Chapter 5
BPOV
After the excursion, Edward and I felt closer than ever before. We talked more and not just about school work. So I decided that I might as well try and see him even more because every day, every time I saw him I felt happier than I had felt in a long, long time. I doubt he felt the same way but hey...a girl can dream.
After class, on a Friday afternoon, I decided to go and ask Edward about something.
"Ed-, I mean Mr. Cullen?" I asked him as he was cleaning his desk. He looked up with that heart-breaking, gorgeous crooked smile.
"Please, don't feel uncomfortable calling me Edward" he said, still with that smile on his face.
It took me a second to collect my thoughts and continue "I, um...was wondering if I could have some help with the school work?" I said really fast.
He looked at me with a confused look "Like private tuition? I don't think you'll need any, your last exam showed that you knew exactly what you were doing"
"Well...Umm...in the last few lessons I didn't quite understand everything" I said, trying to think of something we had just done in class.
"Which part of the lessons?" he pressed still looking confused.
"Umm" I tried desperately to think of something "I couldn't name all the internal organs of that rat that we dissected last week?" I said wearily, hoping he would buy my story.
His face softened "Oh, okay, that's quite easy to explain. Sure I can go over that part again with you, do you have time now?" he asked.
"Yeah sure" I said enthusiastically.
"Great" he said smiling.
"Well it's basically just knowing what to look for" he said while sketching a perfect diagram of the insides of a rat "as you can see there are the lungs, the stomach, the pancreas, the kidneys, the small intestines, and the large intestines" he said while pointing to them all. "Got that?" he asked, turning around to look at me."
"Ummm...yeah, sure, got that" I stuttered. Most of the other stuff he said I didn't catch because I was to busy looking at how beautiful he was. Even though I saw him everyday, it never ceased to amaze me at how perfect he was.
Only when he started calling my name did I come out of the trance I was in.
"Oh...umm...sorry, I missed that last part?" I said, blushing deeply in embarrassment.
"Which last part exactly?" he asked, raising one eyebrow.
"Umm...the...umm...sorry, I tend to zone out when I'm with you" I admitted, awkwardly scratching the back of my neck.
"Is that why you haven't been understanding stuff? Maybe I should get you moved to another class if that will help you concentrate" he said with a worried look on his face.
"No no, I'm fine, don't worry about me" I said quickly. I had never been the type of girl to be melodramatic, but just the thought of not seeing him everyday was making me feel sick.
"You sure? I wouldn't want to be the reason your marks go down" he said, walking over to me and leaning over the desk.
"Absolutely sure" I said, with a big smile on my face.
"That's good, I wouldn't want to lose my favourite student" he chuckled, grinning as well.
"So I'm your favourite student, am I?" I questioned, a slight blush creeping into my cheeks.
"Of course, who else would it be?" he said reaching up to move a strand of hair out of my eyes.
I subconsciously leaned in to his touch and his hand cupped my cheek.
"You are so beautiful" he whispered, looking deep into my eyes.
"Nothing compared to you" I whispered back.
He leaned in very slowly, very hesitantly. When he was only less than an inch away from me, when I could taste his vivid scent on my tongue, I closed the space between us.
His lips were so solid and cold on mine. I moulded myself in to him, making sure there was no space between us. My hands twisted in his hair, securing his face to mine.
One of his hands was in my hair, twisting and locking in place, while the other found the small of my back, pulling me to him.
The strange thing was that it didn't feel weird, it felt right. There was this strange electric pulse flowing through my body.
Eventually I had to break away, gasping for air, and his lips moved to my neck. Every time he kissed me it felt a shock right through my body
Then he froze and stepped away from me, looking at the floor, ashamed.
"I'm...so...sorry" he whispered, still not meeting my eyes.
"I shouldn't have done that, that was a big mistake, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry" he said over and over.
"Please stop beating yourself up, it was equally my fault, I didn't stop it either" I said, trying to make him feel better.
"No, No, No, you don't know what you're saying, I might as well kill you now, it's better than what's going to happen to you now" he shouted, looking at me with angry eyes.
"Why are you so angry? What's the worst that could happen-?"
"You have NO idea" he interrupted, still shouting. We stood there for awhile, just looking awkwardly at the floor.
"You should really go now" he said, looking up at me. I smiled at the memory. "What's so amusing?" he asked, raising one eyebrow.
"That's the exact thing you said to me when we first met" I said looking in to his beautiful eyes.
"So it is" he said, a smile crawling on to his flawless lips.
"'Umm...okay...I'll see you around then" I chuckled. I turned to the door but his iron grip caught my shoulder and spun me around to face him.
His lips crashed down on mine and his hands cupped my face, making escape impossible.
I kissed him back eagerly. He was like a drug to me; I knew I couldn't live with out him.
I loved him.
There was no way in the world he could love me the same way I did, but I didn't care.
When he released me his lips moved to my ear.
"Have a good weekend my beauty" he whispered. I was to breathless to say anything so I just nodded my head as I looked in to his eyes.
I stretched up on my toes to give him one quick peck on the lips as I turned to stagger out of the room. When I got to the door I remembered something.
"Oh, Edward?" I said.
He had not moved an inch "Yes, Bella" he said in his 'teacher voice'.
"I was wondering if we could make this tuition thing...a weekly thing." I proposed, expecting the worst.
He thought about it for a minute and finally said "Yes, I guess I could make room for that" grinning widely.
"Great, see you on Monday" I said cheerfully, skipping out of the room.
EPOV
After the excursion, I wanted to see Bella more and more. I felt this subconscious draw to her, almost like a magnet. I craved her presence and her intoxicating scent. I tried to spend as much time as possible with her.
She must think I'm some psycho teacher that is following her, I thought as I rubbed my head in the last class of the week.
So when she approached my desk, after the Friday lesson, I was surprised …and secretly thrilled.
"Ed-, I mean Mr. Cullen?" she whispered.
I looked up at her with a friendly smile "Please, don't feel uncomfortable calling me Edward" Her eyes glazed over and she took a moment to collect her thoughts, I loved that trait.
"I, ummm...was wondering if I could have some help with the school work?" she blurted out.
"Like private tuition? I don't think you'll need any, your last exam showed that you knew exactly what you were doing" I said, confused.
"Well...Ummm...in the last few lessons I didn't quite understand everything" she continued.
"Which part of the lessons?" I asked, still a little confused.
"Ummm...I couldn't name all the internal organs of that rat that we dissected last week" she said uneasily.
"Oh, okay, that's quite easy to explain. Sure I can go over that part again with you, do you have time now?" I asked eagerly.
"Yeah sure" she said just as eagerly.
"Great" I said smiling widely. I moved over to the black board and started sketching a diagram of a dissected rat. "Well it's basically just knowing what to look for, as you can see there are the lungs, the stomach, the pancreas, the kidneys, the small intestines, and the large intestines" I said, pointing to them as I said them, "Got that?" I asked as I turned around to look at her.
"Ummm...yeah, sure, got that" she stuttered, she was obviously distracted by something.
What could she be distracted by? I asked mentally. I continued blabbing about the diagram on the board while my mind was else where. She couldn't be distracted by me, could she? I mean I'm the pervert teacher that's obsessed with her.
As I was blabbing about the pats of a rat, her eyes glazed over. I knew that was a sign that she was not concentrating.
"Bella? Bella!" I called, getting her attention.
"Oh...umm...sorry, I missed that last part?" She said, her mouth-watering blood rushing to her cheeks.
"Which last part exactly?" I asked her as I lent casually against my desk.
"Umm...the...umm...sorry, I tend to zone out when I'm with you" she said looking at the table bashfully.
"Is that why you haven't been understanding stuff? Maybe I should get you moved to another class if that will help you concentrate" I said reluctantly.
"No no, I'm fine, don't worry about me" she said quickly.
"You sure? I wouldn't want to be the reason your marks go down" I said walking over to her and leaning over her desk.
"Absolutely sure" she reassured, giving me that beautiful smile of hers.
"That's good, I wouldn't want to lose my favourite student" I said, returning her smile.
"So I'm your favourite student, am I?" she asked as more blood flooded her cheeks.
"Of course, who else would it be?" I said, while I subconsciously brought my hand up to brush a strand of hair away from her eyes.
She lent into my touch and I cupped her perfect face with my hand.
Her skin was so warm beneath my hand and, for the first time in 110 years, my heart felt warm and complete.
"You are so beautiful" I whispered subconsciously, looking deep into her warm brown eyes.
"Nothing compared to you" she whispered back.
I leaned in very slowly, while the monster inside me roared with fury. "Drink her blood you idiot" it taunted, but I ignored it.
When she was less than an inch away from my face, she closed the gap between us.
Her lips moulded themselves into my solid lips eagerly. I felt this over powering electricity running through me every time we touched.
It was then and there I knew it.
I loved her; I loved her more than every thing in the world combined.
I loved her more than Tanya.
Her hands twisted in my bronze hair as one of my hands twisted in her silky brown hair. My other hand found the small of her back, pressing her to me.
Eventually I had to break away, allowing her to breath, but my lips didn't leave her skin. They kissed along her jaw line hungrily.
Then something clicked in my head. Alice's image flooded my mind, Bella dying over and over again. I had now forced that future on her. If I had been strong enough to resist my wants, I could have saved her, but now…she was doomed.
I stepped away from her, looking at the floor, disgusted at what I had done.
"I'm...so...sorry" was all I could say "I shouldn't have done that, that was a big mistake, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry" I repeated over and over again.
"Please stop beating yourself up, it was equally my fault, I didn't stop it either" she said, trying to share the blame.
"No, No, No, you don't know what you're saying, I might as well kill you now, it's better than what's going to happen to you now" I said looking up at her. She winced at my angry expression.
"Why are you so angry? What's the worst that could happen-?"
"You have NO idea" I interrupted, I noticed that I was now shouting.
We stood there in awkward silence for awhile.
"You should really go now" I said quietly.
A smile crept on to her stunning face.
"What's so amusing?" I said confused, how could she be happy when she was doomed?
"That's the exact thing you said to me when we first met" she said looking into my eyes.
"So it is" I said, starting to smile as well.
"Umm...okay...I'll see you around then" she said grinning.
She turned for the door but I caught her hand and spun her around to face me. My lips crashed down on hers enthusiastically. If I had already ruined her chance of survival, I might as well enjoy my self.
The monster within me was still trying to claw itself to the surface, but I pushed it down deeper. She returned my enthusiasm and kissed me back.
When I broke away, my lips moved to her ear "Have a good weekend my beauty" I whispered. I thought she might get freaked out if I called her love.
She just nodded breathlessly and looked into my eyes.
She stretched up on her toes to give me one quick peck on the lips before she turned to walk, or more like stumble, out the door. She was halfway out the door when she turned around "Oh, Edward?" she said.
"Yes, Bella" I said formally.
"I was wondering if we could make this tuition thing...a weekly thing." she asked.
I thought about it for a moment and finally came to a decision "Yes, I guess I could make room for that" I said smiling widely.
"Great, see you on Monday" she called happily as she skipped out the door.
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