Chapter 2- Passion
(Syed is thinking)
I walked around the square for ages. I didn't know what was happening? I wanted to be with him. He had made his way into my head and i didn't know how to get rid of him or even if I wanted to...
I settled for a bench in the middle of the square and sat with my head in my hands. I waited for th massive headache to kill me. Maybe then I wouldn't be forced to make this decision.
"Syed?" His voice was caring for once. I looked up into him. "Syed? What..." I realised at that moment that tears were freely falling down my cheeks.
"Dad..." I whispered looking away.
"Syed..." He sat down beside me looking concerned and trying to meet my eyes. "What's happened?" I stayed silent wishing he would leave me alone. When he didn't I spoke.
"Dad, please..." I whispered as I tried to be firm.
"You can tell me." He sighed. "I might even be able to help."
"You can't." I said angrily. A bit too anrgily.
"Syed... please don't get angry with me." He said softly.
"No, I'm not angry with you." I said standing up. He watched me without stopping me. "I'm angry at me." I walked away from him. And I didn't look back. I was pretty sure I had made up my mind.
(Christian's POV)
I had never wanted a call as much as I wanted one now. I flipped up my phone for the 100th time this afternoon. That was it! I wasn't gonna wait around for him to come back. I stood up and reached for my coat but immediatly stopped and sat back down in the kitchen. This was ridiculous. I was losing my mind to a person i had met a couple of months I heard a door open. I turned and stood up. I expected it to be Zanib or Jane but I didn't want them to see me looking upset. Syed ran inside his eyes were red and I guessed he'd been crying.
I didn't really get much of a time to think though because his lips hit mine. His hands ran up my arms and pushed me back until my back hit the wall behind me. I returned the kiss. I felt stupid not knowing where the relationship was going. His hands trailed lower.
"Syed..." I said breathlessly pulling away. "I can't do this... not without knowing where we are going." He stepped back and turned away from me. I wished that his hands were back on me and his lips were too.
"I don't know,Christian." He turned around to face me. Subconsciously I took a step towards him. "Please don't." He said noticing the gesture more than I had.
"What did you think about?"
"I don't know. Not much. I mean I met my dad. But I don't know. I still want you. I want to be with them too."
"There's one solution..." I whispered.
"What?"
"Tell them."
"No." He said firmly. "I can't. What would happen if I never told them."
"I don't know." I said dumbly but then I got it. "An affair?"
"Don't say it like that, Christian." He stepped towards me and held both of my hands. "It doesn't have to be just sex. I'm talking me and you together."
"But we won't be together will we? You'll still be hiding it from them."
"You and me won't go behind their backs for long,just long enough." He looked at me with those amazing brown eyes. I knew I couldn't refuse him. His lips forced onto mine again and I didn't push him away.