Chapter 2:
Sam's arms encircled his neck. The kiss turned from cruel to cruelly passionate. Jason's tongue swept into her mouth, relishing the taste of her. He mercilessly bit her lip with his teeth, tugging it into his own mouth to suck on.
Sam moaned in response, unable to stop herself. Her body arched up against his, pressing herself fully into him, into the kiss. She had a need to feel his skin, to taste it. She tore her mouth from his and bit his neck, not gently but not hard enough to draw blood.
Her bite caused Jason to groan. He grinded himself into her, letting her feel his hardened shaft. She was driving him wild. Part of him knew he should stop, but he just couldn't. He turned his attention to her neck and shoulders showering them with little kisses and small bites.
Her breaths came in pant now and she grabbed his face bringing it once again to hers. She kissed him this time. Wrapping her arms around him, she threw whole self into the kiss. She kissed him with all the love and passion she could muster.
The difference in the kiss awoke Jason from the fog he had been in. He pulled back and just looked at her. He stared for a second, his heart still racing. He wanted this, but it was wrong. It wouldn't help anything; in fact it would make things worse.
Jason stood. Sam looked at him with a look of bitter disappointment. She had seen it all flash in his eyes. She always told him he was easy to read. One look in his eyes and she knew he would stop.
It was probably for the best, but it still hurt. Rejection was rejection. Thinking about all the times Jason had rejected her caused her anger to restore itself. She sighed and sat up.
"Get out of my house. Get out now."
Jason sighed.
"Remember what I said. Stay away from Elizabeth and her kids."
As he turned and started for the door, Sam turned on the stereo. The song that came on was fitting. It described her and Jason to a T. Laughter bubbled up inside her again causing it to burst forth and rack her body until tears ran down her cheeks.
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
Jason turned and looked back when he reached the door. His face was set. He hated that it came to this. She had been someone really special to him. Now she was not.
Sam got up and looked at him. Her face was set too. She hated him in that moment but loved him as well. He had been special to her. Now he wasn't.
They stood staring at each other. Neither was moving or saying anything. Both knew there was nothing left to say. It had all be said with the threat. They just stood there as the music played.
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Sam smirked at that line. She honestly had no clue why at this point she still loved him; all she knew was that she did. It was like breathing. It was done without thought. Sadly like breathing, she couldn't just stop, or she would die.
Jason saw her smirk. He had been lost in his own thoughts, thoughts of her and how he was afraid she would do something, thoughts of Elizabeth and Jake, thoughts of what the hell had just happened. It took a moment for the song to register. He closed his eyes and listened, thinking how aptly this applied to the situation.
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Tears began to stream down her face as she reflected. She closed her own eyes and said the words to herself softly.
Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know
"Do you know, Jason? DO YOU?"
Jason opened his eyes and looked at her. He saw the tears. He felt her pain. It was close to his own. He began to wonder how they got here. They used to be so close and so in tune with each other. Now he looked across the room sometimes and didn't even recognize the woman. That's what hurt the most.
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything all about me
Why do you love me
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Sam just stared at him for a second as the song ended. The tears continued to flow as she looked into his eyes. She felt for the first time like she didn't have anything, that Elizabeth had taken it all way.
"I hate everything about you. I do. I hate it. I hate that you make me weak. You make me pathetic. You make me needy. YOU MAKE ME HER!" Sam screamed at her breaking point. "WHY DO I LOVE YOU? Tell me please!"
Jason flinched with each word. Her screams penetrated his heart, and he felt real pain at what he had done to her. It didn't excuse her actions, but he realized his part in it. He looked at her with a sad expression.
"I don't know why, Sam."
"You don't know why? That's it? Just leave, Jason. Run off to save Elizabeth from whatever might frighten her this time. It won't be me…"
Jason sighed again then turned and walked out the door.
Sam just closed her eyes and sank down onto the couch, tears once again freely falling.