reading to me, her face was alight with joy all the happiness in the world would look pitiful against her joy filled smile, She turned her head towards the door, i looked round to see my father leaning against the door frame a smirk tugging on his lips, her smile grew if that was even possible, i could feel the love radiateing of her like a heat wave she loved him.

''renee dearest, you know better than to spoil little bells, its way past her bed time'' renee? This women sat infront of me was my mother.

''i know, but you know Isabella is very hard to refuse'' she said pouting, but i could still see her eyes twinkle with happiness, if she loved us so much then why did she leave, it just dosn't make sense, charlie chuckeled slightly at what she said.

''but momma i don't wanna goto bed'' i was supprised by what came out of my mouth, it was like i was trapped inside my own mind with no controle as to what i did.

''come on little bells, i'll tell you what when your older you can stay up later''said charlie as they both laughed at their daughter argueeing.

''okayyyyy, i'm older now do i get to stay up later, pweaseeeee daddyyyyy'' he walked over to me chuckeling, he bent down and picked me up cradeling me in his strong arms he started to rock me gently back and forth, a small yawn escaped my mouth, their was a small giggle from behind us that belonged to my mother.

''now now belly jelly, i thought you were older, don't tell me your tiered already''

''nope, not at all'' i said popping the p.

The scene started to fade again, andi was sad to see it go i didn't really remember my mother, i wished that i could learn more about her, i really needed to start my search for her, as far as i know she wasn't at school, i needed to get into the woods and check out the other rumor, the scene had changed completely, i was on a beach, the waves were crashing against the rocks that lay on the shore, the wind blowing through my long curly hair, as harsh sobs filled my small body, my tiny fists curled up in to balls at my eyes rubbing the tears from my eyes as i watched my mother walking away with her back to me never to be seen again, all of a suddern my name was being carried in the wind, as if someone was calling to me.

''bella, my sweet sweet isabella''

I closed my eyes letting myself sink into the sweet voice that was like a loving mother chooing their new born baby, i opened my eyes to find no beach, insted i was surrounded by well fog their was no other way to describe it, it was like a never endless hall filled with mist that was gathering around my feet, it looked as if it should have been cold but it was nither cold nor was it warm, it reminded my of limbo or rather what i imagined it to look like,i looked up from my feet and their infront of me stood my mother, she was beautiful she hadn't aged since the day her parents thought her dead, she smiled at me like the day she read to me, she opened her arms out to me and i ran into them, cluching her close to my body, i found my self speaking to her like i had when i last saw her.

''why did you leave us momma'' i supprised myself, i was always told that i acted twntey years older than i really was, so maybe this was me filtering some of my childhood that i really never got to enjoy, don't get me wrong i was a happy child, i was a secluded but happy child i preferred to keep to my self, i'd dit in a corner of the libary that linked to my room curl up on the big cozy window seat and read one of my many books.

''i'm sorry my sweet, so sorry, i had no choice'' a tear fell of her check and landed in my hair, she was crying, she really did care.

''explain'' i said pulling out of her arm's and looking into her tear filled eye's.

''i can't not here at least, you will have tocome to my cottage, i suppose you have heared the rumors'' why couldn't she tell me here, i was going to ask her tell her that she atleast owed it to me to tell me now but i decided against it she must have a plausible reason for not wanting to tell me here.

''okay''

''bye now belly jelly, its about time you woke up, you know you really should be more carful you nearly died, thank Carlise for me will you, i love you, and your farther so very much'' and with that she vanished and so did the limbo that i assume she had created, i was falling again but it wasn't the same it was more like someone had his fast forward rather than rewind, i was falling through the sky like before, falling ever so fast, i saw a house it was was beautiful, the outside was all white, the walls covered mostly with windows it was surrounded by giant windows, if i didn't love my house so much i would be jealous, the hosue was fast aproching comeing closer and closer, i closed my eyes and braced for the impact but it never came, i opened my eyes to find myself touching nose with the roof of the house as soon as i opened my eyes i started falling again, i though i was going to hit the roof but i didn't i fell right through it, like a ghost acn walk through walls or a fish can swim through water, i was in a room, it was so bright and open, the walls coated a light blue colour the floors were an oak colour there was a queen size bed in the middle of the room pushed against the back wall, a white net cannapie hang from the ceiling drapeing over the bed, there was someone under the lush white velvet fabric that covered the bed, it was then as i was thinking that this was the very deffanition of heaven that i reasled that, that someone was me.

Everything started to fade iit was likei was blind like the whole world had suddenly vanished from my sight, i looked at my hand's and noticed that they too had started to fade.

''bella, jump at your body, before it's too late'' called my mothers sweet voice, i wasn't going to argue while my body was slowly dissipating, i did as she said, i felt as if i was being dragged back into my body, like someone was clutching on to me tightly, then everything went black like i was drifting off into a deep sleep.